Sunday, December 31, 2006
Lyrics - Bon Jovi - Always
Always
Bon Jovi
This romeo is bleeding, but you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well,I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
1-Yeah I, will love you, baby
Always and i'll be there
Forever and a day, always
2-I'll be there, till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when i die you'll be on my mind and I'll love you, always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair
Touch your lips, to hold you near,
When you say your prayers, try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear,
I'll wish I was him
'Cause these words are mine, to say to you
'Til the end of time (rpt 1)
If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price i won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby, if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams, and our old lives,
We'll find a place, where the sun still shines
(rpt 1,2)
Bon Jovi
This romeo is bleeding, but you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well,I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
1-Yeah I, will love you, baby
Always and i'll be there
Forever and a day, always
2-I'll be there, till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
I know when i die you'll be on my mind and I'll love you, always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair
Touch your lips, to hold you near,
When you say your prayers, try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear,
I'll wish I was him
'Cause these words are mine, to say to you
'Til the end of time (rpt 1)
If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price i won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby, if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams, and our old lives,
We'll find a place, where the sun still shines
(rpt 1,2)
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 3:05 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Pushing my body with my mental at Climbasia
Update on Saturday, 30/12/2006
Basically...
This day... had a lot of plans...
Not my plans...
Juz some tings which i had to choose to do...
Basically...
Meet up with my fwens as i usually do...
Cuz one of them books out on Friday...
So spend time with him...
Next one was to meet up with arnab...
Catch up on times...
Yupz...
But... Couldn't...
Cuz the next ting pop up...
Which was...
Going climbing with my sis and faizal they all...
Cuz my sis will be going on a course soon...
So she can't climb that often soon...
So she wanted me to climb also...
As company...
Lolx...
Hmm... Next would be to meet Burn( my fwen's nick who's actually Azmi)
He's my ying... or the darkside... I'm the yang... lolx...
Nyway... supposed to go to this open house...
I think it's the Tuas SCDF??
Cuz he's thinking of signing on with the SCDF...
But that plan cancelled...
Cuz Wan not around...
So ya...
So... in the end...
I had to go climb...
But actually i thought of meeting arnab before goin...
But i end up woking up late...
Diaowz..
Paiseh...
So i ended up goin climbing at climbasia...
Well... not climbing...
the correct term would be bouldering...
Supposed to go out at 3...
But i was so engrossed with playing my xbox game...
Till i didn't realize the time... diaowz...
So ended up leaving later...
Arriving at climbasia...
I realized i had $50+? in my membership card??
Hmm... tink cuz long time nvr go...
All the credit got from competitions...
Not mine alone...
Some ppl win... they dun want...
so they pass me...
=)
heehee...
Nywayz...
Starting warm-up route was ok...
But the routes after that...
totally sick...
For some reason i feel real shack...
When i climb...
My whole body's shivering...
The second route...
Aiyo...
I know i can finish the route...
but for some reason...
By the time i get the tile at one of the crux...
I seem to be real shack...
Haiz...
Because of that route...
My left pinky finger bled...
Must be because of the pincher lar...
Haiyos...
Yesterday my right index finger bled cuz of a crimper...
And now...
Haiz...
Then somemore... my shoulders felt like they had ice on them...
Got this tingling feeling...
Last time i had it on my elbows...
Then now my shoulders??
I think climbing six days straight...
Is really taking its toll on me...
But i still continued lar...
Dun want to waste my time and money u know...
heehee...
The routes after that were no different...
For some reason...
My whole body shivers when i boulder...
Can't control my body much as they shiver...
Haiyos...
Diaow...
In the end...
I had to keep taking "breaks" in between...
To let myself recover...
Lolx..
Take in some NOS!
I finally managed to start finishing routes at 8+...
Imagine the torture...
Not finishing any routes except the warm-up route...
since arriving at 4 or 5+??
Haiyos...
But i tink that...
I managed to finish the route...
only when... i dunno how or why...
only when i feel my body has recovered a bit...
Hmm...
I mean..
When i arrive...
isn't that supposed to be when i'm fresh and all...
But for some reason...
I start finishing the routes only at 8+...
Lolx...
Well...
I dunno where that energy came from...
Although i've been fighting to finish the route since the start...
I've only managed to finish them at that time...
And what's more...
I'm supposed to feel worn-out at this time...
Diaowz...
Guess it must be someting to do with mentality and all...
Haha...
Before finishing Thomas's route...
Which was the route i kept trying on after not being able to complete the second route...
I thought of my msn nick...
And felt that...
That was how i'm supposed to climb...
And seriously...
My body was really shacked and weary...
Dun know why...
But somehow... I kept pushing myself with my mind...
I really wanted to finish Thomas's route...
And i eventually did...
Faizal gave me a key word...
Lolx...
It was to stand up to get to the finishing tile...
Diaow...
Well...
After that...
It seemed to me that my body got a boost of morale...
And i started to finish up unfinished businesses!!
The last route i finally went to try to finish....
Was the second route of the day...
Haha...
All the way...
I still haven't finish it...
U know what??
Compared to trying in the afternoon earlier...
I felt more energized at 8+ when i tried to finish it...
Lolx...
I managed to get thrugh the crux...
And went for the last tile..
On the roof...
And diaow...
I managed to grab the last tile..
Which was like a horn with my right hand...
But my left hand slipped from the previous tile...
And i was sent flying...
due to the "bandor" (dunno if it's spelt this way)
And i almost landed on melissa...
Luckily she managed to roll away in time...
She rolled all the way until she was under the mini roof...
Phew... glad that she wasn't hurt...
But haiz...
I seriously wanted to finish the route...
Aiyo...
Tried again after that...
But felt different...
So i got down...
Haiz...
One unfinished business...
Damn!
Haiz...
But before i climbed the second route...
The time when i got to touch the last tile...
I reminded myself of what Chris Sharma said...
Or i tink he said something like this..
I told myself that i can't want to finish the route too much...
And i can't want too little...
Cuz if i do either way...
Something is sure to cock-up...
Cuz if i want it too much...
I'll get too obsessed...
And if i want too little...
Then i won't have the drive needed to finish it...
So when i didn't manage to do it the second time after i fall...
I walked away...
Cuz i dun want to get too obsessed with it...
Anyway...
I've gained a few things today...
Well...
My body was the one that managed to gain...
One thing good was that i managed to experince a different style of route...
Which was my intention before i came to climbasia...
Anyway... think i managed to finish up to four routes today??
