Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Old feelings
On Tuesday, 30/10/2006, yitno spoke ur name... during the 13:00 class at SCM... I don't really know why... but when because of him... ur picture came into mind... and somehow... it made me smile... it's strange... for i thought that my feelings for you had been resolved and settled... But... i just don't know why...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:15 AM
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Vivo City... And being at a higher level...
Finally able to post... So sorry for the delays... But i have been busy... And the previous post couldn't be posted after i created it... Don't know why...
Anyway... It's 12:34 a.m now...
I think i'll just update a bit on what i've done last week...
Well... My days were mostly filled with training... as usual...
Monday, Wednesday, Friday at Ite Dover...
I can't remember whether it was Tuesday or Thursday that i trained at SP...
Nothing much happen...
During training...
Well...
We didn't exactly train...
Cuz we were doing more bouldering than anything else...
But...
On Friday...
Me, Faizal and Darren went to Vivo City...
We were searching for Siti's present...
It's her b.dae on this coming Friday...
3rd of November...
Anyway... Darren was late...
Supposed to meet at 13:00 at Buona Vista MRT Station...
I knew both were goin to be late...
So i left the SP rock gym at 13:00 instead of going off earlier...
Mind you... Before you say anything bad about me...
They were both late for previous occasions...
And i knew roughly when they were going to arrive...
Anyway... I arrived at Buona Vista at... 13:15...
Faizal arrived around 10-15 mins earlier...
And expected... Darren came later... a lot later...
13:45...
That's 45 mins late...
Luckily we didn't wait at the platform and went down instead...
Got some "fresh air"... Heehee...
Anyway... when we arrived at Vivo City...
We saw the Suria actress... Nurul... If i ain't wrong...
Anyway... finding the right b.dae present took us longer than i expected...
Well... we went off empty-handed...
And later in the night...
When we were chilling at the kopitiam near ITE Dover...
all our plans were almost ruined...
Siti found out bits of our plans of surprise...
I kept thinking of ways to keep our plans alive...
And found one...
Well... let's just say that she thinks that her surprise is going to be
somthing else...
Right now... everything is safe...
HEHEHE...
Lolx...
Well... Anyway...
My bouldering mood is low...
Don't really look forward to bouldering at ITE Dover...
I don't know...
It's just that... since my standard shot up...
I feel like... different...
At times... when i know that i can complete the route...
like on Monday... 29/10/2006...
I purposely didn't give all out to finish the route...
And let the rest finish first...
Unless when eveyone is stuck,
and i'm able to get thru...
I'll just go ahead...
Don't know why...
But i guess...
I'm afraid that people would get de-moralised after seeing me finish...
After all... some of them have been training real hard...
And all i've been doing recently is slacking off...
Since Rock On Singapore!
Get the irony??
What i'm more afraid of is that...
should one day...
people were to look at me differently...
saying that i'm a show-off or something...
and people bad-mouthing me...
and push me away...
I've seen this before...
I just...
Don't want such things to happen...
Thought of asking some people regarding how i feel...
But i guess...
The answer is within me...
Bits and bits...
I shall realize...
Stay humble always...
Respect others,
and they'll respect you...
What strength you posess...
Need not be shown off...
Use it appropriately,
Being conscious of that strength...
is enough and all that should matters most to you...
Anyway... It's 12:34 a.m now...
I think i'll just update a bit on what i've done last week...
Well... My days were mostly filled with training... as usual...
Monday, Wednesday, Friday at Ite Dover...
I can't remember whether it was Tuesday or Thursday that i trained at SP...
Nothing much happen...
During training...
Well...
We didn't exactly train...
Cuz we were doing more bouldering than anything else...
But...
On Friday...
Me, Faizal and Darren went to Vivo City...
We were searching for Siti's present...
It's her b.dae on this coming Friday...
3rd of November...
Anyway... Darren was late...
Supposed to meet at 13:00 at Buona Vista MRT Station...
I knew both were goin to be late...
So i left the SP rock gym at 13:00 instead of going off earlier...
Mind you... Before you say anything bad about me...
They were both late for previous occasions...
And i knew roughly when they were going to arrive...
Anyway... I arrived at Buona Vista at... 13:15...
Faizal arrived around 10-15 mins earlier...
And expected... Darren came later... a lot later...
13:45...
That's 45 mins late...
