tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-250472132011-04-21T13:25:38.733-07:00randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.comBlogger841100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-62558096605090710112008-05-23T00:00:00.000-07:002008-05-26T21:39:09.712-07:00It's been a year since my last post...<br />Ok...<br />Moving on...<br />Here's my other blog...<br />Shhh....<br />Yes...<br />It's been updated for a while...<br />Heee...<br /><br />http://painhealschicksdigscarsglorylasts4eva.blogspot.com/<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-6255809660509071011?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-25668138031233921482007-05-23T18:28:00.000-07:002007-05-23T03:28:56.291-07:00This shall undoubtedly, and officially be my last post...<br />I'm officially not going to update this blog anymore...<br />It's really pissing me off that i can't update it at home...<br />Especially when i feel like blogging...<br />There's things i want to say...<br />Things i wanna let out...<br />But the inconvenience of only being able to update at school<br />is wearing me out...<br /><br />Well...<br />It's been fun...<br />I mean being able to blog for the past 1 year...<br /><br />When i started out...<br />I didn't really see myself going up to here...<br />I mean 1 year for me is kinda long...<br />Though when i do think about it as my hands move<br />around the keyboard...<br />The 1 year seems short...<br />Hahaha...<br /><br />Though i won't be updating...<br />I won't delete this blog...<br />Just in case i ever need to look back to my past...<br />I'll have this to remind me what it looked like...<br /><br />Thank you all...<br />Readers out there...<br />Hahaha...<br />You make my blogging a whole lot more fun!!<br />Especially with all the tags u left behind...<br />But no worries...<br />We can still keep in touch...<br />There's still the taggie...<br />lolx...<br />Well call or msg me if u need nyting...<br /><br />There's things...<br />things in my head i need to let out...<br />Dun mind me...<br />Just dun take the next words too seriously...<br /><br />I've told people...<br />Those who asked the question why am i still single...<br />And my answer is...<br />I'm a sinking ship...<br />And i dun want others to sink with me...<br />That answer... i give when i face that kind of question...<br /><br />But now...<br />I feel like a driftwood in the open sea...<br />Pushed around...<br />No control...<br />Moving to anywhere the waves lead me...<br /><br />Feeling down this past few days...<br />Feel like i'm not in control of my life anymore...<br />Actually it really seems i'm not in control...<br />ZZZzzzzz....<br /><br />You may say...<br />Buck up...<br />Change yourself...<br />Only you can do it...<br /><br />The truth is...<br />If it's that easy...<br />I would have already fucking done it!!<br />Makes my heart boil just thinking how easy people <br />say this kinda things when it's fucking harder then it looks...<br /><br />But in the end...<br />Yes... I know...<br />I CAN'T keep living my life like this...<br />Yes I KNOW...<br />Words you say are TRUE!...<br /><br />And i know what i have to do...<br />And i tell myself to change...<br />To do what needs to be done...<br /><br />But when it really comes down to doing it...<br />At the end of the day...<br />When i face it...<br />I can't find the strength to do it...<br />you know...<br /><br />All the words i say to myself...<br />All the things i plan to do...<br /><br />Haiz...<br /><br />Is my resolve that easily broken??<br /><br />I'm sorry...<br />For being this weak...<br /><br />I'm trying here... you know...<br />Trying to stand on my two feet...<br />Trying not to call on anyone for help...<br />I'm trying to cross this bridge alone...<br /><br />For i feel...<br />That if i don't cross this bridge alone...<br />I'll never be able to stand up on my own...<br /><br />People say...<br />There's light at the end of the tunnel...<br />I just hope...<br />The electricity doesn't die off before i reach the <br />end of the tunnel...<br /><br />There's a sentence in this book...<br />I read years ago...<br />I'm not sure if i've already said it here before...<br />But if i've said it...<br />I'll say it again...<br />I'm not taking any credit for the sentence...<br />And it's NOT 100% correct from word to word...<br />I'm going to change it and adapt it...<br />And create something a bit different...<br />By adding words and removing certaing words to<br />and from the original saying...<br />It goes something like this...<br /><br />Have you ever looked at the reflection of the moon on a running river? Or your own reflection on a running river in that matter... The water keeps moving... But the reflection remains still...<br />Life's like that you know... You see... Time keeps moving... Things change... People change... You'll also lose some people in your life...<br />But in the end... You always have yourself... You always have yourself to depend on...<br /><br />Well... up to here...<br />Sadly but true...<br />For some reason...<br />My fingers type more slowly...<br />As though not wanting this to end like this...