The first is the warm-up route...
Second is Thomas's route...
Third... is my own route...
Which not many mangaed to finish cuz of weariness...
I can only recall me and my sis finishing it...
Fourth is Burn's route...
Fifth is Faizal's route...
Oops... it's five...
I thought only four...
Well each route was unique in their own ways...
I love them all!!
Today was really fun and great!
Enjoyed today's boulder...
Unfinished business i want to complete: 1!
But i love this route too...
Heehee...
It's uniqueness and how i kept on fighting to try to finish it...
Lolx...
Overall...
I think i did well today...
Not getting completely de-moralized when i couldn't finish the routes in the beginning...
And how i kept on fighting to finish the routes...
Argh...
Problems count so far
So so far...
Shoulders now ache...
During climbing shoulders were tingling...
Left pinky finger bled...
Right index finger bled yesterday...
The gap between the nail and the skin...
Not fully closed...
My knees shivers when i climb...
Hard to control body when i climb due to weariness...
Ankles are potentially experiencing problems...
Right elbow problem when reaching a certain number of push-up...
Left shoulder experiencing problem due to incident from the past...
Now it's weaker...
Haiz...
But overall...
Dun think they're that major when i truly look at it...
Especially compared to injuries from other climbers...
Haiz...
Actually...
Kinda proud and happy with my performance today...
Especially since i've been climbing six days straight...
Well till here then...
Got to wake up early later...
Pray cuz of Hari Raya Haji...
Oh ya...
Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims...
And a Happy New Year to everyone!!
Enjoys!!
Sayonara!
Basically...
This day... had a lot of plans...
Not my plans...
Juz some tings which i had to choose to do...
Basically...
Meet up with my fwens as i usually do...
Cuz one of them books out on Friday...
So spend time with him...
Next one was to meet up with arnab...
Catch up on times...
Yupz...
But... Couldn't...
Cuz the next ting pop up...
Which was...
Going climbing with my sis and faizal they all...
Cuz my sis will be going on a course soon...
So she can't climb that often soon...
So she wanted me to climb also...
As company...
Lolx...
Hmm... Next would be to meet Burn( my fwen's nick who's actually Azmi)
He's my ying... or the darkside... I'm the yang... lolx...
Nyway... supposed to go to this open house...
I think it's the Tuas SCDF??
Cuz he's thinking of signing on with the SCDF...
But that plan cancelled...
Cuz Wan not around...
So ya...
So... in the end...
I had to go climb...
But actually i thought of meeting arnab before goin...
But i end up woking up late...
Diaowz..
Paiseh...
So i ended up goin climbing at climbasia...
Well... not climbing...
the correct term would be bouldering...
Supposed to go out at 3...
But i was so engrossed with playing my xbox game...
Till i didn't realize the time... diaowz...
So ended up leaving later...
Arriving at climbasia...
I realized i had $50+? in my membership card??
Hmm... tink cuz long time nvr go...
All the credit got from competitions...
Not mine alone...
Some ppl win... they dun want...
so they pass me...
=)
heehee...
Nywayz...
Starting warm-up route was ok...
But the routes after that...
totally sick...
For some reason i feel real shack...
When i climb...
My whole body's shivering...
The second route...
Aiyo...
I know i can finish the route...
but for some reason...
By the time i get the tile at one of the crux...
I seem to be real shack...
Haiz...
Because of that route...
My left pinky finger bled...
Must be because of the pincher lar...
Haiyos...
Yesterday my right index finger bled cuz of a crimper...
And now...
Haiz...
Then somemore... my shoulders felt like they had ice on them...
Got this tingling feeling...
Last time i had it on my elbows...
Then now my shoulders??
I think climbing six days straight...
Is really taking its toll on me...
But i still continued lar...
Dun want to waste my time and money u know...
heehee...
The routes after that were no different...
For some reason...
My whole body shivers when i boulder...
Can't control my body much as they shiver...
Haiyos...
Diaow...
In the end...
I had to keep taking "breaks" in between...
To let myself recover...
Lolx..
Take in some NOS!
I finally managed to start finishing routes at 8+...
Imagine the torture...
Not finishing any routes except the warm-up route...
since arriving at 4 or 5+??
Haiyos...
But i tink that...
I managed to finish the route...
only when... i dunno how or why...
only when i feel my body has recovered a bit...
Hmm...
I mean..
When i arrive...
isn't that supposed to be when i'm fresh and all...
But for some reason...
I start finishing the routes only at 8+...
Lolx...
Well...
I dunno where that energy came from...
Although i've been fighting to finish the route since the start...
I've only managed to finish them at that time...
And what's more...
I'm supposed to feel worn-out at this time...
Diaowz...
Guess it must be someting to do with mentality and all...
Haha...
Before finishing Thomas's route...
Which was the route i kept trying on after not being able to complete the second route...
I thought of my msn nick...
And felt that...
That was how i'm supposed to climb...
And seriously...
My body was really shacked and weary...
Dun know why...
But somehow... I kept pushing myself with my mind...
I really wanted to finish Thomas's route...
And i eventually did...
Faizal gave me a key word...
Lolx...
It was to stand up to get to the finishing tile...
Diaow...
Well...
After that...
It seemed to me that my body got a boost of morale...
And i started to finish up unfinished businesses!!
The last route i finally went to try to finish....
Was the second route of the day...
Haha...
All the way...
I still haven't finish it...
U know what??
Compared to trying in the afternoon earlier...
I felt more energized at 8+ when i tried to finish it...
Lolx...
I managed to get thrugh the crux...
And went for the last tile..
On the roof...
And diaow...
I managed to grab the last tile..
Which was like a horn with my right hand...
But my left hand slipped from the previous tile...
And i was sent flying...
due to the "bandor" (dunno if it's spelt this way)
And i almost landed on melissa...
Luckily she managed to roll away in time...
She rolled all the way until she was under the mini roof...
Phew... glad that she wasn't hurt...
But haiz...
I seriously wanted to finish the route...
Aiyo...
Tried again after that...
But felt different...
So i got down...
Haiz...
One unfinished business...
Damn!
Haiz...
But before i climbed the second route...
The time when i got to touch the last tile...
I reminded myself of what Chris Sharma said...
Or i tink he said something like this..
I told myself that i can't want to finish the route too much...
And i can't want too little...
Cuz if i do either way...
Something is sure to cock-up...
Cuz if i want it too much...
I'll get too obsessed...
And if i want too little...