Luckily we didn't wait at the platform and went down instead...
Got some "fresh air"... Heehee...
Anyway... when we arrived at Vivo City...
We saw the Suria actress... Nurul... If i ain't wrong...
Anyway... finding the right b.dae present took us longer than i expected...
Well... we went off empty-handed...
And later in the night...
When we were chilling at the kopitiam near ITE Dover...
all our plans were almost ruined...
Siti found out bits of our plans of surprise...
I kept thinking of ways to keep our plans alive...
And found one...
Well... let's just say that she thinks that her surprise is going to be
somthing else...
Right now... everything is safe...
HEHEHE...
Lolx...
Well... Anyway...
My bouldering mood is low...
Don't really look forward to bouldering at ITE Dover...
I don't know...
It's just that... since my standard shot up...
I feel like... different...
At times... when i know that i can complete the route...
like on Monday... 29/10/2006...
I purposely didn't give all out to finish the route...
And let the rest finish first...
Unless when eveyone is stuck,
and i'm able to get thru...
I'll just go ahead...
Don't know why...
But i guess...
I'm afraid that people would get de-moralised after seeing me finish...
After all... some of them have been training real hard...
And all i've been doing recently is slacking off...
Since Rock On Singapore!
Get the irony??
What i'm more afraid of is that...
should one day...
people were to look at me differently...
saying that i'm a show-off or something...
and people bad-mouthing me...
and push me away...
I've seen this before...
I just...
Don't want such things to happen...
Thought of asking some people regarding how i feel...
But i guess...
The answer is within me...
Bits and bits...
I shall realize...
Stay humble always...
Respect others,
and they'll respect you...
What strength you posess...
Need not be shown off...
Use it appropriately,
Being conscious of that strength...
is enough and all that should matters most to you...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:39 AM
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
Struck by the arrow of a cupid...
Sumimase!!! Really sorry for the lack of updates... Quite a few things have happened since my last update...
I know i want to update this blog... But... i don't know...
Guess... it's partly due to the lack of spare time that i have right now...
Hmm... i think i'll update bit by bit... regarding what has happened so far...
Hmm... I think i'll start with the one event that i can't seem to forget... Hahax...
19th October 2006, Thursday
Struck by a cupid's arrow...
Okay... Class starts at 8:00 a.m and ends finally at 5:00 p.m...
But i finally got out of bed at 11+??
Hahax... And you probably think that i would go for the next possible class that i can attend... Which was the class from 1:00 p.m to 3:00 p.m...
But...
I skipped that one too... Heehee...
Well... i guess my attendance is bad...
Anyway... after i woke up... I started doing my FYP stuff...
Well.. actually... my group hasn't really started... And we've got less than 1 month more...
Till we have to submit it that is...
Anyway...
Blah blah blah...
Used the comp. to do the research...
And after all that... got ready to go to school... and left home...
around 2:30p.m??
Okay... In the train...
Ayu stepped in... at Lakeside...
Pure coincidence... I assure you...
She was heading to work... dropping off at dhobby ghaut i think??
Anyway... when the train reached Jurong East...
This girl stepped in...
And i was lyke... WOW...
She looked real sweet... haiz...
Big watery eyes...
I think she's either from Thailand/ Phillipines/ Indonesia...
Anyway... she was sitting at the row of seats opposite me...
Her seat was three/four seats to the left of the seat that was directly infront of me...
She was with her mom and younger brother...
Our eyes met at times...
And at times she would pull away...
While at other times, i would...
But after a while,
she laid her head down on her mom's shoulder...
And i was like... haiz...
cuz it's rare to see a daughter and mother to be so close like that you know...
Haiz...
Ayu and i still talked... Though my attention was mostly on her...
Sorry Ayu...
Anyway... the train finally reached dover mrt station...
It was around 3:00 p.m when it reached there...
But... i felt like staying... and not moving from my seat...
Even if we couldn't exchange words...
Looking at you was enough to make my heart go faster...
Haha... But looking back...
I wish that i had more courage to ask for her number...
I finally stopped at Tiong Bahru mrt station...
All the time...
My eyes on her...
Well... almost all the time...
If it were all the time...
People would think that i was crazy...
Haha...
Though i do think that i was acting like one...
Missing my stop...
Just to watch her...
Haiz...
Anyway...
