Friday, May 23, 2008
we will see how things work out
It's been a year since my last post...
Ok...
Moving on...
Here's my other blog...
Shhh....
Yes...
It's been updated for a while...
Heee...
http://painhealschicksdigscarsglorylasts4eva.blogspot.com/
Ok...
Moving on...
Here's my other blog...
Shhh....
Yes...
It's been updated for a while...
Heee...
http://painhealschicksdigscarsglorylasts4eva.blogspot.com/
Labels: we will see how things work out
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Last Post
This shall undoubtedly, and officially be my last post...
I'm officially not going to update this blog anymore...
It's really pissing me off that i can't update it at home...
Especially when i feel like blogging...
There's things i want to say...
Things i wanna let out...
But the inconvenience of only being able to update at school
is wearing me out...
Well...
It's been fun...
I mean being able to blog for the past 1 year...
When i started out...
I didn't really see myself going up to here...
I mean 1 year for me is kinda long...
Though when i do think about it as my hands move
around the keyboard...
The 1 year seems short...
Hahaha...
Though i won't be updating...
I won't delete this blog...
Just in case i ever need to look back to my past...
I'll have this to remind me what it looked like...
Thank you all...
Readers out there...
Hahaha...
You make my blogging a whole lot more fun!!
Especially with all the tags u left behind...
But no worries...
We can still keep in touch...
There's still the taggie...
lolx...
Well call or msg me if u need nyting...
There's things...
things in my head i need to let out...
Dun mind me...
Just dun take the next words too seriously...
I've told people...
Those who asked the question why am i still single...
And my answer is...
I'm a sinking ship...
And i dun want others to sink with me...
That answer... i give when i face that kind of question...
But now...
I feel like a driftwood in the open sea...
Pushed around...
No control...
Moving to anywhere the waves lead me...
Feeling down this past few days...
Feel like i'm not in control of my life anymore...
Actually it really seems i'm not in control...
ZZZzzzzz....
You may say...
Buck up...
Change yourself...
Only you can do it...
The truth is...
If it's that easy...
I would have already fucking done it!!
Makes my heart boil just thinking how easy people
say this kinda things when it's fucking harder then it looks...
But in the end...
Yes... I know...
I CAN'T keep living my life like this...
Yes I KNOW...
Words you say are TRUE!...
And i know what i have to do...
And i tell myself to change...
To do what needs to be done...
But when it really comes down to doing it...
At the end of the day...
When i face it...
I can't find the strength to do it...
you know...
All the words i say to myself...
All the things i plan to do...
Haiz...
Is my resolve that easily broken??
I'm sorry...
For being this weak...
I'm trying here... you know...
Trying to stand on my two feet...
Trying not to call on anyone for help...
I'm trying to cross this bridge alone...
For i feel...
That if i don't cross this bridge alone...
I'll never be able to stand up on my own...
People say...
There's light at the end of the tunnel...
I just hope...
The electricity doesn't die off before i reach the
end of the tunnel...
There's a sentence in this book...
I read years ago...
I'm not sure if i've already said it here before...
But if i've said it...
I'll say it again...
I'm not taking any credit for the sentence...
And it's NOT 100% correct from word to word...
I'm going to change it and adapt it...
And create something a bit different...
By adding words and removing certaing words to
and from the original saying...
It goes something like this...
Have you ever looked at the reflection of the moon on a running river? Or your own reflection on a running river in that matter... The water keeps moving... But the reflection remains still...
Life's like that you know... You see... Time keeps moving... Things change... People change... You'll also lose some people in your life...
But in the end... You always have yourself... You always have yourself to depend on...
Well... up to here...
Sadly but true...
For some reason...
My fingers type more slowly...
As though not wanting this to end like this...
Haiz...
In the end...
There's still things i want to talk about...
Like the time i met my old fwen...
Words exchanged that she may not understand...
Haiz...
Forget it...
I made a short msg last month...
Kinda like a short poem...
Arnab got it first...
Since she was the reason i made it...
It's been a while since the last time i wrote a poem...
I just can't seem to find the inspiration to write one...
Haiz...
People say:
"Life is lyke a box of chocolates. You never know what you'll get."
If that's true, i know one thing for sure.
1 of the pieces will be sweet.
Cuz that piece is ou! =D
Too short i guess...
Lolx...
But i wanted it to be like an sms kinda thingy...