Then i won't have the drive needed to finish it...
So when i didn't manage to do it the second time after i fall...
I walked away...
Cuz i dun want to get too obsessed with it...
Anyway...
I've gained a few things today...
Well...
My body was the one that managed to gain...
One thing good was that i managed to experince a different style of route...
Which was my intention before i came to climbasia...
Anyway... think i managed to finish up to four routes today??
The first is the warm-up route...
Second is Thomas's route...
Third... is my own route...
Which not many mangaed to finish cuz of weariness...
I can only recall me and my sis finishing it...
Fourth is Burn's route...
Fifth is Faizal's route...
Oops... it's five...
I thought only four...
Well each route was unique in their own ways...
I love them all!!
Today was really fun and great!
Enjoyed today's boulder...
Unfinished business i want to complete: 1!
But i love this route too...
Heehee...
It's uniqueness and how i kept on fighting to try to finish it...
Lolx...
Overall...
I think i did well today...
Not getting completely de-moralized when i couldn't finish the routes in the beginning...
And how i kept on fighting to finish the routes...
Argh...
Problems count so far
So so far...
Shoulders now ache...
During climbing shoulders were tingling...
Left pinky finger bled...
Right index finger bled yesterday...
The gap between the nail and the skin...
Not fully closed...
My knees shivers when i climb...
Hard to control body when i climb due to weariness...
Ankles are potentially experiencing problems...
Right elbow problem when reaching a certain number of push-up...
Left shoulder experiencing problem due to incident from the past...
Now it's weaker...
Haiz...
But overall...
Dun think they're that major when i truly look at it...
Especially compared to injuries from other climbers...
Haiz...
Actually...
Kinda proud and happy with my performance today...
Especially since i've been climbing six days straight...
Well till here then...
Got to wake up early later...
Pray cuz of Hari Raya Haji...
Oh ya...
Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims...
And a Happy New Year to everyone!!
Enjoys!!
Sayonara!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:23 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Saturday, December 30, 2006
The old climbing feelings...
Hmm... Juz a brief update on what i did today...
Met Hazli to get Faizal's new phone... at Queensway...
Really sleepy that time actually...
But since i was goin to dover... I might as well get it for Faizal...
Reached late... as usual...
Siti was already there...
Didn't know she finished work early today...
Heehee...
Anyway...
Bouldering started on a bad note...
Quite boring actually...
But things eventually picked up...
But that was what?? Around 2000hrs + ?
Haha...
Siti set some routes that were her style... Small little holds...
Ok... "Holds" are actually those things that we hold and step on...
In general... those tings on the wall are called "tiles"
To be precise... "Handholds" are those "tiles" that are used for holding,
and "footholds" are those "tiles" that are used for stepping on...
Anyway... Siti has great finger strength...
Which means she can hold small tiles...
We find it harder to hold these small tiles when compared to her...
So her style is doing routes that uses these small tiles which are spaced not too far from each other...
So ya...
She set (create) some routes of her style...
And it was challenging...
Though... i couldn't finish the third one...
Cuz i spent quite a long time doing the first route...
which was the hardest...
My index finger bleed because of the pressure i exert on it...
while holding on the small handhold...
So by the time i finished...
My fingers were desperately begging me to stop torturing them...
LMAO!!
They felt like they were being burnt...
My fingers were burning!!
Well... normal in climbing actually...
heehee
But i went on to the second route...
And managed to complete it...
But by the third route...
Jialat...
My index finger cannot take it liao...
My mind also cannot tahan...
Lolx...
Then i was stupid enough to wash the wound...
Cuz the water makes the skin softer!!
Stupid of me...
Well...
A lesson learnt nyways...
haha...
But...
Overall... today was extremely fun...
It's been a long time since i bouldered like this...
Doing stuff that i'm not fully good at...
Doing someting not of my complete style...
heehee...
No pain, no gain ryt?...
Though i didn't do power training today...
I think i gained some other stuff...
In the end...
It was so fun that we didn't realize the time...
It was already 2300hrs!
So we had to pack up quickly...
Lolx..
What's more...
I should be climbing again tomorrow...
My sis keeps pestering me to come and join her and the rest...
Jialat...
Like this... 6 days straight...
Hope my body can take this...
More importantly...
I hope my mental can keep me going!
So at the coffee shop...
Had to call arnab to talk to her regardin the 30th...
Haiz...
Think i have to re-arrange my schedule...
Geez...
Now u c why i can't promise u sayang??
Stuff keeps popping out...
I want to c u...
Haiz...
Hmm... Lolx...
U were sleeping when i called...
Sorry hor...
Didn't think that you were asleep liao...
Not sure if u still sick or not...
Hmm...
Call u in the morning then...
Need to re-schedule...
Lolx...
Hmm...
Think up to here...
Oh ya...
Chatting with mel right now...
Lolx...
Making me self-conscious...
Think i need to realli talk to arnab liao...
Well... Gtg...
Sayonara
Nyty Nytez!!
Met Hazli to get Faizal's new phone... at Queensway...
Really sleepy that time actually...
But since i was goin to dover... I might as well get it for Faizal...
Reached late... as usual...
Siti was already there...
Didn't know she finished work early today...
Heehee...
Anyway...
Bouldering started on a bad note...
Quite boring actually...
But things eventually picked up...
But that was what?? Around 2000hrs + ?
Haha...
Siti set some routes that were her style... Small little holds...
Ok... "Holds" are actually those things that we hold and step on...
In general... those tings on the wall are called "tiles"
To be precise... "Handholds" are those "tiles" that are used for holding,
and "footholds" are those "tiles" that are used for stepping on...
Anyway... Siti has great finger strength...
Which means she can hold small tiles...
We find it harder to hold these small tiles when compared to her...
So her style is doing routes that uses these small tiles which are spaced not too far from each other...
So ya...
She set (create) some routes of her style...
And it was challenging...
Though... i couldn't finish the third one...
Cuz i spent quite a long time doing the first route...
which was the hardest...
My index finger bleed because of the pressure i exert on it...
while holding on the small handhold...
So by the time i finished...
My fingers were desperately begging me to stop torturing them...
LMAO!!
They felt like they were being burnt...
My fingers were burning!!
Well... normal in climbing actually...
heehee
But i went on to the second route...
And managed to complete it...
But by the third route...
Jialat...
My index finger cannot take it liao...
My mind also cannot tahan...
Lolx...
Then i was stupid enough to wash the wound...
Cuz the water makes the skin softer!!