I finally arrived at class later...
though i was late...
But...
it seems that Yitno wasn't coming...
He left the school in the afternoon i think...
And i was like NANI??!!!
Cuz the only reason i came to school was to meet our fyp supervisor...
And since Yitno wasn't there...
Hafiz said that maybe we shouldn't see him...
Haiz...
Such fate i have...
For if i were to know of this...
I would have stayed in that train...
Though how ridiculous it may seem...
WAAAAA....
Well...
I trained with carene that day...
More of like... Boulder...
Anyway...
Though... we did a little power training later...
1-10...
That is doing pull-ups...
from 1, then 2, then 3... right up to ten...
Haha... though... i think she was the one benefitting more from it...
I haven't done much power training...
Too lazy...
But i know i need and have to do it...
If i am to achieve my goals...
Anyway...
That night...
After watching Prison Break...
I called Ayu...
Well...
She said that...
She couldn't get the girl's number for me...
Since the girl was still in the train after Ayu dropped at Raffles Place to switch trains...
Well...
Anyway... i just hope that i wouldn't be as shy as this day when it comes to girls next time...
Maybe... one day...
i shall see her again...
I'll just leave it to fate...
Okay... that's all that has happened on Thursday... Heehee...
Till next time...
I know i want to update this blog... But... i don't know...
Guess... it's partly due to the lack of spare time that i have right now...
Hmm... i think i'll update bit by bit... regarding what has happened so far...
Hmm... I think i'll start with the one event that i can't seem to forget... Hahax...
19th October 2006, Thursday
Struck by a cupid's arrow...
Okay... Class starts at 8:00 a.m and ends finally at 5:00 p.m...
But i finally got out of bed at 11+??
Hahax... And you probably think that i would go for the next possible class that i can attend... Which was the class from 1:00 p.m to 3:00 p.m...
But...
I skipped that one too... Heehee...
Well... i guess my attendance is bad...
Anyway... after i woke up... I started doing my FYP stuff...
Well.. actually... my group hasn't really started... And we've got less than 1 month more...
Till we have to submit it that is...
Anyway...
Blah blah blah...
Used the comp. to do the research...
And after all that... got ready to go to school... and left home...
around 2:30p.m??
Okay... In the train...
Ayu stepped in... at Lakeside...
Pure coincidence... I assure you...
She was heading to work... dropping off at dhobby ghaut i think??
Anyway... when the train reached Jurong East...
This girl stepped in...
And i was lyke... WOW...
She looked real sweet... haiz...
Big watery eyes...
I think she's either from Thailand/ Phillipines/ Indonesia...
Anyway... she was sitting at the row of seats opposite me...
Her seat was three/four seats to the left of the seat that was directly infront of me...
She was with her mom and younger brother...
Our eyes met at times...
And at times she would pull away...
While at other times, i would...
But after a while,
she laid her head down on her mom's shoulder...
And i was like... haiz...
cuz it's rare to see a daughter and mother to be so close like that you know...
Haiz...
Ayu and i still talked... Though my attention was mostly on her...
Sorry Ayu...
Anyway... the train finally reached dover mrt station...
It was around 3:00 p.m when it reached there...
But... i felt like staying... and not moving from my seat...
Even if we couldn't exchange words...
Looking at you was enough to make my heart go faster...
Haha... But looking back...
I wish that i had more courage to ask for her number...
I finally stopped at Tiong Bahru mrt station...
All the time...
My eyes on her...
Well... almost all the time...
If it were all the time...
People would think that i was crazy...
Haha...
Though i do think that i was acting like one...
Missing my stop...
Just to watch her...
Haiz...
Anyway...
I finally arrived at class later...
though i was late...
But...
it seems that Yitno wasn't coming...
He left the school in the afternoon i think...
And i was like NANI??!!!
Cuz the only reason i came to school was to meet our fyp supervisor...
And since Yitno wasn't there...
Hafiz said that maybe we shouldn't see him...
Haiz...
Such fate i have...
For if i were to know of this...
I would have stayed in that train...
Though how ridiculous it may seem...
WAAAAA....
Well...
I trained with carene that day...
More of like... Boulder...
Anyway...
Though... we did a little power training later...
1-10...
That is doing pull-ups...
from 1, then 2, then 3... right up to ten...
Haha... though... i think she was the one benefitting more from it...