So i couldn't make it too long...
Anywyay...
This is the end...
Well... Officially it is...
But somehow...
I feel that...
I may actually...
Come in here once in a while...
Just to let out what's been on my mind...
Usually i'll say...
Till next time...
Or something like that...
Lolx...
But now...
I'll have to say...
Good Bye
I'm officially not going to update this blog anymore...
It's really pissing me off that i can't update it at home...
Especially when i feel like blogging...
There's things i want to say...
Things i wanna let out...
But the inconvenience of only being able to update at school
is wearing me out...
Well...
It's been fun...
I mean being able to blog for the past 1 year...
When i started out...
I didn't really see myself going up to here...
I mean 1 year for me is kinda long...
Though when i do think about it as my hands move
around the keyboard...
The 1 year seems short...
Hahaha...
Though i won't be updating...
I won't delete this blog...
Just in case i ever need to look back to my past...
I'll have this to remind me what it looked like...
Thank you all...
Readers out there...
Hahaha...
You make my blogging a whole lot more fun!!
Especially with all the tags u left behind...
But no worries...
We can still keep in touch...
There's still the taggie...
lolx...
Well call or msg me if u need nyting...
There's things...
things in my head i need to let out...
Dun mind me...
Just dun take the next words too seriously...
I've told people...
Those who asked the question why am i still single...
And my answer is...
I'm a sinking ship...
And i dun want others to sink with me...
That answer... i give when i face that kind of question...
But now...
I feel like a driftwood in the open sea...
Pushed around...
No control...
Moving to anywhere the waves lead me...
Feeling down this past few days...
Feel like i'm not in control of my life anymore...
Actually it really seems i'm not in control...
ZZZzzzzz....
You may say...
Buck up...
Change yourself...
Only you can do it...
The truth is...
If it's that easy...
I would have already fucking done it!!
Makes my heart boil just thinking how easy people
say this kinda things when it's fucking harder then it looks...
But in the end...
Yes... I know...
I CAN'T keep living my life like this...
Yes I KNOW...
Words you say are TRUE!...
And i know what i have to do...
And i tell myself to change...
To do what needs to be done...
But when it really comes down to doing it...
At the end of the day...
When i face it...
I can't find the strength to do it...
you know...
All the words i say to myself...
All the things i plan to do...
Haiz...
Is my resolve that easily broken??
I'm sorry...
For being this weak...
I'm trying here... you know...
Trying to stand on my two feet...
Trying not to call on anyone for help...
I'm trying to cross this bridge alone...
For i feel...
That if i don't cross this bridge alone...
I'll never be able to stand up on my own...
People say...
There's light at the end of the tunnel...
I just hope...
The electricity doesn't die off before i reach the
end of the tunnel...
There's a sentence in this book...
I read years ago...
I'm not sure if i've already said it here before...
But if i've said it...
I'll say it again...
I'm not taking any credit for the sentence...
And it's NOT 100% correct from word to word...
I'm going to change it and adapt it...
And create something a bit different...
By adding words and removing certaing words to
and from the original saying...
It goes something like this...
Have you ever looked at the reflection of the moon on a running river? Or your own reflection on a running river in that matter... The water keeps moving... But the reflection remains still...
Life's like that you know... You see... Time keeps moving... Things change... People change... You'll also lose some people in your life...
But in the end... You always have yourself... You always have yourself to depend on...
Well... up to here...
Sadly but true...
For some reason...
My fingers type more slowly...
As though not wanting this to end like this...
Haiz...
In the end...
There's still things i want to talk about...
Like the time i met my old fwen...
Words exchanged that she may not understand...
Haiz...
Forget it...
I made a short msg last month...
Kinda like a short poem...
Arnab got it first...
Since she was the reason i made it...
It's been a while since the last time i wrote a poem...
I just can't seem to find the inspiration to write one...
Haiz...
People say:
"Life is lyke a box of chocolates. You never know what you'll get."
If that's true, i know one thing for sure.
1 of the pieces will be sweet.
Cuz that piece is ou! =D
Too short i guess...
Lolx...
But i wanted it to be like an sms kinda thingy...
So i couldn't make it too long...
Anywyay...
This is the end...
Well... Officially it is...
But somehow...
I feel that...
I may actually...
Come in here once in a while...
Just to let out what's been on my mind...
Usually i'll say...
