Saturday, October 14, 2006

At times... i wonder...
when i leave SP...
what am i gona do...

What future...
would i create...
for my life...
And how do i go about doing it...

What road should i take...
The one to try to reach my dreams??
Or the one...
Where most people take...
Get a job...
Provide for my parents...
Get married...
Start a family...
And just live to...
wither...
due to the passting of time...

I mean...
I know i'm currently studying in DMTM...
And people probably expect me...
to work in that field...
And at a point of time...
I was a bit more sure... than now...
that i would be working in that field too...

But now...
It seems...
I want more....
In life...

I want to take a different road...
A road where things...
are not yet predictable...
A road...
Where i'm not sure i would see...
happy faces...
But yet a road...
I truly wish i could take...

I've seen others...
Take that road...
It's truly one...
That you have to fight...
To live...

And i'm unsure...
That when i do take that road...
Would i be able...
To provide for my family...
when i do start one...
Would i even be able...
to provide for myself...
and stand firm on my two feet...

Basically...
I'm unsure...
What career should i take...
Professional climbing??
Or a desk job at a marine insdustry??

I shall continue my studies...
due to this uncertainty...
I'll treat my diploma...
as a back-up...
Just in case i need somthing to lean on to...

It's strange...
What started out as just another sport for me...
began to unfold...
a road...
a chance...
for a different kind of life...
a life for me...
that i thought had all been set and paved...

But i guess...
What my friend said...
Was true...
When there's a will...
There's a way...

For he too...
Is in that road...
Where uncertainty lies...

I guess...
I'll decide...
after NS...
I just hope...
that an answer comes to me...
by then...

~In life... not everything goes as planned...

all we can do...

is try... and hope...~