I haven't done much power training...
Too lazy...
But i know i need and have to do it...
If i am to achieve my goals...
Anyway...
That night...
After watching Prison Break...
I called Ayu...
Well...
She said that...
She couldn't get the girl's number for me...
Since the girl was still in the train after Ayu dropped at Raffles Place to switch trains...
Well...
Anyway... i just hope that i wouldn't be as shy as this day when it comes to girls next time...
Maybe... one day...
i shall see her again...
I'll just leave it to fate...
Okay... that's all that has happened on Thursday... Heehee...
Till next time...
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
Climbing Video Clip - PCA Tour & Pusher Cup Competition
PCA Tour Pusher open
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Climbing Video Clip - Competiton Psychedelia
Psychedelia
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
The future... What should i do??
At times... i wonder...
when i leave SP...
what am i gona do...
What future...
would i create...
for my life...
And how do i go about doing it...
What road should i take...
The one to try to reach my dreams??
Or the one...
Where most people take...
Get a job...
Provide for my parents...
Get married...
Start a family...
And just live to...
wither...
due to the passting of time...
I mean...
I know i'm currently studying in DMTM...
And people probably expect me...
to work in that field...
And at a point of time...
I was a bit more sure... than now...
that i would be working in that field too...
But now...
It seems...
I want more....
In life...
I want to take a different road...
A road where things...
are not yet predictable...
A road...
Where i'm not sure i would see...
happy faces...
But yet a road...
I truly wish i could take...
I've seen others...
Take that road...
It's truly one...
That you have to fight...
To live...
And i'm unsure...
That when i do take that road...
Would i be able...
To provide for my family...
when i do start one...
Would i even be able...
to provide for myself...
and stand firm on my two feet...
Basically...
I'm unsure...
What career should i take...
Professional climbing??
Or a desk job at a marine insdustry??
I shall continue my studies...
due to this uncertainty...
I'll treat my diploma...
as a back-up...
Just in case i need somthing to lean on to...
It's strange...
What started out as just another sport for me...
began to unfold...
a road...
a chance...
for a different kind of life...
a life for me...
that i thought had all been set and paved...
But i guess...
What my friend said...
Was true...
When there's a will...
There's a way...
For he too...
Is in that road...
Where uncertainty lies...
I guess...
I'll decide...
after NS...
I just hope...
that an answer comes to me...
by then...
when i leave SP...
what am i gona do...
What future...
would i create...
for my life...
And how do i go about doing it...
What road should i take...
The one to try to reach my dreams??
Or the one...
Where most people take...
Get a job...
Provide for my parents...
Get married...
Start a family...
And just live to...
wither...
due to the passting of time...
I mean...
I know i'm currently studying in DMTM...
And people probably expect me...
to work in that field...
And at a point of time...
I was a bit more sure... than now...
that i would be working in that field too...
But now...
It seems...
I want more....
In life...
I want to take a different road...
A road where things...
are not yet predictable...
A road...
Where i'm not sure i would see...
happy faces...
But yet a road...
I truly wish i could take...
I've seen others...
Take that road...
It's truly one...
That you have to fight...
To live...
And i'm unsure...
That when i do take that road...
Would i be able...
To provide for my family...
when i do start one...
Would i even be able...
to provide for myself...
and stand firm on my two feet...
Basically...
I'm unsure...
What career should i take...
Professional climbing??
Or a desk job at a marine insdustry??
I shall continue my studies...
due to this uncertainty...
I'll treat my diploma...
as a back-up...
Just in case i need somthing to lean on to...
It's strange...
What started out as just another sport for me...
began to unfold...
a road...
a chance...
for a different kind of life...
a life for me...
that i thought had all been set and paved...
But i guess...
What my friend said...
Was true...
When there's a will...
There's a way...
For he too...
Is in that road...
Where uncertainty lies...
I guess...
I'll decide...
after NS...
I just hope...
that an answer comes to me...
by then...
~In life... not everything goes as planned...
all we can do...
is try... and hope...~
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:20 AM
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
The three bros...
It may seem strange... Believe me when i say that i think so too...
Cuz i've been fwens with these two guys for a few years...
Salfi and Hanafi...
But i can say that we hardly know about each other...
When we meet...
We spend our time playing online computer games at the nearby lan/internet shop...
And after that...
We chill...
Chit chat...