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />In the end...<br />There's still things i want to talk about...<br />Like the time i met my old fwen...<br />Words exchanged that she may not understand...<br />Haiz...<br />Forget it...<br /><br />I made a short msg last month...<br />Kinda like a short poem...<br />Arnab got it first...<br />Since she was the reason i made it...<br />It's been a while since the last time i wrote a poem...<br />I just can't seem to find the inspiration to write one...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />People say:<br />"Life is lyke a box of chocolates. You never know what you'll get." <br />If that's true, i know one thing for sure. <br />1 of the pieces will be sweet. <br />Cuz that piece is ou! =D<br /><br />Too short i guess...<br />Lolx...<br />But i wanted it to be like an sms kinda thingy...<br />So i couldn't make it too long...<br /><br />Anywyay...<br />This is the end...<br />Well... Officially it is...<br />But somehow...<br />I feel that...<br />I may actually...<br />Come in here once in a while...<br />Just to let out what's been on my mind...<br /><br />Usually i'll say...<br />Till next time...<br />Or something like that...<br />Lolx...<br />But now...<br />I'll have to say...<br /><br />Good Bye<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-2566813803123392148?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-20420751047592250512007-04-25T00:44:00.000-07:002007-04-25T00:44:28.106-07:00<p><strong>Darius</strong></p><p><strong>Incredible (What I Meant To Say)</strong></p><p>You said its over </p><p>I said "that's ok </p><p>I wasn't in to you anyway" </p><p>I told you "lately </p><p>you irritate me your laugh is too loud </p><p>you're the last girl I'd look at </p><p>if you were in a crowd" </p><p></p><p>Could you tell? </p><p>I was lying and hiding the truth away </p><p>and what I really wanted to say </p><p></p><p>[CHORUS:]</p><p>is you are incredible </p><p>you are amazing </p><p>you blow my mind one of a kind </p><p>I'm having a meltdown </p><p>you are incredible you are amazing </p><p>but sometimes telling the truth </p><p>is easier said than done, </p><p>"don't leave baby" - </p><p>now that's what I meant to say </p><p></p><p>"My worlds not ending I'll be just fine" </p><p>That's what my mouth said </p><p>but not what I felt inside </p><p>I told you "baby, </p><p>your not the answer to all of my prayers </p><p>cos I like my girlfriends in short skirts with longer hair" </p><p></p><p>could you tell? </p><p>I was lying and hiding the truth away </p><p>and what I really wanted to say </p><p></p><p>[CHORUS]</p><p>Well I said I didn't care about what you felt about me </p><p>couldn't care less about what I said or done </p><p>I didn't mean it - its not what I meant to say </p><p>you know the truth is that I care </p><p>about what you think about me </p><p>maybe too much, I've been puttin' on a front </p><p>I didn't mean it - and what I meant to say </p><p></p><p>is you are incredible you are amazing </p><p>you blow my mind one of a kind </p><p>I'm having a meltdown </p><p>you are incredible you are amazing </p><p>but sometimes telling the truth is easier said than done, yeah yeah </p><p>telling the truth is easier said than done. </p><p>Can't you see </p><p>telling the truth is easier said than done. </p><p>"Don't leave baby" now that's what I meant to say</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-2042075104759225051?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-75704026500944934092007-04-18T23:35:00.000-07:002007-04-19T00:32:39.934-07:00Okay... Computer at home is really screwing with me....<br />I can't enter my blog's dashboard,<br />Can't check my e-mail,<br />Can't go to webmessenger...<br />All i can do with it is surf...<br /><br />I can't update!!!<br /><br />Well...<br />Alot of stuff has happened...<br />I can't update them at that time...<br />And i can't remember all of it...<br />Haiyoz...<br /><br />But i'll try to update as much as i can...<br /><br /><br /><strong>Fishing with climbing buddies at East Coast</strong><br />A few weeks back...<br />My climbing buddies from ITE Dover went to East Coast...<br />Some of us fished... Others just came to chill...<br />Faizal had to bring more fishing rods for those who wanted to fish...<br />We caught a few...<br />And in the middle of the night...<br />At around 12 plus...<br />It was the second time i witness this...<br />The red moon appeared...<br />Yes...<br />The moon is close to the Earth's atmosphere and appears red...<br />But if u get to witness it...<br />Just when it appears across the horizon...<br />I have to say...<br />It is a sight u won't want to miss...<br />It would be real huge...<br />Since it's real close...<br /><br />But u know what...<br />With that moon...<br />Comes a curse...<br />lolx...<br />Those of us who were fishing hooked a lot of eels...<br />And seriously speaking...<br />When i had mine...<br />I didn't feel like fishing anymore...<br />The eel i caught got stomped by me...<br />Really angry with it...<br />lolx...<br />Getting angry over an eel... haha...<br /><br />Haiyoz...<br />Suay lar...<br />Old folks would say...