Till next time...
Or something like that...
Lolx...
But now...
I'll have to say...
Good Bye
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 6:28 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Lyrics - Darius - Incredible
Darius
Incredible (What I Meant To Say)
You said its over
I said "that's ok
I wasn't in to you anyway"
I told you "lately
you irritate me your laugh is too loud
you're the last girl I'd look at
if you were in a crowd"
Could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
[CHORUS:]
is you are incredible
you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth
is easier said than done,
"don't leave baby" -
now that's what I meant to say
"My worlds not ending I'll be just fine"
That's what my mouth said
but not what I felt inside
I told you "baby,
your not the answer to all of my prayers
cos I like my girlfriends in short skirts with longer hair"
could you tell?
I was lying and hiding the truth away
and what I really wanted to say
[CHORUS]
Well I said I didn't care about what you felt about me
couldn't care less about what I said or done
I didn't mean it - its not what I meant to say
you know the truth is that I care
about what you think about me
maybe too much, I've been puttin' on a front
I didn't mean it - and what I meant to say
is you are incredible you are amazing
you blow my mind one of a kind
I'm having a meltdown
you are incredible you are amazing
but sometimes telling the truth is easier said than done, yeah yeah
telling the truth is easier said than done.
Can't you see
telling the truth is easier said than done.
"Don't leave baby" now that's what I meant to say
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:44 AM
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Fishing,Climax,SP & Dover CCA Drive, School Life, Climbing... I miss you!!
Okay... Computer at home is really screwing with me....
I can't enter my blog's dashboard,
Can't check my e-mail,
Can't go to webmessenger...
All i can do with it is surf...
I can't update!!!
Well...
Alot of stuff has happened...
I can't update them at that time...
And i can't remember all of it...
Haiyoz...
But i'll try to update as much as i can...
Fishing with climbing buddies at East Coast
A few weeks back...
My climbing buddies from ITE Dover went to East Coast...
Some of us fished... Others just came to chill...
Faizal had to bring more fishing rods for those who wanted to fish...
We caught a few...
And in the middle of the night...
At around 12 plus...
It was the second time i witness this...
The red moon appeared...
Yes...
The moon is close to the Earth's atmosphere and appears red...
But if u get to witness it...
Just when it appears across the horizon...
I have to say...
It is a sight u won't want to miss...
It would be real huge...
Since it's real close...
But u know what...
With that moon...
Comes a curse...
lolx...
Those of us who were fishing hooked a lot of eels...
And seriously speaking...
When i had mine...
I didn't feel like fishing anymore...
The eel i caught got stomped by me...
Really angry with it...
lolx...
Getting angry over an eel... haha...
Haiyoz...
Suay lar...
Old folks would say...
If you ever catch any eels...
You may as well pack up and leave...
Cuz no fish would come near ur fishing line...
But i still fished of course...
What else is there to do...
The eels that were caught were put in the same net together with the other fishes that were caught earlier...
That was the mistake of the day...
Cuz the next morning....
When we went to check our catch...
The eels were gone....
The escaped!!
Not only that...
They ate the fishes we caught!!!!!
Some of the fishes were left with scales and bones...
WAAAAA!!
So we learn a new lesson!!
Never put eels in the same net as your other fish...
Climbing Competition at Outram Sec Sch.
Name of Comp: CLIMAX
Anyway...
Last Thursday, Faizal, Rozihan and me went to do some maintainence at Outram Sec...
Cuz they had a climbing competition on Saturday and Sunday...
Had to take out all the tiles,
Do some threading? of the t-nuts?
lolx...
Don't really know how to spell the words...
Paiseh for my poor english...
Anyway...
Had to work from Thursday to Sunday...
Overnight at Outram Sec from Friday to Sunday...
My work basically was to belay the competitors during the competition itself...
But the competition in terms of route-setting wasn't that good....
The routes that were set were good...
Except that it took a lot more time to set it and place it on the wall for the competitiors compared to last year...
There were so many people helping the route-setters...
Though i don't really know why the setting up of the route took such a long time...
Haiz...
I could see Zaki busting his ass throughout the the competition...
Pitied him....
Wanted to help him....
But... heehee...
I'm afraid of heights...
Yes...
I'm afraid of heights!!
So i don't want to go up the wall...
But in other aspects...
I try to help him out in any ways possible...
Oh ya...