And go home...
What else is there to do??
Just another day out with my friends...
I mean... that's what you do right??
Except that... in our history of being together...
we seldom talk about ourselves...
in detail...
We do talk about our problems...
But that is extremely rare...
For me...
I don't really feel comfortable...
talking about my problems with them...
Don't take this the wrong way...
We are close...
I even consider them as my bros...
But i guess...
We're close in a different way i guess...
I guess...
Our group of three is for having fun...
Trying to get more out of it...
will be hard though...
haha...
There was even one time...
When we sat down...
And one of them, Salfi...
brought out the topic...
of us not actually knowing each other that well...
I mean...
if you were to ask me about them...
I myself am unsure...
of what to describe...
I guess...
What brings us together...
Is our love for gaming...
but maybe more...
Cuz when i think of it...
I think there's this bond between us...
That although we don't really know each other all that well...
as what best friends would/should...
I know that it doesn't make us anything less than best friends...
When one isn't around...
It just feels different...
I guess...
You may know all about a person...
but that doesn't make u best friends...
While best friends...
may not know each other that well at all...
All that matters...
is the bond of friendship...
I know...
that if i ever need help from them...
if it's within their will...
they'll help me out...
Like how i would for them...
I just hope...
that our friendship...
can withstand...
the test of time...
Cuz i've been fwens with these two guys for a few years...
Salfi and Hanafi...
But i can say that we hardly know about each other...
When we meet...
We spend our time playing online computer games at the nearby lan/internet shop...
And after that...
We chill...
Chit chat...
And go home...
What else is there to do??
Just another day out with my friends...
I mean... that's what you do right??
Except that... in our history of being together...
we seldom talk about ourselves...
in detail...
We do talk about our problems...
But that is extremely rare...
For me...
I don't really feel comfortable...
talking about my problems with them...
Don't take this the wrong way...
We are close...
I even consider them as my bros...
But i guess...
We're close in a different way i guess...
I guess...
Our group of three is for having fun...
Trying to get more out of it...
will be hard though...
haha...
There was even one time...
When we sat down...
And one of them, Salfi...
brought out the topic...
of us not actually knowing each other that well...
I mean...
if you were to ask me about them...
I myself am unsure...
of what to describe...
I guess...
What brings us together...
Is our love for gaming...
but maybe more...
Cuz when i think of it...
I think there's this bond between us...
That although we don't really know each other all that well...
as what best friends would/should...
I know that it doesn't make us anything less than best friends...
When one isn't around...
It just feels different...
I guess...
You may know all about a person...
but that doesn't make u best friends...
While best friends...
may not know each other that well at all...
All that matters...
is the bond of friendship...
I know...
that if i ever need help from them...
if it's within their will...
they'll help me out...
Like how i would for them...
I just hope...
that our friendship...
can withstand...
the test of time...
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
Song Video Clip - Cannon In D Major - Rocker Style!
Cannon in D
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Skin changed... once more....
Okay... by now... it's pretty obvious... i like Final Fantasy... ok... not only final fantasy... everything that has got to do with japanese anime...
Bleach... Inuyasha... Naruto... My favourite skins are mostly anime-based... haha...
I like the previous skins... they were both from Final Fantasy 7... About the main character... Cloud...
Well... he just has this cool aura that he emanates... think that's how it is spelt... diaowz...
Anyway... he is cool... but at the same time there's this aura of coldness around him...
I wish i had that... haha...
Cool... Cold... and Silent type... but at the same time... cute... heehee... LMAO!!
The second skin... i love totally... but the layout... haiz... wish the part where words were put into had a proper background... like a totally different colour from the picture...
So that it's easier to read!!!
Anyway... okay... the tagbox is at the bottom... below the links... So... same thing... if u find it hard to read... tag me... and i'll change again... heehee... till next time...
Bleach... Inuyasha... Naruto... My favourite skins are mostly anime-based... haha...
I like the previous skins... they were both from Final Fantasy 7... About the main character... Cloud...
Well... he just has this cool aura that he emanates... think that's how it is spelt... diaowz...
Anyway... he is cool... but at the same time there's this aura of coldness around him...
I wish i had that... haha...
Cool... Cold... and Silent type... but at the same time... cute... heehee... LMAO!!
The second skin... i love totally... but the layout... haiz... wish the part where words were put into had a proper background... like a totally different colour from the picture...