Stupid of me...
Well...
A lesson learnt nyways...
haha...
But...
Overall... today was extremely fun...
It's been a long time since i bouldered like this...
Doing stuff that i'm not fully good at...
Doing someting not of my complete style...
heehee...
No pain, no gain ryt?...
Though i didn't do power training today...
I think i gained some other stuff...
In the end...
It was so fun that we didn't realize the time...
It was already 2300hrs!
So we had to pack up quickly...
Lolx..
What's more...
I should be climbing again tomorrow...
My sis keeps pestering me to come and join her and the rest...
Jialat...
Like this... 6 days straight...
Hope my body can take this...
More importantly...
I hope my mental can keep me going!
So at the coffee shop...
Had to call arnab to talk to her regardin the 30th...
Haiz...
Think i have to re-arrange my schedule...
Geez...
Now u c why i can't promise u sayang??
Stuff keeps popping out...
I want to c u...
Haiz...
Hmm... Lolx...
U were sleeping when i called...
Sorry hor...
Didn't think that you were asleep liao...
Not sure if u still sick or not...
Hmm...
Call u in the morning then...
Need to re-schedule...
Lolx...
Hmm...
Think up to here...
Oh ya...
Chatting with mel right now...
Lolx...
Making me self-conscious...
Think i need to realli talk to arnab liao...
Well... Gtg...
Sayonara
Nyty Nytez!!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:53 AM
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Friday, December 29, 2006
No rain!!!
Heehee... It's not raining... It's 4:40 p.m right now...
And i'm so late for climbing training at dover today...
Haiz... Feel so lazy today...
heehee...
Anyway...
I juz wanna wish arnab a get well soon!!
Take care of yourself ayite!
Take more food with Vitamin C!
The weather's been kinda bad these days...
Though the sky's clear today...
Such a beautiful day!!!
Hmm...
My blog looks a little different...
Lolx...
Not used to this kind of skin...
Though... i have to admit that it does look good..
Lolx..
Well...
Hmmm... Was thinking earlier...
Of climbing trainings...
Got to do more power trainings...
Pulling really suck...
My locking power is shaky...
Haiz...
Buck up Asri!!
Ok...
Gona go ite dover now...
Sayonara!!
When there's a will,
There's a way...
And i'm so late for climbing training at dover today...
Haiz... Feel so lazy today...
heehee...
Anyway...
I juz wanna wish arnab a get well soon!!
Take care of yourself ayite!
Take more food with Vitamin C!
The weather's been kinda bad these days...
Though the sky's clear today...
Such a beautiful day!!!
Hmm...
My blog looks a little different...
Lolx...
Not used to this kind of skin...
Though... i have to admit that it does look good..
Lolx..
Well...
Hmmm... Was thinking earlier...
Of climbing trainings...
Got to do more power trainings...
Pulling really suck...
My locking power is shaky...
Haiz...
Buck up Asri!!
Ok...
Gona go ite dover now...
Sayonara!!
When there's a will,
There's a way...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 4:46 PM
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0 people in the crowd heard my words
The motivation line in "The Replacements"
It's 29th december 2:58 am rite now... I've changed my skin... Hope it's good...
But... it's not reflecting anything i'm experiencing in life right now...
But i like the words...
"i am just a dreamer. you're the world"
Haha... Guess cuz i dream so much...
Lolx...
Nywyaz... Haven't put in the song i want into the blog...
Forgot the website to find the codes...
Oh well...
Guess i'll do it next time...
Really sleepy now...
Well... maybe not...
Lolx...
But it's late...
And i still am climbing tomorrow... I mean today... Later...
Lolx..
Well... That will make it 5 days straight of climbing...
Experiencing some side effects...
My elbow hurts when i do push-ups...
occurs when i reach a certain number...
Anyway...
No pain, No gain...
Like in the move,
"The Replacements",
A line said by Falco (played by Keanu Reeves) to his team:
"Pain heals. Chicks dig scars. Glory lasts forever."
It's all true...
Pain does heal... Though in certain cases... It only heals a bit...
Chicks do dig scars...
And definitely! Glory lasts forever... If not forever...
It shall stay in the hearts of those who witness them...
I use this line at times to motivate me at times...
Especially in climbing...
When i'm pumped while doing endurance or power endurance...
Anyway... Till here...
Sayonara...
But... it's not reflecting anything i'm experiencing in life right now...
But i like the words...
"i am just a dreamer. you're the world"
Haha... Guess cuz i dream so much...
Lolx...
Nywyaz... Haven't put in the song i want into the blog...
Forgot the website to find the codes...
Oh well...
Guess i'll do it next time...
Really sleepy now...
Well... maybe not...
Lolx...
But it's late...
And i still am climbing tomorrow... I mean today... Later...
Lolx..
Well... That will make it 5 days straight of climbing...
Experiencing some side effects...
My elbow hurts when i do push-ups...
occurs when i reach a certain number...
Anyway...
No pain, No gain...
Like in the move,
"The Replacements",
A line said by Falco (played by Keanu Reeves) to his team:
"Pain heals. Chicks dig scars. Glory lasts forever."
It's all true...
Pain does heal... Though in certain cases... It only heals a bit...
Chicks do dig scars...
And definitely! Glory lasts forever... If not forever...
It shall stay in the hearts of those who witness them...
I use this line at times to motivate me at times...
Especially in climbing...
When i'm pumped while doing endurance or power endurance...
Anyway... Till here...
Sayonara...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 2:58 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Mother Nature!
Haha... Still raining... Been trying to log into blogskins.com to change my skin... but i can't... Haiz... Guess it's cuz of the Taiwan earthquake...
Anyway... Think i'll try again after climbing today... When i get home... Haiz... Really wanted to change and update some stuff into this blog...
Guess i'll just have to wait...
Hmm...
I wonder...
If it keeps raining like this... How long more till Singapore gets flooded?? I know people will say Singapore has good drainage system and sorts... But hey... Sooner or later... Something has to give... Malaysia is already experiencing flooding...
Haiz...
And to add to that... Taiwan gets hit by earthquake... I didn't know that Taiwan has got something to do with the internet... Lolx...
I realize i'm beginning to rely quite a lot on the internet...
Well... If i look around... It's not only me...
Geez...
If the internet cocks up any more than this...
The economy is surely gona be affected... Well... lets just see if anything new other than rain and earthquake pops up ayite??
Guess mother nature is pouring all sorts of tings now...
