Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Last Post
This shall undoubtedly, and officially be my last post...
I'm officially not going to update this blog anymore...
It's really pissing me off that i can't update it at home...
Especially when i feel like blogging...
There's things i want to say...
Things i wanna let out...
But the inconvenience of only being able to update at school
is wearing me out...
Well...
It's been fun...
I mean being able to blog for the past 1 year...
When i started out...
I didn't really see myself going up to here...
I mean 1 year for me is kinda long...
Though when i do think about it as my hands move
around the keyboard...
The 1 year seems short...
Hahaha...
Though i won't be updating...
I won't delete this blog...
Just in case i ever need to look back to my past...
I'll have this to remind me what it looked like...
Thank you all...
Readers out there...
Hahaha...
You make my blogging a whole lot more fun!!
Especially with all the tags u left behind...
But no worries...
We can still keep in touch...
There's still the taggie...
lolx...
Well call or msg me if u need nyting...
There's things...
things in my head i need to let out...
Dun mind me...
Just dun take the next words too seriously...
I've told people...
Those who asked the question why am i still single...
And my answer is...
I'm a sinking ship...
And i dun want others to sink with me...
That answer... i give when i face that kind of question...
But now...
I feel like a driftwood in the open sea...
Pushed around...
No control...
Moving to anywhere the waves lead me...
Feeling down this past few days...
Feel like i'm not in control of my life anymore...
Actually it really seems i'm not in control...
ZZZzzzzz....
You may say...
Buck up...
Change yourself...
Only you can do it...
The truth is...
If it's that easy...
I would have already fucking done it!!
Makes my heart boil just thinking how easy people
say this kinda things when it's fucking harder then it looks...
But in the end...
Yes... I know...
I CAN'T keep living my life like this...
Yes I KNOW...
Words you say are TRUE!...
And i know what i have to do...
And i tell myself to change...
To do what needs to be done...
But when it really comes down to doing it...
At the end of the day...
When i face it...
I can't find the strength to do it...
you know...
All the words i say to myself...
All the things i plan to do...
Haiz...
Is my resolve that easily broken??
I'm sorry...
For being this weak...
I'm trying here... you know...
Trying to stand on my two feet...
Trying not to call on anyone for help...
I'm trying to cross this bridge alone...
For i feel...
That if i don't cross this bridge alone...
I'll never be able to stand up on my own...
People say...
There's light at the end of the tunnel...
I just hope...
The electricity doesn't die off before i reach the
end of the tunnel...
There's a sentence in this book...
I read years ago...
I'm not sure if i've already said it here before...
But if i've said it...
I'll say it again...
I'm not taking any credit for the sentence...
And it's NOT 100% correct from word to word...
I'm going to change it and adapt it...
And create something a bit different...
By adding words and removing certaing words to
and from the original saying...
It goes something like this...
Have you ever looked at the reflection of the moon on a running river? Or your own reflection on a running river in that matter... The water keeps moving... But the reflection remains still...
Life's like that you know... You see... Time keeps moving... Things change... People change... You'll also lose some people in your life...
But in the end... You always have yourself... You always have yourself to depend on...
Well... up to here...
Sadly but true...
For some reason...
My fingers type more slowly...
As though not wanting this to end like this...
Haiz...
In the end...
There's still things i want to talk about...
Like the time i met my old fwen...
Words exchanged that she may not understand...
Haiz...
Forget it...
I made a short msg last month...
Kinda like a short poem...
Arnab got it first...
Since she was the reason i made it...
It's been a while since the last time i wrote a poem...
I just can't seem to find the inspiration to write one...
Haiz...
People say:
"Life is lyke a box of chocolates. You never know what you'll get."
If that's true, i know one thing for sure.
1 of the pieces will be sweet.
Cuz that piece is ou! =D
Too short i guess...
Lolx...
But i wanted it to be like an sms kinda thingy...
So i couldn't make it too long...
Anywyay...
This is the end...
Well... Officially it is...
But somehow...
I feel that...
I may actually...
Come in here once in a while...
Just to let out what's been on my mind...
Usually i'll say...
Till next time...
Or something like that...
Lolx...
But now...
I'll have to say...