So that it's easier to read!!!
Anyway... okay... the tagbox is at the bottom... below the links... So... same thing... if u find it hard to read... tag me... and i'll change again... heehee... till next time...
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
Skin is Changed!
Okay... i've changed the skin... finally...
Anyway... if any of you peeps find the post hard to read,
please tell me...
Leave a tag to inform me ayite...
Cuz if it's too hard to read, i'll change the skin to another one...
I've got quite a few waiting to be used...
Till next time...
Ciaoz...
Anyway... if any of you peeps find the post hard to read,
please tell me...
Leave a tag to inform me ayite...
Cuz if it's too hard to read, i'll change the skin to another one...
I've got quite a few waiting to be used...
Till next time...
Ciaoz...
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Blogskin
Okay... this was actually blogged yesterday... before i changed skin...
I think i better blog about this... before i lose the chance... since the next time i'm able to blog is unpredictable...
Okay... i'm sorry... i know this skin may bore u... it's been quite a while since i've used this skin...
I just like the layout and background you see...
Okay... i have found some skins... But not that appealing you see...
And i'm too lazy and can't find the right time to change the template...
Anyway... while searching for skins... i found one familiar face... Daphne!
Yes... daphne from YCSS... I didn't know that she creates blogskins... haha... Well.. i'm not sure if she blogs though... Cuz i dun seem to be able to find her site...
Maybe she has it in a different name?? Hahaha...
Well... if i do change my blogskin... and you happen to be inside my blog... but can't find the tagbox...
It may be because i have not put it up yet... Cuz i may be too lazy u see...
I have some links with me... but just too lazy to link them from my blog...
Oh yeah... Hatta sent me the song he sang liao... Once i've change my skin... and find a way to upload the song into my blog... I guess i'll put it up...
Oh yeah... if any of u have the time and wanna help... lolx... Try finding me a suitable blogskin!
The website is blogskins.com...
So in the mean time... please bear with the skin ayite!!
I think i better blog about this... before i lose the chance... since the next time i'm able to blog is unpredictable...
Okay... i'm sorry... i know this skin may bore u... it's been quite a while since i've used this skin...
I just like the layout and background you see...
Okay... i have found some skins... But not that appealing you see...
And i'm too lazy and can't find the right time to change the template...
Anyway... while searching for skins... i found one familiar face... Daphne!
Yes... daphne from YCSS... I didn't know that she creates blogskins... haha... Well.. i'm not sure if she blogs though... Cuz i dun seem to be able to find her site...
Maybe she has it in a different name?? Hahaha...
Well... if i do change my blogskin... and you happen to be inside my blog... but can't find the tagbox...
It may be because i have not put it up yet... Cuz i may be too lazy u see...
I have some links with me... but just too lazy to link them from my blog...
Oh yeah... Hatta sent me the song he sang liao... Once i've change my skin... and find a way to upload the song into my blog... I guess i'll put it up...
Oh yeah... if any of u have the time and wanna help... lolx... Try finding me a suitable blogskin!
The website is blogskins.com...
So in the mean time... please bear with the skin ayite!!
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 8:01 PM
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Monday, October 02, 2006
Climbing... On form... losing dynamic movement
For some reason... i can't post more than a certain amount or it wouldn't appear in my blog or others won't appear... So i'll post only this first...
Sorry for any inconvenience...
Haiz... feeling really tired eventhough it's 12:26 in the afternoon right now... my eyes feels like they're tearing apart...
I'm i school right now... had the feeling to blog since the last couple of days... but i just don't seem to have the chance... So now, i'm sacrificing my lunch time to blog... when i can actually use the time to catch up on my sleep at the rock gym... lolx!!
Okay... i just feel like talking about how my climbing is right now...
Well... i'll begin with my climbing session at ite dover on last friday... I was on form!! believe it or not...
The routes that were set and which i saw or asked for were all finished... lolx... For some reason i was on form on that day...
But... the style of climbing i had on that day just was unexpected... It was like static... not dynamic...
I admit that i prefer to lock and move to the next tile rather that doing a dynamic move to next tile... But it was totally different on that day...
What's more... my feet were always stepping on the footholds... As though they had super glue on them...
On occasions when the rest of the climbers had their legs flying off the footholds when they attempt to go for the next handhold, mine would stick to the foothold... That's strange...