And i heard that somewhere in the western side?? They're having problems due to the winter season huh...
Well till here...
I gtg...
Sayonara!
Anyway... Think i'll try again after climbing today... When i get home... Haiz... Really wanted to change and update some stuff into this blog...
Guess i'll just have to wait...
Hmm...
I wonder...
If it keeps raining like this... How long more till Singapore gets flooded?? I know people will say Singapore has good drainage system and sorts... But hey... Sooner or later... Something has to give... Malaysia is already experiencing flooding...
Haiz...
And to add to that... Taiwan gets hit by earthquake... I didn't know that Taiwan has got something to do with the internet... Lolx...
I realize i'm beginning to rely quite a lot on the internet...
Well... If i look around... It's not only me...
Geez...
If the internet cocks up any more than this...
The economy is surely gona be affected... Well... lets just see if anything new other than rain and earthquake pops up ayite??
Guess mother nature is pouring all sorts of tings now...
And i heard that somewhere in the western side?? They're having problems due to the winter season huh...
Well till here...
I gtg...
Sayonara!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:25 PM
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Taking a different stride...
Well...
Tanx for replying...
I understand now...
Nyway...
Juz woke up a few minutes ago...
Tried the internet...
But for some reason it was laggy...
So restarted the whole damn thing...
Listening to Bon Jovi now...
Guess i'm a slow poke??
Cuz i only realized not a few months ago...
That some of his songs were good...
Diaow...
Anyway...
Found the video of The Lake House...
in Youtube...
I'm not sure if it's fully uploaded...
But i'll just watch it nywayz...
Really lazy to go climb today...
Think i'll tell Faizal to go ahead first...
I'll come a bit later...
Heehee...
I did the power sets yesterday...
Not much aching...
Haiz...
I wonder why...
Did i not do them properly??
Dun tell me i'm improving cuz i know i'm not...
Lolx...
Juz thinking about stuff...
And i feel i should straighten up...
Clear all the feelings...
It's not good for me nyways...
I dun want to be all emo anymore...
I'm sorry for those who had to experience...
this sad sorry stupid side of me...
So...
If things happen...
Then it does...
If not...
It doesn't...
I don't want to take tings too seriously anymore...
I won't hold on to you as much as i did...
And...
I'll take things casually now...
Treat you no different from others...
Cuz if i treat u differently...
Things juz seems to get more confusing...
and complicated for me...
So...
Like what Nishino said...
That's why, for real this time...
Sayonara!
Tanx for replying...
I understand now...
Nyway...
Juz woke up a few minutes ago...
Tried the internet...
But for some reason it was laggy...
So restarted the whole damn thing...
Listening to Bon Jovi now...
Guess i'm a slow poke??
Cuz i only realized not a few months ago...
That some of his songs were good...
Diaow...
Anyway...
Found the video of The Lake House...
in Youtube...
I'm not sure if it's fully uploaded...
But i'll just watch it nywayz...
Really lazy to go climb today...
Think i'll tell Faizal to go ahead first...
I'll come a bit later...
Heehee...
I did the power sets yesterday...
Not much aching...
Haiz...
I wonder why...
Did i not do them properly??
Dun tell me i'm improving cuz i know i'm not...
Lolx...
Juz thinking about stuff...
And i feel i should straighten up...
Clear all the feelings...
It's not good for me nyways...
I dun want to be all emo anymore...
I'm sorry for those who had to experience...
this sad sorry stupid side of me...
So...
If things happen...
Then it does...
If not...
It doesn't...
I don't want to take tings too seriously anymore...
I won't hold on to you as much as i did...
And...
I'll take things casually now...
Treat you no different from others...
Cuz if i treat u differently...
Things juz seems to get more confusing...
and complicated for me...
So...
Like what Nishino said...
That's why, for real this time...
Sayonara!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:29 PM
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Standard drop...
Well...
Went to climb at SP earlier...
Managed to finish quite a few routes...
And you know what??
The route which i made...
And tried so hard...
Was on-sighted by Hans!!
OMG!!
Lolx...
He's grown quite a lot since the last comp...
Which was?? Pumpfest??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I realize my pulling power is still not yet strong...
Still need to rely quite a lot on my legs...
Lolx...
To me it's a lot..
Since it's more than usual...
Hehehe...
I think my standard have dropped quite a bit...
Mostly cuz of the period of time when i slacked...
It's cuz of the FYP lor...
Lolx...
My fault for leaving it to the last minute...
Climbed for like once a week for 5 weeks??
And during those times when i climbed...
Climbing was pretty slack...
Haiz...
Now...
I've got to put more effort to bring myself back up...
Focusing more on pull-ups for now...
5 sets of ten pull-ups...
Breaks in between ain't long...
Thinking of doing pull-ups...
in-between boulder routes too...
But at the end of the day...
Still gona do the 5 sets...
But i'm wondering why...
My right elbow made weird sounds...
as i did my push-ups...
Weird...
I hope it's nothing bad...
Nyway...
looking at carene's standard...
Think she's improved...
Endurance and power is better...
Though i doubt that she knows...
Lolx...
She's improved quite a bit since then...
Well....
Since she started the training...
But don't get too happy...
You still need to put in more effort ayite!!
Lolx...
Well...
She just have to keep gradually developing...
her power, strength, endurance and power endurance...
But the most important thing...
That's seriously affecting her improvement...
Is her mentality...
Needs to be more focus...
And she needs to learn to mentally prepare herself...
every single time she trains...
Be more confident ayite rene!!
Maybe cuz of ur lacking in confidence...
Ur performance is lowered??
Anyway...
Certain things only you can discover...
Mental is a truly hard thing to train...
Different climbers have different mentality...
And hence prepares their mental differently...
With frequent training...
You should realize a thing or two...
That shall eventually help out in your mental...
Anyway...
Overall...
You've gone quite a long way since i first took you in...
Okay... that's about it...
Hmm...
Actually... before tis post...
I've made another one...
But i've saved it into a draft...
Not really sure when i'm gona post it up...
Dun misunderstand me...
It's already completed...
It's about other things that happened today...
Well... till i get a call from her or something...
And only if she does mention about the draft before this...
It shall remain a draft...
And i'll post it up only next year...
What month...
Not really sure though...
Anyway...
It's 2:39 am now...
So till next time...
Sayonara!!
a draft before this
Went to climb at SP earlier...
Managed to finish quite a few routes...
And you know what??
The route which i made...
And tried so hard...
Was on-sighted by Hans!!
OMG!!