I got the chance to do dynamic belay!!!
Woot!!
It's been a long time since i did lead belay...
Kinda rusty...
haha....
But dun worry...
All climbers belayed by me were not harmed in any way...
heehee...
Now have to wait for my pay to come in!!! heehee
CCA Drive at SP
The CCA Drive at SP was from Moday to Wednesday...
16th april to 18th april...
Overall...
We had quite a sum of fresmen who joined...
You know what?
The first person who joined was a girl!!
And she's cute!
lolx...
This year we have quite a few girls who joined...
Which is kinda surprising...
Though...
The number of those who will stay will be reduced eventually...
Which happens all the time actually...
Haha...
Gary kept asking me to do some climbing on the roof...
Oh ya...
We're climibing at a hight wall here...
And i'm afraid of heights...
But for him...
I did it...
lolx...
We did a few demonstrations from time to time...
So that people would stop and look...
And be interested to join...
Heehee...
School Life
I've been trying to come to school so far...
Skipped only two classes this week...
Which is quite good if u know me...
Since i usually skip a lot more!!
Now i've got a module in a class together with Zhi Wei's younger brother...
Hahaha...
My new classmates are good...
All are friendly u know!!
Lolx...
And i'm also in this other class which i was in before...
When i had to repeat my Business Statistics module...
One of the girls reminds me of arnab!!
She looks a bit like her...
The girl once taught me how to do my Business Statistics during this one practical lesson....
She guided me throughout the whole lesson!!
Hahaha....
That's like arnab in a sense of way...
Now everyone's gone!
Except Yinto and Hafiz...
I miss everyone!!
From secondary to poly...
waa...
Blame myself for landing in this shithole...
heehee
Climbing
ITE Dover just had their freshmen orientation for the CCA also....
It was on Tuesday??
For some reason...
I thought of my previous ex...
I can't climb properly throughout the whole training on Wednesday...
Climbing later....
Not sure if i can climb properly...
But heck...
I haven't been training properly...
When am i gona start training properly?!!
Haiz...
Sparring with Daniel next week...
Not sure if i'm up to it...
There's gona be a mini competition on Firday at SP...
More like a fun climb...
Haiz...
Okay end here...
*There's a few things i didn't want to put in here...
But it's already in...
Any words of disapproval,
please tell me...
As i type,
My mind's on you...
With you around,
Life would be beautiful...
I can't enter my blog's dashboard,
Can't check my e-mail,
Can't go to webmessenger...
All i can do with it is surf...
I can't update!!!
Well...
Alot of stuff has happened...
I can't update them at that time...
And i can't remember all of it...
Haiyoz...
But i'll try to update as much as i can...
Fishing with climbing buddies at East Coast
A few weeks back...
My climbing buddies from ITE Dover went to East Coast...
Some of us fished... Others just came to chill...
Faizal had to bring more fishing rods for those who wanted to fish...
We caught a few...
And in the middle of the night...
At around 12 plus...
It was the second time i witness this...
The red moon appeared...
Yes...
The moon is close to the Earth's atmosphere and appears red...
But if u get to witness it...
Just when it appears across the horizon...
I have to say...
It is a sight u won't want to miss...
It would be real huge...
Since it's real close...
But u know what...
With that moon...
Comes a curse...
lolx...
Those of us who were fishing hooked a lot of eels...
And seriously speaking...
When i had mine...
I didn't feel like fishing anymore...
The eel i caught got stomped by me...
Really angry with it...
lolx...
Getting angry over an eel... haha...
Haiyoz...
Suay lar...
Old folks would say...
If you ever catch any eels...
You may as well pack up and leave...
Cuz no fish would come near ur fishing line...
But i still fished of course...
What else is there to do...
The eels that were caught were put in the same net together with the other fishes that were caught earlier...
That was the mistake of the day...
Cuz the next morning....
When we went to check our catch...
The eels were gone....
The escaped!!
Not only that...
They ate the fishes we caught!!!!!
Some of the fishes were left with scales and bones...
WAAAAA!!
So we learn a new lesson!!
Never put eels in the same net as your other fish...
Climbing Competition at Outram Sec Sch.
Name of Comp: CLIMAX
Anyway...
Last Thursday, Faizal, Rozihan and me went to do some maintainence at Outram Sec...
Cuz they had a climbing competition on Saturday and Sunday...