Hazli, the climber who once became Asia's top youth climber, talked to me and said to keep on training... for Rockmaster... just like him... well... most of us are... including me... And then he said not to let him catch up on me...
Ikhsan, who was in front of the two of us said that to me too... Since he hadn't climbed for two weeks since Climb On! Singapore... and his standard had dropped...
I was like -.-""" lolx... Seriously... It's because... eventhough i'm on my top form... I always have this mindset that the climbers i'm climbing with are all of a higher standard than me... Though sometimes i don't want to believe that...
So when the other climbers finish the routes and i don't... I kinda tell myself that i'm of a lower standard than them... After all... Those competing in the Open Category and climbing at ite dover with the least amount of experience is me... haha...
Okay...back to Hazli... i then told him that the only reason why i'm performing so well on that friday was because i was on form... I've never climbed like that before on previous training days unless if i was on form...
But then he said that this was all mental... It's in the mind... If i think that way, then i'll be that way...
He did get my hopes up... After all... If he says that it's possible for me to maintain my perfomance for future trainings and competitions... I will be at my peak!!
But... lolx... i wasn't that sure if it was possible... After all... My form never lasted after i took a days break...
The only time when i was on form more than a day was when i climbed 1 week straight... And that was like... when i've only climbed for a few months...
Anyway... i felt that i should test it out... on Monday... which was yesterday...
On Sunday, i finally managed to get into maja vidmar's website... there ahs to be a \en\ at the end of the link that carene sent me... hehe...
So i finally managed to get in... And i was watching her videos, climbing in the World Cup... And i realized on thing...
She was really smooth... Her body was totally controlled... She's a really static climber... Even her legs were controlled to the point where it seems like she's not tired at all...
When placing her feet, she controlled it to the the very end where it was finally placed firmly on the foothold...
That's when i felt i want to try climbing like her... Even when she was pumped... her hands were "chicken-wing"... she still climbed with static style... controlling every muscle needed for the execution...
So i thought... i should try climbing like her on Monday...
So... Monday came... and i was actually looking forward to train on my endurance on that day... I thought i should try Maja's style while doing power endurance...
But gary had asked me for help to remove the volume on the SPRC rock climbing wall... And we arrived late at ite dover...
This was the second time he made me arrive late for training at ite dover!!!
But... i guess... i had to help him... if i didn't... i ain't too sure who would... eventhough there are a lot of people climbing at the rock gym...
Oh well... during my climb at ite dover... during the start... i felt like i still have some form in me... And i was able to finish the routes that were given in the beginning...
But suddenly... the problem came... or the realization of my loss came...
Gary gave this route... it looked do-able... The moves... i was able to do... I was confident in finishing it...
But when i later tried... and got to the point of when i had to do the dynamic move... Trouble struck...
Okay... the first time i tried it out... i may have planned to the the move in static style... Eventhough the rest were doin the move dynamically...
But heck... i just wanted to try things out ayite...
Okay so anyway... i tried the static way... and realize that it was too far... So the only way for me is to do it dynamically...
Now... my dynamic was never a problem... I always had it tuned... I could always do dynamic moves...
Until now...
So i tried again... and with my mind set on doing the dynamic move... i executed it... But for some reason... my feet didn't want to let go of the foothold...
That's when i realize of the problem... I've lost the feeling... the movement... of how to do a dynamic move... When in the first place... dynamic moves was what i was best at... after locking/ static moves anyway...
So now... this is the problem that i have to solve before i get too stuck...
I still have not been able to solve it...
I think that it's because i did climbed too static on Friday and the beginning part of Monday that i lost it...
Haiz...
I guess... All i can do now is to wait for Wednesday... So that i can try to get back my dynamic power back...
Okay... it's 1:14 now... guess i better end this one here...
Till next time...
Sorry for any inconvenience...
Haiz... feeling really tired eventhough it's 12:26 in the afternoon right now... my eyes feels like they're tearing apart...
I'm i school right now... had the feeling to blog since the last couple of days... but i just don't seem to have the chance... So now, i'm sacrificing my lunch time to blog... when i can actually use the time to catch up on my sleep at the rock gym... lolx!!
Okay... i just feel like talking about how my climbing is right now...
Well... i'll begin with my climbing session at ite dover on last friday... I was on form!! believe it or not...