Lolx...
He's grown quite a lot since the last comp...
Which was?? Pumpfest??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I realize my pulling power is still not yet strong...
Still need to rely quite a lot on my legs...
Lolx...
To me it's a lot..
Since it's more than usual...
Hehehe...
I think my standard have dropped quite a bit...
Mostly cuz of the period of time when i slacked...
It's cuz of the FYP lor...
Lolx...
My fault for leaving it to the last minute...
Climbed for like once a week for 5 weeks??
And during those times when i climbed...
Climbing was pretty slack...
Haiz...
Now...
I've got to put more effort to bring myself back up...
Focusing more on pull-ups for now...
5 sets of ten pull-ups...
Breaks in between ain't long...
Thinking of doing pull-ups...
in-between boulder routes too...
But at the end of the day...
Still gona do the 5 sets...
But i'm wondering why...
My right elbow made weird sounds...
as i did my push-ups...
Weird...
I hope it's nothing bad...
Nyway...
looking at carene's standard...
Think she's improved...
Endurance and power is better...
Though i doubt that she knows...
Lolx...
She's improved quite a bit since then...
Well....
Since she started the training...
But don't get too happy...
You still need to put in more effort ayite!!
Lolx...
Well...
She just have to keep gradually developing...
her power, strength, endurance and power endurance...
But the most important thing...
That's seriously affecting her improvement...
Is her mentality...
Needs to be more focus...
And she needs to learn to mentally prepare herself...
every single time she trains...
Be more confident ayite rene!!
Maybe cuz of ur lacking in confidence...
Ur performance is lowered??
Anyway...
Certain things only you can discover...
Mental is a truly hard thing to train...
Different climbers have different mentality...
And hence prepares their mental differently...
With frequent training...
You should realize a thing or two...
That shall eventually help out in your mental...
Anyway...
Overall...
You've gone quite a long way since i first took you in...
Okay... that's about it...
Hmm...
Actually... before tis post...
I've made another one...
But i've saved it into a draft...
Not really sure when i'm gona post it up...
Dun misunderstand me...
It's already completed...
It's about other things that happened today...
Well... till i get a call from her or something...
And only if she does mention about the draft before this...
It shall remain a draft...
And i'll post it up only next year...
What month...
Not really sure though...
Anyway...
It's 2:39 am now...
So till next time...
Sayonara!!
a draft before this
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:19 AM
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I'm confused...
I want to meet you...
Probably more than you know...
Maybe more than you wanting to meet me...
But yet...
I'm not allowed to...
I wanted to meet you today...
Was thinking about it...
The whole day actually...
But the same thing...
happens again...
At SP...
I called you...
Using my fwens fone...
And mine next...
I couldn't get through to you...
I wonder why...
And the least you could do...
was to return my call rite??
After climbing...
When i got at the MRT station...
Using the public phone...
I finally managed to contact you...
I got my answer...
A no no...
You were out with your fwens...
And i guess...
I'm disturbing you??
I kept hoping that you'll say...
Maybe we could meet after you leave your fwens??
Even to meet you just to send you home...
For that few minutes...
I'm happy...
But...
Those words didn't come out...
So i went out with my fwens instead...
After hanging up the phone...
But throughout that time...
I just couldn't get you out of my head...
I wonder why...
I'm now wondering...
If you've read my previous post...
And if you're mad about it...
About the stuff i've put down there...
But...
Till you say it...
I seriously won't know...
I miss you so much...
I keep wishing that i'll bump into you...
And as dumb as it may sound...
I hoped that somehow...
you and your fwens decided...
to eat at the same coffee shop we were in...
And on the train home...
I hoped that you were taking the same train...
And i seriously don't know why...
I alighted at Lakeside...
Instead of Boon Lay...
I actually thought of sitting there...
for a while...
To think things through...
And at the same time...
Hoping to bump into you...
But somehow...
I walked down the escalator...
And out of the mrt station...
I msged you...
Asking where you were...
But...
No answers...
But before i msged you...
I wondered if i was disturbing you...
I even thought of you replying;
"Can you stop smsing me?? You're irritating you know??"
I wonder if that was truly how you feel...
Anyway...
I waited...
Under a block...
across the overhead bridge...
Waiting...
Half an hour passed...
But yet...
Still no replies...
I finally decided to head home...
And when i reached the mrt station...
It finally dawned on me...
You could have probably taken the 98 bus from Jurong East...
How dumb of me...
But...
Why???
Until now...
As i type...
No replies have reached me...
Haiz...
How can one be independent...
When all one wants...
Is to spend some time with another person?
Anyway...
I would have walked home from Lakeside...
But...
Haha...
The rain prevented me from doing so...
But...
I did finally walked from Boon Lay Mrt station...
Took me 20-30 mins??
Before i reached home??
The trip was linger than expected...
Guess it's cuz of the rain...
But i like the rain...
The coolness it brings...
How the rain droplets run down your face...
I wore my sweater...
But halfway...
I took off the hood...
It was blocking the wind and rain...
from running through and down my face...
But i guess...
That was the whole purpose of the hood...
Right??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I felt better with the hood down...
It was cooling...
With the rain and wind cooling me...
I continued thinking of you...
Thinking of how maybe...
What would happen...
If we were to bump into each other...
earlier just now...
With nobody around...
Walking on certain streets...
I began to sing...
Letting go of my sadness...
I wanted the rain to sing with me...
I foolishly hoped that it would rain heavier...
Luckily it didn't...
Haiz...
It's confusing...
Just like Bert said to me earlier...
As i discussed with him of my dilemma...
Girls are hard to understand...
If you did miss me...
Why couldn't we meet after you left your fwens??
And at times i wonder...
Why do you not want me near...
When your friends are around??
Am i a hindrance??
Do i make you look bad...
Tell me...
Cuz it's confusing me...
Why did you not return my call??
Why did you pick up...
Only when i called you using a public phone??
Are you just playing around with me??
It's starting to confuse me...
It's getting worse...
Walking under the rain i mean...
has made it worse...
Probably more than you know...
Maybe more than you wanting to meet me...
But yet...
I'm not allowed to...
I wanted to meet you today...
Was thinking about it...
The whole day actually...
But the same thing...
happens again...
At SP...
I called you...
Using my fwens fone...
And mine next...
I couldn't get through to you...
I wonder why...
And the least you could do...
was to return my call rite??
After climbing...
When i got at the MRT station...
Using the public phone...
I finally managed to contact you...
I got my answer...