Had to take out all the tiles,
Do some threading? of the t-nuts?
lolx...
Don't really know how to spell the words...
Paiseh for my poor english...
Anyway...
Had to work from Thursday to Sunday...
Overnight at Outram Sec from Friday to Sunday...
My work basically was to belay the competitors during the competition itself...
But the competition in terms of route-setting wasn't that good....
The routes that were set were good...
Except that it took a lot more time to set it and place it on the wall for the competitiors compared to last year...
There were so many people helping the route-setters...
Though i don't really know why the setting up of the route took such a long time...
Haiz...
I could see Zaki busting his ass throughout the the competition...
Pitied him....
Wanted to help him....
But... heehee...
I'm afraid of heights...
Yes...
I'm afraid of heights!!
So i don't want to go up the wall...
But in other aspects...
I try to help him out in any ways possible...
Oh ya...
I got the chance to do dynamic belay!!!
Woot!!
It's been a long time since i did lead belay...
Kinda rusty...
haha....
But dun worry...
All climbers belayed by me were not harmed in any way...
heehee...
Now have to wait for my pay to come in!!! heehee
CCA Drive at SP
The CCA Drive at SP was from Moday to Wednesday...
16th april to 18th april...
Overall...
We had quite a sum of fresmen who joined...
You know what?
The first person who joined was a girl!!
And she's cute!
lolx...
This year we have quite a few girls who joined...
Which is kinda surprising...
Though...
The number of those who will stay will be reduced eventually...
Which happens all the time actually...
Haha...
Gary kept asking me to do some climbing on the roof...
Oh ya...
We're climibing at a hight wall here...
And i'm afraid of heights...
But for him...
I did it...
lolx...
We did a few demonstrations from time to time...
So that people would stop and look...
And be interested to join...
Heehee...
School Life
I've been trying to come to school so far...
Skipped only two classes this week...
Which is quite good if u know me...
Since i usually skip a lot more!!
Now i've got a module in a class together with Zhi Wei's younger brother...
Hahaha...
My new classmates are good...
All are friendly u know!!
Lolx...
And i'm also in this other class which i was in before...
When i had to repeat my Business Statistics module...
One of the girls reminds me of arnab!!
She looks a bit like her...
The girl once taught me how to do my Business Statistics during this one practical lesson....
She guided me throughout the whole lesson!!
Hahaha....
That's like arnab in a sense of way...
Now everyone's gone!
Except Yinto and Hafiz...
I miss everyone!!
From secondary to poly...
waa...
Blame myself for landing in this shithole...
heehee
Climbing
ITE Dover just had their freshmen orientation for the CCA also....
It was on Tuesday??
For some reason...
I thought of my previous ex...
I can't climb properly throughout the whole training on Wednesday...
Climbing later....
Not sure if i can climb properly...
But heck...
I haven't been training properly...
When am i gona start training properly?!!
Haiz...
Sparring with Daniel next week...
Not sure if i'm up to it...
There's gona be a mini competition on Firday at SP...
More like a fun climb...
Haiz...
Okay end here...
*There's a few things i didn't want to put in here...
But it's already in...
Any words of disapproval,
please tell me...
As i type,
My mind's on you...
With you around,
Life would be beautiful...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 11:35 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Update... After a month??
Okay... Now in Singapore Poly's Library...
I've only got a few minutes left before i get logged out... dammit...
Nywyay...
My fwen, yitno, passed all his modules...
He's a repeat student with me...
Nyways...
I just checked my results...
And i failed one!! diaow...
I dun really care about the results now...
But i just want to pass and get the hell out of here...
Failed my marketing module...
Haiyos...
I guess it's official...
I'll be in here for another year...
Anyway...
I've just changed my blogger to the new one...
Different format i guess...
I dunnoe when i'll be able to further update my blog...
Hmm...
Most likely i won't be updating anymore...
We'll just have to wait and see...
Nyways...
Just wanna say what i experienced while doing a certain hard route at ITE Dover...
It was actually my route...
More like a project...
It wasn't finished... and i've forgotten all about it...
But that night...
we were actually trying to finish a couple of routes...
I've finished them all...
And Faizal suddenly gave me this route...
And you know what...
I couldn't recognise it until i actually tried it...
And i was like telling Faizal...
This route seems familiar!!
And then i remembered...
It was the route that i set that neither me nor Faizal finished...