The routes that were set and which i saw or asked for were all finished... lolx... For some reason i was on form on that day...
But... the style of climbing i had on that day just was unexpected... It was like static... not dynamic...
I admit that i prefer to lock and move to the next tile rather that doing a dynamic move to next tile... But it was totally different on that day...
What's more... my feet were always stepping on the footholds... As though they had super glue on them...
On occasions when the rest of the climbers had their legs flying off the footholds when they attempt to go for the next handhold, mine would stick to the foothold... That's strange...
Hazli, the climber who once became Asia's top youth climber, talked to me and said to keep on training... for Rockmaster... just like him... well... most of us are... including me... And then he said not to let him catch up on me...
Ikhsan, who was in front of the two of us said that to me too... Since he hadn't climbed for two weeks since Climb On! Singapore... and his standard had dropped...
I was like -.-""" lolx... Seriously... It's because... eventhough i'm on my top form... I always have this mindset that the climbers i'm climbing with are all of a higher standard than me... Though sometimes i don't want to believe that...
So when the other climbers finish the routes and i don't... I kinda tell myself that i'm of a lower standard than them... After all... Those competing in the Open Category and climbing at ite dover with the least amount of experience is me... haha...
Okay...back to Hazli... i then told him that the only reason why i'm performing so well on that friday was because i was on form... I've never climbed like that before on previous training days unless if i was on form...
But then he said that this was all mental... It's in the mind... If i think that way, then i'll be that way...
He did get my hopes up... After all... If he says that it's possible for me to maintain my perfomance for future trainings and competitions... I will be at my peak!!
But... lolx... i wasn't that sure if it was possible... After all... My form never lasted after i took a days break...
The only time when i was on form more than a day was when i climbed 1 week straight... And that was like... when i've only climbed for a few months...
Anyway... i felt that i should test it out... on Monday... which was yesterday...
On Sunday, i finally managed to get into maja vidmar's website... there ahs to be a \en\ at the end of the link that carene sent me... hehe...
So i finally managed to get in... And i was watching her videos, climbing in the World Cup... And i realized on thing...
She was really smooth... Her body was totally controlled... She's a really static climber... Even her legs were controlled to the point where it seems like she's not tired at all...
When placing her feet, she controlled it to the the very end where it was finally placed firmly on the foothold...
That's when i felt i want to try climbing like her... Even when she was pumped... her hands were "chicken-wing"... she still climbed with static style... controlling every muscle needed for the execution...
So i thought... i should try climbing like her on Monday...
So... Monday came... and i was actually looking forward to train on my endurance on that day... I thought i should try Maja's style while doing power endurance...
But gary had asked me for help to remove the volume on the SPRC rock climbing wall... And we arrived late at ite dover...
This was the second time he made me arrive late for training at ite dover!!!
But... i guess... i had to help him... if i didn't... i ain't too sure who would... eventhough there are a lot of people climbing at the rock gym...
Oh well... during my climb at ite dover... during the start... i felt like i still have some form in me... And i was able to finish the routes that were given in the beginning...
But suddenly... the problem came... or the realization of my loss came...
Gary gave this route... it looked do-able... The moves... i was able to do... I was confident in finishing it...
But when i later tried... and got to the point of when i had to do the dynamic move... Trouble struck...
Okay... the first time i tried it out... i may have planned to the the move in static style... Eventhough the rest were doin the move dynamically...
But heck... i just wanted to try things out ayite...
Okay so anyway... i tried the static way... and realize that it was too far... So the only way for me is to do it dynamically...
Now... my dynamic was never a problem... I always had it tuned... I could always do dynamic moves...
Until now...
So i tried again... and with my mind set on doing the dynamic move... i executed it... But for some reason... my feet didn't want to let go of the foothold...
That's when i realize of the problem... I've lost the feeling... the movement... of how to do a dynamic move... When in the first place... dynamic moves was what i was best at... after locking/ static moves anyway...
So now... this is the problem that i have to solve before i get too stuck...
I still have not been able to solve it...
I think that it's because i did climbed too static on Friday and the beginning part of Monday that i lost it...
Haiz...
I guess... All i can do now is to wait for Wednesday... So that i can try to get back my dynamic power back...
Okay... it's 1:14 now... guess i better end this one here...
Till next time...
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:32 PM
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