Tuesday, December 26, 2006
I'm confused...
I want to meet you...
Probably more than you know...
Maybe more than you wanting to meet me...
But yet...
I'm not allowed to...
I wanted to meet you today...
Was thinking about it...
The whole day actually...
But the same thing...
happens again...
At SP...
I called you...
Using my fwens fone...
And mine next...
I couldn't get through to you...
I wonder why...
And the least you could do...
was to return my call rite??
After climbing...
When i got at the MRT station...
Using the public phone...
I finally managed to contact you...
I got my answer...
A no no...
You were out with your fwens...
And i guess...
I'm disturbing you??
I kept hoping that you'll say...
Maybe we could meet after you leave your fwens??
Even to meet you just to send you home...
For that few minutes...
I'm happy...
But...
Those words didn't come out...
So i went out with my fwens instead...
After hanging up the phone...
But throughout that time...
I just couldn't get you out of my head...
I wonder why...
I'm now wondering...
If you've read my previous post...
And if you're mad about it...
About the stuff i've put down there...
But...
Till you say it...
I seriously won't know...
I miss you so much...
I keep wishing that i'll bump into you...
And as dumb as it may sound...
I hoped that somehow...
you and your fwens decided...
to eat at the same coffee shop we were in...
And on the train home...
I hoped that you were taking the same train...
And i seriously don't know why...
I alighted at Lakeside...
Instead of Boon Lay...
I actually thought of sitting there...
for a while...
To think things through...
And at the same time...
Hoping to bump into you...
But somehow...
I walked down the escalator...
And out of the mrt station...
I msged you...
Asking where you were...
But...
No answers...
But before i msged you...
I wondered if i was disturbing you...
I even thought of you replying;
"Can you stop smsing me?? You're irritating you know??"
I wonder if that was truly how you feel...
Anyway...
I waited...
Under a block...
across the overhead bridge...
Waiting...
Half an hour passed...
But yet...
Still no replies...
I finally decided to head home...
And when i reached the mrt station...
It finally dawned on me...
You could have probably taken the 98 bus from Jurong East...
How dumb of me...
But...
Why???
Until now...
As i type...
No replies have reached me...
Haiz...
How can one be independent...
When all one wants...
Is to spend some time with another person?
Anyway...
I would have walked home from Lakeside...
But...
Haha...
The rain prevented me from doing so...
But...
I did finally walked from Boon Lay Mrt station...
Took me 20-30 mins??
Before i reached home??
The trip was linger than expected...
Guess it's cuz of the rain...
But i like the rain...
The coolness it brings...
How the rain droplets run down your face...
I wore my sweater...
But halfway...
I took off the hood...
It was blocking the wind and rain...
from running through and down my face...
But i guess...
That was the whole purpose of the hood...
Right??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I felt better with the hood down...
It was cooling...
With the rain and wind cooling me...
I continued thinking of you...
Thinking of how maybe...
What would happen...
If we were to bump into each other...
earlier just now...
With nobody around...
Walking on certain streets...
I began to sing...
Letting go of my sadness...
I wanted the rain to sing with me...
I foolishly hoped that it would rain heavier...
Luckily it didn't...
Haiz...
It's confusing...
Just like Bert said to me earlier...
As i discussed with him of my dilemma...
Girls are hard to understand...
If you did miss me...
Why couldn't we meet after you left your fwens??
And at times i wonder...
Why do you not want me near...
When your friends are around??
Am i a hindrance??
Do i make you look bad...
Tell me...
Cuz it's confusing me...
Why did you not return my call??
Why did you pick up...
Only when i called you using a public phone??
Are you just playing around with me??
It's starting to confuse me...
It's getting worse...
Walking under the rain i mean...
has made it worse...
Probably more than you know...
Maybe more than you wanting to meet me...
But yet...
I'm not allowed to...
I wanted to meet you today...
Was thinking about it...
The whole day actually...
But the same thing...
happens again...
At SP...
I called you...
Using my fwens fone...
And mine next...
I couldn't get through to you...
I wonder why...
And the least you could do...
was to return my call rite??
After climbing...
When i got at the MRT station...
Using the public phone...
I finally managed to contact you...
I got my answer...
A no no...
You were out with your fwens...
And i guess...
I'm disturbing you??
I kept hoping that you'll say...
Maybe we could meet after you leave your fwens??
Even to meet you just to send you home...
For that few minutes...
I'm happy...
But...
Those words didn't come out...
So i went out with my fwens instead...
After hanging up the phone...
But throughout that time...
I just couldn't get you out of my head...
I wonder why...
I'm now wondering...
If you've read my previous post...
And if you're mad about it...
About the stuff i've put down there...
But...
Till you say it...
I seriously won't know...
I miss you so much...
I keep wishing that i'll bump into you...
And as dumb as it may sound...
I hoped that somehow...
you and your fwens decided...
to eat at the same coffee shop we were in...
And on the train home...
I hoped that you were taking the same train...
And i seriously don't know why...
I alighted at Lakeside...
Instead of Boon Lay...
I actually thought of sitting there...
for a while...
To think things through...
And at the same time...
Hoping to bump into you...
But somehow...
I walked down the escalator...
And out of the mrt station...
I msged you...
Asking where you were...
But...
No answers...
But before i msged you...
I wondered if i was disturbing you...
I even thought of you replying;
"Can you stop smsing me?? You're irritating you know??"
I wonder if that was truly how you feel...
Anyway...
I waited...
Under a block...
across the overhead bridge...
Waiting...
Half an hour passed...
But yet...
Still no replies...
I finally decided to head home...
And when i reached the mrt station...
It finally dawned on me...
You could have probably taken the 98 bus from Jurong East...
How dumb of me...
But...
Why???
Until now...
As i type...
No replies have reached me...
Haiz...
How can one be independent...
When all one wants...
Is to spend some time with another person?
Anyway...
I would have walked home from Lakeside...
But...
Haha...
The rain prevented me from doing so...
But...
I did finally walked from Boon Lay Mrt station...
Took me 20-30 mins??
Before i reached home??
The trip was linger than expected...
Guess it's cuz of the rain...
But i like the rain...
The coolness it brings...
How the rain droplets run down your face...
I wore my sweater...
But halfway...
I took off the hood...
It was blocking the wind and rain...
from running through and down my face...
But i guess...
That was the whole purpose of the hood...
Right??
Lolx...
Anyway...
I felt better with the hood down...
It was cooling...
With the rain and wind cooling me...
I continued thinking of you...
Thinking of how maybe...
What would happen...
If we were to bump into each other...
earlier just now...
With nobody around...
Walking on certain streets...
I began to sing...
Letting go of my sadness...
I wanted the rain to sing with me...
I foolishly hoped that it would rain heavier...
Luckily it didn't...
Haiz...
It's confusing...
Just like Bert said to me earlier...
As i discussed with him of my dilemma...
Girls are hard to understand...
If you did miss me...
Why couldn't we meet after you left your fwens??
And at times i wonder...
Why do you not want me near...
When your friends are around??
Am i a hindrance??
Do i make you look bad...
Tell me...
Cuz it's confusing me...
Why did you not return my call??
Why did you pick up...
Only when i called you using a public phone??
Are you just playing around with me??
It's starting to confuse me...
It's getting worse...
Walking under the rain i mean...
has made it worse...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:13 AM
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