<br />If you ever catch any eels...<br />You may as well pack up and leave...<br />Cuz no fish would come near ur fishing line...<br />But i still fished of course...<br />What else is there to do...<br /><br />The eels that were caught were put in the same net together with the other fishes that were caught earlier...<br />That was the mistake of the day...<br />Cuz the next morning....<br />When we went to check our catch...<br />The eels were gone....<br />The escaped!!<br />Not only that...<br />They ate the fishes we caught!!!!!<br />Some of the fishes were left with scales and bones...<br />WAAAAA!!<br /><br />So we learn a new lesson!!<br />Never put eels in the same net as your other fish...<br /><br /><br /><strong>Climbing Competition at Outram Sec Sch.</strong><br /><strong>Name of Comp: CLIMAX</strong><br />Anyway...<br />Last Thursday, Faizal, Rozihan and me went to do some maintainence at Outram Sec...<br />Cuz they had a climbing competition on Saturday and Sunday...<br />Had to take out all the tiles,<br />Do some threading? of the t-nuts?<br />lolx...<br />Don't really know how to spell the words...<br />Paiseh for my poor english...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Had to work from Thursday to Sunday...<br />Overnight at Outram Sec from Friday to Sunday...<br />My work basically was to belay the competitors during the competition itself...<br />But the competition in terms of route-setting wasn't that good....<br />The routes that were set were good...<br />Except that it took a lot more time to set it and place it on the wall for the competitiors compared to last year...<br />There were so many people helping the route-setters...<br />Though i don't really know why the setting up of the route took such a long time...<br />Haiz...<br />I could see Zaki busting his ass throughout the the competition...<br />Pitied him....<br />Wanted to help him....<br />But... heehee...<br />I'm afraid of heights...<br />Yes...<br />I'm afraid of heights!!<br />So i don't want to go up the wall...<br />But in other aspects...<br />I try to help him out in any ways possible...<br /><br />Oh ya...<br />I got the chance to do dynamic belay!!!<br />Woot!!<br />It's been a long time since i did lead belay...<br />Kinda rusty...<br />haha....<br />But dun worry...<br />All climbers belayed by me were not harmed in any way...<br />heehee...<br />Now have to wait for my pay to come in!!! heehee<br /><br /><br /><strong>CCA Drive at SP</strong><br /><br />The CCA Drive at SP was from Moday to Wednesday...<br />16th april to 18th april...<br />Overall...<br />We had quite a sum of fresmen who joined...<br />You know what?<br />The first person who joined was a girl!!<br />And she's cute!<br />lolx...<br />This year we have quite a few girls who joined...<br />Which is kinda surprising...<br />Though...<br />The number of those who will stay will be reduced eventually...<br />Which happens all the time actually...<br />Haha...<br />Gary kept asking me to do some climbing on the roof...<br />Oh ya...<br />We're climibing at a hight wall here...<br />And i'm afraid of heights...<br />But for him...<br />I did it...<br />lolx...<br />We did a few demonstrations from time to time...<br />So that people would stop and look...<br />And be interested to join...<br />Heehee...<br /><br /><br /><strong>School Life</strong><br />I've been trying to come to school so far...<br />Skipped only two classes this week...<br />Which is quite good if u know me...<br />Since i usually skip a lot more!!<br />Now i've got a module in a class together with Zhi Wei's younger brother...<br />Hahaha...<br />My new classmates are good...<br />All are friendly u know!!<br />Lolx...<br />And i'm also in this other class which i was in before...<br />When i had to repeat my Business Statistics module...<br />One of the girls reminds me of arnab!!<br />She looks a bit like her...<br />The girl once taught me how to do my Business Statistics during this one practical lesson....<br />She guided me throughout the whole lesson!!<br />Hahaha....<br />That's like arnab in a sense of way...<br /><br />Now everyone's gone!<br />Except Yinto and Hafiz...<br />I miss everyone!!<br />From secondary to poly...<br />waa...<br />Blame myself for landing in this shithole...<br />heehee<br /><br /><br /><strong>Climbing</strong><br />ITE Dover just had their freshmen orientation for the CCA also....<br />It was on Tuesday??<br />For some reason...<br />I thought of my previous ex...<br />I can't climb properly throughout the whole training on Wednesday...<br />Climbing later....<br />Not sure if i can climb properly...<br />But heck...<br />I haven't been training properly...<br />When am i gona start training properly?!!<br />Haiz...<br />Sparring with Daniel next week...<br />Not sure if i'm up to it...<br />There's gona be a mini competition on Firday at SP...<br />More like a fun climb...<br />Haiz...<br />Okay end here...<br /><br />*There's a few things i didn't want to put in here...<br />But it's already in...<br />Any words of disapproval,<br />please tell me...<br /><em></em><br /><em>As i type,</em><br /><em>My mind's on you...