A no no...
You were out with your fwens...
And i guess...
I'm disturbing you??
I kept hoping that you'll say...
Maybe we could meet after you leave your fwens??
Even to meet you just to send you home...
For that few minutes...
I'm happy...
But...
Those words didn't come out...
So i went out with my fwens instead...
After hanging up the phone...
But throughout that time...
I just couldn't get you out of my head...
I wonder why...
I'm now wondering...
If you've read my previous post...
And if you're mad about it...
About the stuff i've put down there...
But...
Till you say it...
I seriously won't know...
I miss you so much...
I keep wishing that i'll bump into you...
And as dumb as it may sound...
I hoped that somehow...
you and your fwens decided...
to eat at the same coffee shop we were in...
And on the train home...
I hoped that you were taking the same train...
And i seriously don't know why...
I alighted at Lakeside...
Instead of Boon Lay...
I actually thought of sitting there...
for a while...
To think things through...
And at the same time...
Hoping to bump into you...
But somehow...
I walked down the escalator...
And out of the mrt station...
I msged you...
Asking where you were...
But...
No answers...
But before i msged you...
I wondered if i was disturbing you...
I even thought of you replying;
"Can you stop smsing me?? You're irritating you know??"
I wonder if that was truly how you feel...
Anyway...
I waited...
Under a block...
across the overhead bridge...
Waiting...
Half an hour passed...
But yet...
Still no replies...
I finally decided to head home...
And when i reached the mrt station...
It finally dawned on me...
You could have probably taken the 98 bus from Jurong East...
How dumb of me...
But...
Why???
Until now...
As i type...
No replies have reached me...
Haiz...
How can one be independent...
When all one wants...
Is to spend some time with another person?
Anyway...
I would have walked home from Lakeside...
But...
Haha...
The rain prevented me from doing so...
But...
I did finally walked from Boon Lay Mrt station...
Took me 20-30 mins??
Before i reached home??
The trip was linger than expected...
Guess it's cuz of the rain...
But i like the rain...
The coolness it brings...
How the rain droplets run down your face...
I wore my sweater...
But halfway...
I took off the hood...
It was blocking the wind and rain...
from running through and down my face...
But i guess...
That was the whole purpose of the hood...
Right??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I felt better with the hood down...
It was cooling...
With the rain and wind cooling me...
I continued thinking of you...
Thinking of how maybe...
What would happen...
If we were to bump into each other...
earlier just now...
With nobody around...
Walking on certain streets...
I began to sing...
Letting go of my sadness...
I wanted the rain to sing with me...
I foolishly hoped that it would rain heavier...
Luckily it didn't...
Haiz...
It's confusing...
Just like Bert said to me earlier...
As i discussed with him of my dilemma...
Girls are hard to understand...
If you did miss me...
Why couldn't we meet after you left your fwens??
And at times i wonder...
Why do you not want me near...
When your friends are around??
Am i a hindrance??
Do i make you look bad...
Tell me...
Cuz it's confusing me...
Why did you not return my call??
Why did you pick up...
Only when i called you using a public phone??
Are you just playing around with me??
It's starting to confuse me...
It's getting worse...
Walking under the rain i mean...
has made it worse...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:13 AM
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Monday, December 25, 2006
Why i'm not taking u??
Cuz you're just too good for me...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:33 AM
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Friday, December 22, 2006
I'm sorry
The reason i asked you those questions...
Is because i wanted to know how important i am to you...
It's also because i planned to meet you...
To see you on 25th of December 0000 hrs...
Juz the two of us...
And before we part...
I want a hug...
Not too long and not too short...
Just to pay back those times that i couldn't see you...
And to see if we were close enough for that kind of simple hug...
The reason i turned the "tool" off...
was because i didn't want you see the sadness on my face...
during and after i asked those questions...
And when u said that u knew i would "do it" before we meet up...
Really saddened me...
Cuz you're one of the few important people in my life...
U fall in the category of those who i won't "do it" before
and during our meets...
And now... i'm apologizing...
If ever i was a burden...
Cuz i feel i am one...
If ever i was a nuisance...
Cuz i feel i've always been one...
For those time i made u sad...
"those"if in case there were times i made u not sad...
For those times i made tears well up in your eyes...
For still not being able to trust in you fully...
Cuz i dun think anyone can be this sweet to me...
For i feel that there's a part of you that detests me...
Since i've always ran to you for help...
Always coming to you with sadness...
and never happiness...
And never did i return the favor to you...
For never did you ran to me...
Hence... my doubt in our so called best friends friendship...
Even if i may not be able to answer your doubts...
I still want to hear them...
But right now...
It just seems like i'm forcing you to...
There's so much i wish to say...
Like in the middle of our conversation...
The reason i stopped halfway...
and not type a single word...
wasn't because i was doing something else...
i was looking at my monitor screen...
but it's just that tears welled up in my eyes...
and my heart ached too much...
because of the pain i've caused you...
And when you asked me how important you were to me...
The reason i paused...
Was because...
i couldn't find the right words to describe how extremely important you are...
The poems i made for you...
Words in it were all true...
And the promise i broke...
I made it in the first place because of you wasn't it??
I still bear the mark of that promise...
And the only reason i broke it 4 months later...
Was because i felt that you were no longer there...
You're...
Truly one of my Nakama...
To tell you the truth...
I'm sorry for typing this down...
It's just that it's in my heart for way too long...
I'm a guy who can't trust someone fully...
But i'm not sure why i can't trust you too...
Especially those sweet words you say to me...
Cuz it's hard to believe someone can be this sweet to me...
And she's only a best friend...
Moreover...
She's the only one i can talk from my heart...
Really sorry for this...
But... i hope that u could tell me the truth...
Were words from you true??
I wonder if i drag you down...
And if i spoil you mood...
I truly wonder...
Is because i wanted to know how important i am to you...
It's also because i planned to meet you...
To see you on 25th of December 0000 hrs...
Juz the two of us...
And before we part...
I want a hug...
Not too long and not too short...
Just to pay back those times that i couldn't see you...
And to see if we were close enough for that kind of simple hug...
The reason i turned the "tool" off...
was because i didn't want you see the sadness on my face...
during and after i asked those questions...
And when u said that u knew i would "do it" before we meet up...
Really saddened me...
Cuz you're one of the few important people in my life...
U fall in the category of those who i won't "do it" before
and during our meets...
And now... i'm apologizing...
If ever i was a burden...
Cuz i feel i am one...