Good Bye
I'm officially not going to update this blog anymore...
It's really pissing me off that i can't update it at home...
Especially when i feel like blogging...
There's things i want to say...
Things i wanna let out...
But the inconvenience of only being able to update at school
is wearing me out...
Well...
It's been fun...
I mean being able to blog for the past 1 year...
When i started out...
I didn't really see myself going up to here...
I mean 1 year for me is kinda long...
Though when i do think about it as my hands move
around the keyboard...
The 1 year seems short...
Hahaha...
Though i won't be updating...
I won't delete this blog...
Just in case i ever need to look back to my past...
I'll have this to remind me what it looked like...
Thank you all...
Readers out there...
Hahaha...
You make my blogging a whole lot more fun!!
Especially with all the tags u left behind...
But no worries...
We can still keep in touch...
There's still the taggie...
lolx...
Well call or msg me if u need nyting...
There's things...
things in my head i need to let out...
Dun mind me...
Just dun take the next words too seriously...
I've told people...
Those who asked the question why am i still single...
And my answer is...
I'm a sinking ship...
And i dun want others to sink with me...
That answer... i give when i face that kind of question...
But now...
I feel like a driftwood in the open sea...
Pushed around...
No control...
Moving to anywhere the waves lead me...
Feeling down this past few days...
Feel like i'm not in control of my life anymore...
Actually it really seems i'm not in control...
ZZZzzzzz....
You may say...
Buck up...
Change yourself...
Only you can do it...
The truth is...
If it's that easy...
I would have already fucking done it!!
Makes my heart boil just thinking how easy people
say this kinda things when it's fucking harder then it looks...
But in the end...
Yes... I know...
I CAN'T keep living my life like this...
Yes I KNOW...
Words you say are TRUE!...
And i know what i have to do...
And i tell myself to change...
To do what needs to be done...
But when it really comes down to doing it...
At the end of the day...
When i face it...
I can't find the strength to do it...
you know...
All the words i say to myself...
All the things i plan to do...
Haiz...
Is my resolve that easily broken??
I'm sorry...
For being this weak...
I'm trying here... you know...
Trying to stand on my two feet...
Trying not to call on anyone for help...
I'm trying to cross this bridge alone...
For i feel...
That if i don't cross this bridge alone...
I'll never be able to stand up on my own...
People say...
There's light at the end of the tunnel...
I just hope...
The electricity doesn't die off before i reach the
end of the tunnel...
There's a sentence in this book...
I read years ago...
I'm not sure if i've already said it here before...
But if i've said it...
I'll say it again...
I'm not taking any credit for the sentence...
And it's NOT 100% correct from word to word...
I'm going to change it and adapt it...
And create something a bit different...
By adding words and removing certaing words to
and from the original saying...
It goes something like this...
Have you ever looked at the reflection of the moon on a running river? Or your own reflection on a running river in that matter... The water keeps moving... But the reflection remains still...
Life's like that you know... You see... Time keeps moving... Things change... People change... You'll also lose some people in your life...
But in the end... You always have yourself... You always have yourself to depend on...
Well... up to here...
Sadly but true...
For some reason...
My fingers type more slowly...
As though not wanting this to end like this...
Haiz...
In the end...
There's still things i want to talk about...
Like the time i met my old fwen...
Words exchanged that she may not understand...
Haiz...
Forget it...
I made a short msg last month...
Kinda like a short poem...
Arnab got it first...
Since she was the reason i made it...
It's been a while since the last time i wrote a poem...
I just can't seem to find the inspiration to write one...
Haiz...
People say:
"Life is lyke a box of chocolates. You never know what you'll get."
If that's true, i know one thing for sure.
1 of the pieces will be sweet.
Cuz that piece is ou! =D
Too short i guess...
Lolx...
But i wanted it to be like an sms kinda thingy...
So i couldn't make it too long...
Anywyay...
This is the end...
Well... Officially it is...
But somehow...
I feel that...
I may actually...
Come in here once in a while...
Just to let out what's been on my mind...
Usually i'll say...
Till next time...
Or something like that...
Lolx...
But now...
I'll have to say...
Good Bye
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 6:28 PM
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