</em><br /><em>With you around,</em><br /><em>Life would be beautiful...</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-7570402650094493409?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-8356963562972405912007-03-08T01:07:00.000-08:002007-03-08T01:22:34.526-08:00Okay... Now in Singapore Poly's Library...<br />I've only got a few minutes left before i get logged out... dammit...<br />Nywyay...<br />My fwen, yitno, passed all his modules...<br />He's a repeat student with me...<br />Nyways...<br />I just checked my results...<br />And i failed one!! diaow...<br />I dun really care about the results now...<br />But i just want to pass and get the hell out of here...<br />Failed my marketing module...<br />Haiyos...<br />I guess it's official...<br />I'll be in here for another year...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I've just changed my blogger to the new one...<br />Different format i guess...<br />I dunnoe when i'll be able to further update my blog...<br />Hmm...<br />Most likely i won't be updating anymore...<br />We'll just have to wait and see...<br /><br />Nyways...<br />Just wanna say what i experienced while doing a certain hard route at ITE Dover...<br />It was actually my route...<br />More like a project...<br />It wasn't finished... and i've forgotten all about it...<br />But that night...<br />we were actually trying to finish a couple of routes...<br />I've finished them all...<br />And Faizal suddenly gave me this route...<br />And you know what...<br />I couldn't recognise it until i actually tried it...<br />And i was like telling Faizal...<br />This route seems familiar!!<br />And then i remembered...<br />It was the route that i set that neither me nor Faizal finished...<br />And we tried it...<br />Faizal did it his way...<br />I did it my way...<br />In the end...<br />I think only the two of us finished it...<br /><br />It's the going part from the second tile to the third tile that was the crux...<br />You kinda have to sit in on this tile that ain't big nor small...<br />Faizal, being "techniqal" and all...<br />could do this move without too much problem...<br />But the next tile after that is a small crimper...<br />Not that nice...<br />And from that small crimper...<br />You gotta dynamic to the last tile...<br /><br />I finally managed to get to the third tile...<br />Doing my powerful way...<br />The powerful move i did...<br />had to be done at the right timing together with my body...<br />and the amount of power i use my be just nice...<br />Or i will miss the tile...<br /><br />Anyway... when i finally got it right...<br />Time seemed to slow down...<br />And my eyes could suddenly see the tile so cleary...<br />and with this my hand could just grab it...<br />I'm sure that some climbers have experienced this...<br />The moment where time seemed to slow down...<br />And in my heart... i knew... that i'll grab the tile at that moment...<br /><br />An unforgettable experience it is...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-835696356297240591?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1170917311569723632007-02-08T14:54:00.000-08:002007-02-07T22:56:30.540-08:00Lolx... Okay... So i haven't blogged for... hmm... over a month?<br />Haiz...<br />Just too lazy to blog...<br />Although there were things that i would like to blog about...<br />But you know what....<br />I'm just too plain lazy to type the whole thing out...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />So i've just finished reading my fwens blog...<br />Though i didn't tag them...<br />Most of them are having their exams...<br />Looking at them...<br />I kinda appreciate more of the fact that i've gotten all my papers over and done with...<br />Finished my final last paper last Tuesday...<br /><br />While reading their blogs...<br />I realized that each blog had a certain feel to it...<br />I guess...<br />It's cuz of the different character that each of us are...<br />Some of it are emo-ish... some of it are proble-mish...<br />Basically,<br />It's what each of us faces more in life,<br />and how we look life as...<br />But i haven't seen a single blog...<br />Which i hope to see one day...<br />A blog that belongs to an optimist...<br />Where things inside are filled with words of hope...<br />And the world and things in the daily life is viewed in an optimist way...<br />a different way...<br />Haha...<br />How cool would that be huh!<br />lolx...<br /><br />Anyway... back to exam papers...<br /><br />I recall back to the time when my secondary school friend, Chi Sin, told me something...<br />after doin one of the papers...<br />I think it was maths...<br />though i'm not sure if it's Additional Mathematics or Elementary Mathematics?<br />But when i asked him how the paper was...<br />He said it was fun...<br />tricky at the same time...<br />And i was like huh??<br />How can you enjoy an exam paper??<br /><br />But i soon experienced the same kind of feeling...<br />if not the same... it should be almost the same...<br />It was when i took my English paper...<br />Both the prelims and the final 'O' level paper...<br />I truly enjoyed the paper and wrote long answers...<br />lolx...