And we tried it...
Faizal did it his way...
I did it my way...
In the end...
I think only the two of us finished it...
It's the going part from the second tile to the third tile that was the crux...
You kinda have to sit in on this tile that ain't big nor small...
Faizal, being "techniqal" and all...
could do this move without too much problem...
But the next tile after that is a small crimper...
Not that nice...
And from that small crimper...
You gotta dynamic to the last tile...
I finally managed to get to the third tile...
Doing my powerful way...
The powerful move i did...
had to be done at the right timing together with my body...
and the amount of power i use my be just nice...
Or i will miss the tile...
Anyway... when i finally got it right...
Time seemed to slow down...
And my eyes could suddenly see the tile so cleary...
and with this my hand could just grab it...
I'm sure that some climbers have experienced this...
The moment where time seemed to slow down...
And in my heart... i knew... that i'll grab the tile at that moment...
An unforgettable experience it is...
I've only got a few minutes left before i get logged out... dammit...
Nywyay...
My fwen, yitno, passed all his modules...
He's a repeat student with me...
Nyways...
I just checked my results...
And i failed one!! diaow...
I dun really care about the results now...
But i just want to pass and get the hell out of here...
Failed my marketing module...
Haiyos...
I guess it's official...
I'll be in here for another year...
Anyway...
I've just changed my blogger to the new one...
Different format i guess...
I dunnoe when i'll be able to further update my blog...
Hmm...
Most likely i won't be updating anymore...
We'll just have to wait and see...
Nyways...
Just wanna say what i experienced while doing a certain hard route at ITE Dover...
It was actually my route...
More like a project...
It wasn't finished... and i've forgotten all about it...
But that night...
we were actually trying to finish a couple of routes...
I've finished them all...
And Faizal suddenly gave me this route...
And you know what...
I couldn't recognise it until i actually tried it...
And i was like telling Faizal...
This route seems familiar!!
And then i remembered...
It was the route that i set that neither me nor Faizal finished...
And we tried it...
Faizal did it his way...
I did it my way...
In the end...
I think only the two of us finished it...
It's the going part from the second tile to the third tile that was the crux...
You kinda have to sit in on this tile that ain't big nor small...
Faizal, being "techniqal" and all...
could do this move without too much problem...
But the next tile after that is a small crimper...
Not that nice...
And from that small crimper...
You gotta dynamic to the last tile...
I finally managed to get to the third tile...
Doing my powerful way...
The powerful move i did...
had to be done at the right timing together with my body...
and the amount of power i use my be just nice...
Or i will miss the tile...
Anyway... when i finally got it right...
Time seemed to slow down...
And my eyes could suddenly see the tile so cleary...
and with this my hand could just grab it...
I'm sure that some climbers have experienced this...
The moment where time seemed to slow down...
And in my heart... i knew... that i'll grab the tile at that moment...
An unforgettable experience it is...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:07 AM
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Thursday, February 08, 2007
The final bbq... the days ahead are gonna be different...
Lolx... Okay... So i haven't blogged for... hmm... over a month?
Haiz...
Just too lazy to blog...
Although there were things that i would like to blog about...
But you know what....
I'm just too plain lazy to type the whole thing out...
Haiz...
So i've just finished reading my fwens blog...
Though i didn't tag them...
Most of them are having their exams...
Looking at them...
I kinda appreciate more of the fact that i've gotten all my papers over and done with...
Finished my final last paper last Tuesday...
While reading their blogs...
I realized that each blog had a certain feel to it...
I guess...
It's cuz of the different character that each of us are...
Some of it are emo-ish... some of it are proble-mish...
Basically,
It's what each of us faces more in life,
and how we look life as...
But i haven't seen a single blog...
Which i hope to see one day...
A blog that belongs to an optimist...
Where things inside are filled with words of hope...
And the world and things in the daily life is viewed in an optimist way...
a different way...
Haha...
How cool would that be huh!
lolx...
Anyway... back to exam papers...
I recall back to the time when my secondary school friend, Chi Sin, told me something...
after doin one of the papers...
I think it was maths...
though i'm not sure if it's Additional Mathematics or Elementary Mathematics?
But when i asked him how the paper was...
He said it was fun...
tricky at the same time...
And i was like huh??
How can you enjoy an exam paper??
But i soon experienced the same kind of feeling...
if not the same... it should be almost the same...