If ever i was a nuisance...
Cuz i feel i've always been one...
For those time i made u sad...
"those"if in case there were times i made u not sad...
For those times i made tears well up in your eyes...
For still not being able to trust in you fully...
Cuz i dun think anyone can be this sweet to me...
For i feel that there's a part of you that detests me...
Since i've always ran to you for help...
Always coming to you with sadness...
and never happiness...
And never did i return the favor to you...
For never did you ran to me...
Hence... my doubt in our so called best friends friendship...
Even if i may not be able to answer your doubts...
I still want to hear them...
But right now...
It just seems like i'm forcing you to...
There's so much i wish to say...
Like in the middle of our conversation...
The reason i stopped halfway...
and not type a single word...
wasn't because i was doing something else...
i was looking at my monitor screen...
but it's just that tears welled up in my eyes...
and my heart ached too much...
because of the pain i've caused you...
And when you asked me how important you were to me...
The reason i paused...
Was because...
i couldn't find the right words to describe how extremely important you are...
The poems i made for you...
Words in it were all true...
And the promise i broke...
I made it in the first place because of you wasn't it??
I still bear the mark of that promise...
And the only reason i broke it 4 months later...
Was because i felt that you were no longer there...
You're...
Truly one of my Nakama...
To tell you the truth...
I'm sorry for typing this down...
It's just that it's in my heart for way too long...
I'm a guy who can't trust someone fully...
But i'm not sure why i can't trust you too...
Especially those sweet words you say to me...
Cuz it's hard to believe someone can be this sweet to me...
And she's only a best friend...
Moreover...
She's the only one i can talk from my heart...
Really sorry for this...
But... i hope that u could tell me the truth...
Were words from you true??
I wonder if i drag you down...
And if i spoil you mood...
I truly wonder...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:17 AM
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The surprise plan...
It's a long time since we went out properly...
To me anyway...
If to meet you for a few minutes...
I will still be glad...
Really happy actually...
If that is the word for how i would feel...
But those feelings...
I know won't show on my face...
It's just that...
I'm too happy to see you...
After a long time...
So many feelings...
Rushing out...
Just at that very moment...
You'll know when you see it...
To tell you the truth...
If you get to read this...
Though i doubt it...
I planned to meet you...
On surprise...
My plan was to meet you under your block...
On the 25th of december...
Exactly at 0000 hrs...
With two pieces of log cakes...
Juz the two of us...
But...
Due to plans that you had...
Which i didn't know of...
I guess...
It's not possible...
But...
I hope...
You'll have fun with your fwens...
And i'm happy if you're happy...
So...
I guess i'll meet you another time then...
A smile on your face...
Is all i wish for...
To me anyway...
If to meet you for a few minutes...
I will still be glad...
Really happy actually...
If that is the word for how i would feel...
But those feelings...
I know won't show on my face...
It's just that...
I'm too happy to see you...
After a long time...
So many feelings...
Rushing out...
Just at that very moment...
You'll know when you see it...
To tell you the truth...
If you get to read this...
Though i doubt it...
I planned to meet you...
On surprise...
My plan was to meet you under your block...
On the 25th of december...
Exactly at 0000 hrs...
With two pieces of log cakes...
Juz the two of us...
But...
Due to plans that you had...
Which i didn't know of...
I guess...
It's not possible...
But...
I hope...
You'll have fun with your fwens...
And i'm happy if you're happy...
So...
I guess i'll meet you another time then...
A smile on your face...
Is all i wish for...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:49 AM
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Friday, December 15, 2006
The smile...
Though you're smiling...
It still seemed to me as...
deep down...
you're still sad...
Geez...
I shouldn't have looked at her face...
especially when i wanted to stop...
reading the manga...
lolx...
Haha...
I'm reading manga...
And others may not feel the way i do...
But reading it always gives me...
a heavy heart...
Though the girls are smiling...
I still sense a sadness behind it...
Haha...
The creator must be real good...
Anyway...
I'll update about myself next time...
Ciaoz...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 11:38 AM
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
Got to cheer up!!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 7:54 PM
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Sunday, December 03, 2006
To do... or not to do...
Well... I'm sorry for neglecting my blog for so long...
And this is not an update on my life... hehe...
I've actually made a draft post which i haven't posted up...
It's a few weeks back...
But i dunno when i'll be posting it...
Or if i'll ever post it up...
Anyway...
I've been wanting to post this quote for a long time...
I read it in a ghost story book...
"AKUMA" by ASURAS...
I realise what was written is true...
But...
Haha...
It ain't the kind of thing that you would actually expect
to see in a ghost story book...
Anyway... This guy starts to like this girl...
They've been working together for a while...
He's able to work in that place cuz the girl is leaving soon...
And the work is to be passed to him...
So she sort of teaches him the ropes...
And he starts to like the girl...
And on the day she has to leave,
the guy asks for her number...
But the girl did not oblige the guy's request...
"She then obliged him with what she calls,
her philosphy of life"...
Okay, the sentence above was sorta part of the book...
Here's the quote;
"The joy and company that we have shared will remain in our hearts forever.
It is only when people get too close together, that friction results.
Let our memories of one another remain pure."
The part "It is only when people get too close together, that friction results",
is what i feel very true...
Probably from past experience...
Well... won't explain further...
Gtg...
Arivedarchi!!
And this is not an update on my life... hehe...
I've actually made a draft post which i haven't posted up...
It's a few weeks back...
But i dunno when i'll be posting it...
Or if i'll ever post it up...
Anyway...
I've been wanting to post this quote for a long time...
I read it in a ghost story book...
"AKUMA" by ASURAS...
I realise what was written is true...
But...
Haha...
It ain't the kind of thing that you would actually expect
to see in a ghost story book...
Anyway... This guy starts to like this girl...
They've been working together for a while...
He's able to work in that place cuz the girl is leaving soon...
And the work is to be passed to him...
So she sort of teaches him the ropes...
And he starts to like the girl...
And on the day she has to leave,
the guy asks for her number...
But the girl did not oblige the guy's request...
"She then obliged him with what she calls,
her philosphy of life"...
Okay, the sentence above was sorta part of the book...
Here's the quote;
"The joy and company that we have shared will remain in our hearts forever.
It is only when people get too close together, that friction results.
Let our memories of one another remain pure."
The part "It is only when people get too close together, that friction results",
is what i feel very true...
Probably from past experience...
Well... won't explain further...
Gtg...
Arivedarchi!!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 5:17 AM
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