Sunday, April 30, 2006

to climb... or to play silkroad??

Well 1:18 am in s'pore right now... dunno which timing this blog follows... cuz they keep showing different time when i post up a blog... lolx... anyway... cannot sleep... so thought of blogging... anyway... hmm... didn't really do nything much today... except going out with my fwens... and playing a total of 8 hours of online game at the new lan shop at pioneer mall... lolx... costs me quite a sum of money... well... nothing much comes free you know...lolx... that's basically what i have been doing for the last few days last week since my friend introduced me to this new online game called silkroad... it's very good... highly recommended... but may be a little laggy since there are a lot of people playing the game... anyway... after the trip to camp 5 rock gym in KL... my first climbing training was on monday... 7 days ago... which totally sucked... cuz i couldn't climb... probably because i expected too much and too little of me... here and there... and i also got de-moralised... which is one of the worst things that can happen to any climber... anyway that happens alot to me since rockmaster... which is what?? on januray or february... so... i thought of trying to get some motivation... by climbing at singapore polytechnic on tuesday, the following day... i didn't really think that there was any much effect... but there was... i saw the improvement when i came late at ite dover on friday... and well... i was performing better... what can i say... i was even wearing a rock shoe that didn't really fit me properly... but i managed to finish...2-3 boulder problems... and even on-sighting one of them... which no one managed to flash or on-sight... lolx... anyway... i was really happy with my performance that day... i guess... you cannot have too much expectation of yourself when you climb... cuz if you fail to fulfill that expectation, you'll just make yourself de-moralized... Anyway... i've missed quite a few training sessions... but i guess it was worth it... since i got my motivation and mental back... although i am a little distracted by the online game... lolx...

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:19 AM
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

sumthing's are better left unsaid... i know that... trust me... and sorry ili... i can't tell u who the gurl is... may complicate things... u know... lolx... anyway... i dun think kittygurl is coming online... almost 2... i'll be logging off soon... so...yupz...

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:41 PM
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adjustin my blog...

well... i just need to know how to input song inside this blog... pics... friend's url... and some other stuff... hope kittygurl can help me... hehe... u dun mind rite??? so sorry if i'm trouling u... then summore i can access msn only at school now... since the msn at home is blocked... including webmessenger!!! diaowz... anyway... i'll try to wait till 1+... hope kittygurl comes online by then... if not... hmm... c how lar... hehe...

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9:26 PM
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Monday, April 24, 2006

Dave is back!!! I got my mental and motivation!!!

Hmm... Back in Singapore already... feeling pretty shack... but still gona have to go to ite dover later to train myself up... But... today may be a different day compared to the previous few days... I finally got my mental and motivation back... It happened at KL when i was trying to do some pretty hard routes... But deep in me, i knew i could finish them... Just couldn't get myself psyched up to finish any of them... I finally got the long lost feeling that i had last time... The one where i would keep trying to finish the route because i felt i could really do it... I haven't felt like that for months since Rockmaster this year... Anyway... by the time i really got psyched up to finish this particular route that Gary had set, my palms were already red and screaming for mercy... None of them really wanted to hold any of the tiles anymore... It's because the Camp 5 gym is only recently open... So the holds are quite rough... Well... it's really rough... Anyway i finally got really psyched up at 7+... (almost closing time)... and really fed-up and angry... the route got me into some minor injury... and it was turning into some personal battle... But... i finally finished it!!! Mission accomplished!!! I ws really happy... Dave is back!!! Haha... I should be able to perform almost as well when i was at Rockmaster... Almost as well cuz my standard has dropped... Anyway, eventhough i was able to finish only one hard route the whole day, it was worth it... It's a memorable experince since it helped me get my mental and motivation back... Which i've tried for so long... Anyway... the wall at camp 5 is great!!! It's beyond words!!! The walls are boulderwall is fiberglass with countour... the difficulty routes are extremely technical... But i didn't try them... And the crag climbing wall... WOAH!!! Extremely like the real thing... It seemed like somebody took a chunk of rock from somewhere and put it in that gym!!! But of cuz... it felt different... Hehe... All in all... the trip to KL was magnificent... eventhough the group wasn't as united as i felt it should have been... But that's what happens when you're in one big group of twenty people!!! Haha... okie... I'll be getting ready to go to ite dover now... Dave is back!!!

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 1:56 AM
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Poem... I wish time would turn two years back...

Ok... for the second poem...

Deep in my thoughts,
while walking in the rain...
Thoughts of how far apart we are,
and how things have changed...
Two years have passed,
since we last seen each other...
Deep inside me,
i wish that we were still together...
No matter how hard i try,
your face keeps appearing before my eyes...
You may not believe me,
but the words i've said are not lies...
Not having you by my side,
makes my heart ache...
I wish time would turn back,
to the good old days...

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:28 AM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Poem... In my heart she'll be... alwayz...

Okie... Here's the first poem i made...
This one's for you arnab!!!

She's the gurl,
that shall forever stay in my mind...
Out of a milliion,
she's one of a kind...
Knowing her,
was a blessing...
Never to part,
i shall alwayz keep praying...
But deep inside me,
i know nothing lasts forever...
But even if we break our bonds,
i'll never forget her...
Being friends with her,
was heavenly...
Memories of which,
i shall keep till eternity...
Who she is, i cannot say...
But in my heart she'll be,
alwayz...

To all... hope you do not take the above poem for your own use...
If you truly need to give someone one... writing down what your heart
truly feels is better than stealing the words from other people's heart

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 12:19 PM
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Going to KL!!!

Hahaha... okie... long time since i last blogged... okie... i'll start with... my studies... regarding me repeating... haiz... looks like i'm gona have to stay in the school for another six months to repeat two modules and complete the whole daymn course... Haiz... But...good news is that the class i'm having the two repeated modules with ain't that bad... Very friendly... lolx... Having a good time there... which is totally great... I just hope i can get to know them a little better... Anyway... I'm going to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow!!! Going there to go to a new rock gym which has been recently built... It's the largest... if i ain't wrong.. in KL!!! Hope to be able to get something out of this trip... Haiz... still haven't started training properly for pumpfest... My climbing mood is going way down... It ain't as fun as it used to be... Haiz... Anyway... Ikhsan, my climbing bro... is back... I hope things will start looking up... lolx... Anyway... away from my climbing life... I miss my old friend!!! I call her arnab... Don't really expect her to read this... so i don't really mind saying her nickname... which i gave... arnab!!!... means rabbit... We haven't seen each other for two long years!!! Haiz... really miss her... Hope i can see her soon... But i'm not sure what to say if we meet... lolx... Haha... made a poem... actually two poems... about her... well... maybe about us... okie... abit of me, her, us... lolx... just read it if you wanna know ayite!!!... Okie... so that's all... Not gona say too much... I'll type the two poems in the next posting... Ciaoz...

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10:27 AM
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