It was when i took my English paper...
Both the prelims and the final 'O' level paper...
I truly enjoyed the paper and wrote long answers...
lolx...
Eventhough it was unnecessary...
Anyway for my English 'O' level paper, i answered the comprehension section in this way too...
And in the end...
You know what?
I didn't have time to answer the summary part...
Though i had the points for the summary...
Lolx...
And in the end...
After that...
I was dead worried thinking if i was gonna fail or not...
Cuz the summary part was like 40 to 50 percent of the paper if i ain't wrong?
But luckily...
I made it...
Lolx...
But now...
Things are different...
There's almost no papers where i would enjoy...
Almost cuz...
Certain parts of a paper...
I enjoy them...
Lolx...
But the experience is not as great as the one i had during the 'O'levels...
Haha... anyway...
Exam period is truly an experience i do not like to experience now...
Moreover...
My friends from my original class back from year 1...
is graduating...
So i won't be seeing them...
Although i wasn't with them for the past 1 year,
when they were in year 3,
i still bumped into them...
and i know at least they were around...
But now...
This semester...
when i was in a different class...
I was in class 01/02...
Just started taking my third year modules...
The class was great...
I guess i'm lucky you know...
Though i have to stay back...
I still get to go to classes with great classmates...
Haiz...
My luck is pretty good i guess...
Though i shouldn't depend on my luck too much...
Hmm...
Nywyay... Last week...
My old class from year 1 had a bbq at east coast as a final gathering...
It was great to see them all for one last time...
Haiz...
I wanted to overnite...
Spend more time with them...
But... most of them didn't want to...
So in the end...
Went home...
And the worse thing is it was still kinda early when i left...
haiz...
kinda sad that i couldn't spend time with them a little longer...
but i still enjoyed the time with them....
The walk home from boon lay mrt station... was cold...
i could take a bus...
there were still busses in operation... i know...
but i want to walk home... this time round...
the last walk home after meeting them...
Felt freaking emo-ish during that walk...
Cuz of the cold..
i put on my sweater...
but after wearing it for a while...
i took it back off...
I just felt like experiencing the cold...
The wind was harsh and strong...
but it wasn't as harsh and strong as the other time when i walked home...
though i forgot the occasion that day...
i still remember that it was worse...
The walk wasn't lonely...
Cuz i had two "stick friends" with me...
Found a box but 6 were in it at prime earlier...
lolx...
I spent the whole walking time...
thinking of the night with my friends...
and planning to meet some of them again someday...
Once my first stick fwen died...
I lit the other...
By the time the second died... i was one bus-stop away from home...
A memorable day...
Haiz...
Anyway...
I can't regret my actions of screwing myself up at year 2 semester 2...
Cuz i know...
There's no point in doing so...
What's done cannot be undone...
All you can do is walk on...
And try not to do the same damn mistake again...
But of cuz...
Everytime when it comes to such decisions...
I always find myself doin exactly the opposite...
Though i know it's the wrong decision...
I can't help myself but to do them...
lolx...
Baka Serigala!
And now...
Even though i am supposed to have 1 more semester to go through before i can graduate...
I think that it may be 2 semesters instead of 1...
Haiyos...
We'll just have to wait and see right?
Haha...
Okay... these days...
All i've been doing is climbing...
It doesn't even feel like a holiday anymore to me...
Diaow...
Lolx...
Anyway...
I've got a few more tings i want to blog...
But i may do that next time...
Haiz...
I gtg go now...
Goin out...
Ehs??
This post is long...
Diaow...
Lolx...
Okay okay... Until next time...
Sayanora!
Haiz...
Just too lazy to blog...
Although there were things that i would like to blog about...
But you know what....
I'm just too plain lazy to type the whole thing out...
Haiz...
So i've just finished reading my fwens blog...
Though i didn't tag them...
Most of them are having their exams...
Looking at them...
I kinda appreciate more of the fact that i've gotten all my papers over and done with...
Finished my final last paper last Tuesday...
While reading their blogs...
I realized that each blog had a certain feel to it...
I guess...
It's cuz of the different character that each of us are...
Some of it are emo-ish... some of it are proble-mish...
Basically,
It's what each of us faces more in life,
and how we look life as...
But i haven't seen a single blog...
Which i hope to see one day...
A blog that belongs to an optimist...
Where things inside are filled with words of hope...
And the world and things in the daily life is viewed in an optimist way...
a different way...
Haha...
How cool would that be huh!
lolx...
Anyway... back to exam papers...
I recall back to the time when my secondary school friend, Chi Sin, told me something...
after doin one of the papers...
I think it was maths...
though i'm not sure if it's Additional Mathematics or Elementary Mathematics?
But when i asked him how the paper was...
He said it was fun...
tricky at the same time...
And i was like huh??
How can you enjoy an exam paper??
But i soon experienced the same kind of feeling...
if not the same... it should be almost the same...
It was when i took my English paper...
Both the prelims and the final 'O' level paper...
I truly enjoyed the paper and wrote long answers...
lolx...
Eventhough it was unnecessary...
Anyway for my English 'O' level paper, i answered the comprehension section in this way too...
And in the end...
You know what?
I didn't have time to answer the summary part...
Though i had the points for the summary...
Lolx...
And in the end...
After that...
I was dead worried thinking if i was gonna fail or not...
Cuz the summary part was like 40 to 50 percent of the paper if i ain't wrong?
But luckily...
I made it...
Lolx...
But now...
Things are different...
There's almost no papers where i would enjoy...
Almost cuz...
Certain parts of a paper...
I enjoy them...
Lolx...
But the experience is not as great as the one i had during the 'O'levels...
Haha... anyway...
Exam period is truly an experience i do not like to experience now...
Moreover...
My friends from my original class back from year 1...
is graduating...
So i won't be seeing them...
Although i wasn't with them for the past 1 year,
when they were in year 3,
i still bumped into them...
and i know at least they were around...
But now...
This semester...
when i was in a different class...
I was in class 01/02...
Just started taking my third year modules...
The class was great...
I guess i'm lucky you know...
Though i have to stay back...
I still get to go to classes with great classmates...
Haiz...
My luck is pretty good i guess...
Though i shouldn't depend on my luck too much...
Hmm...
Nywyay... Last week...
My old class from year 1 had a bbq at east coast as a final gathering...
It was great to see them all for one last time...
Haiz...
I wanted to overnite...
Spend more time with them...
But... most of them didn't want to...
So in the end...
Went home...
And the worse thing is it was still kinda early when i left...
haiz...
kinda sad that i couldn't spend time with them a little longer...
but i still enjoyed the time with them....
The walk home from boon lay mrt station... was cold...
i could take a bus...
there were still busses in operation... i know...
but i want to walk home... this time round...
the last walk home after meeting them...
Felt freaking emo-ish during that walk...
Cuz of the cold..
i put on my sweater...
but after wearing it for a while...
i took it back off...
I just felt like experiencing the cold...
The wind was harsh and strong...
but it wasn't as harsh and strong as the other time when i walked home...
though i forgot the occasion that day...
i still remember that it was worse...
The walk wasn't lonely...
Cuz i had two "stick friends" with me...
Found a box but 6 were in it at prime earlier...
lolx...
I spent the whole walking time...
thinking of the night with my friends...
and planning to meet some of them again someday...
Once my first stick fwen died...
I lit the other...
By the time the second died... i was one bus-stop away from home...
A memorable day...
Haiz...
Anyway...
I can't regret my actions of screwing myself up at year 2 semester 2...
Cuz i know...
There's no point in doing so...
What's done cannot be undone...
All you can do is walk on...
And try not to do the same damn mistake again...
But of cuz...
Everytime when it comes to such decisions...
I always find myself doin exactly the opposite...
Though i know it's the wrong decision...
I can't help myself but to do them...
lolx...
Baka Serigala!
And now...
Even though i am supposed to have 1 more semester to go through before i can graduate...
I think that it may be 2 semesters instead of 1...
Haiyos...
We'll just have to wait and see right?
Haha...
Okay... these days...
All i've been doing is climbing...
It doesn't even feel like a holiday anymore to me...
Diaow...
Lolx...
Anyway...
I've got a few more tings i want to blog...
But i may do that next time...
Haiz...
I gtg go now...
Goin out...
Ehs??
This post is long...
Diaow...
Lolx...
Okay okay... Until next time...
Sayanora!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:54 PM
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Monday, February 05, 2007
Song Video Clip - Angela Aki - FFXII - Kiss Me Goodbye
Final Fantasy XII MV -
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:02 PM
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