<br />Eventhough it was unnecessary...<br />Anyway for my English 'O' level paper, i answered the comprehension section in this way too...<br />And in the end...<br />You know what?<br />I didn't have time to answer the summary part...<br />Though i had the points for the summary...<br />Lolx...<br />And in the end...<br />After that...<br />I was dead worried thinking if i was gonna fail or not...<br />Cuz the summary part was like 40 to 50 percent of the paper if i ain't wrong?<br />But luckily...<br />I made it...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />But now...<br />Things are different...<br />There's almost no papers where i would enjoy...<br />Almost cuz...<br />Certain parts of a paper...<br />I enjoy them...<br />Lolx...<br />But the experience is not as great as the one i had during the 'O'levels...<br />Haha... anyway...<br />Exam period is truly an experience i do not like to experience now...<br /><br />Moreover...<br />My friends from my original class back from year 1...<br />is graduating...<br />So i won't be seeing them...<br />Although i wasn't with them for the past 1 year,<br />when they were in year 3,<br />i still bumped into them...<br />and i know at least they were around...<br />But now...<br /><br />This semester...<br />when i was in a different class...<br />I was in class 01/02...<br />Just started taking my third year modules...<br />The class was great...<br />I guess i'm lucky you know...<br />Though i have to stay back...<br />I still get to go to classes with great classmates...<br />Haiz...<br />My luck is pretty good i guess...<br />Though i shouldn't depend on my luck too much...<br /><br />Hmm...<br />Nywyay... Last week...<br />My old class from year 1 had a bbq at east coast as a final gathering...<br />It was great to see them all for one last time...<br />Haiz...<br />I wanted to overnite...<br />Spend more time with them...<br />But... most of them didn't want to...<br />So in the end...<br />Went home...<br />And the worse thing is it was still kinda early when i left...<br />haiz...<br />kinda sad that i couldn't spend time with them a little longer...<br />but i still enjoyed the time with them....<br />The walk home from boon lay mrt station... was cold...<br />i could take a bus...<br />there were still busses in operation... i know...<br />but i want to walk home... this time round...<br />the last walk home after meeting them...<br /><br />Felt freaking emo-ish during that walk...<br />Cuz of the cold..<br />i put on my sweater...<br />but after wearing it for a while...<br />i took it back off...<br />I just felt like experiencing the cold...<br /><br />The wind was harsh and strong...<br />but it wasn't as harsh and strong as the other time when i walked home...<br />though i forgot the occasion that day...<br />i still remember that it was worse...<br />The walk wasn't lonely...<br />Cuz i had two "stick friends" with me...<br />Found a box but 6 were in it at prime earlier...<br />lolx...<br />I spent the whole walking time...<br />thinking of the night with my friends...<br />and planning to meet some of them again someday...<br />Once my first stick fwen died...<br />I lit the other...<br />By the time the second died... i was one bus-stop away from home...<br />A memorable day...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I can't regret my actions of screwing myself up at year 2 semester 2...<br />Cuz i know...<br />There's no point in doing so...<br />What's done cannot be undone...<br />All you can do is walk on...<br />And try not to do the same damn mistake again...<br /><br />But of cuz...<br />Everytime when it comes to such decisions...<br />I always find myself doin exactly the opposite...<br />Though i know it's the wrong decision...<br />I can't help myself but to do them...<br />lolx...<br />Baka Serigala!<br /><br />And now...<br />Even though i am supposed to have 1 more semester to go through before i can graduate...<br />I think that it may be 2 semesters instead of 1...<br />Haiyos...<br />We'll just have to wait and see right?<br />Haha...<br /><br />Okay... these days...<br />All i've been doing is climbing...<br />It doesn't even feel like a holiday anymore to me...<br />Diaow...<br />Lolx...<br />Anyway...<br />I've got a few more tings i want to blog...<br />But i may do that next time...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />I gtg go now...<br />Goin out...<br />Ehs??<br />This post is long...<br />Diaow...<br />Lolx...<br />Okay okay... Until next time...<br /><br />Sayanora!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-117091731156972363?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1170738179831977992007-02-05T21:02:00.000-08:002007-04-25T00:31:02.675-07:00<b>Final Fantasy XII MV - </b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/FyrFP11qJ8U" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-117073817983197799?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1169126524745998342007-01-18T05:19:00.000-08:002007-01-18T05:22:04.920-08:00Okay i've changed my background song...<br />A video actually...<br />Sorry if the upload of the video takes a long time...<br />The video's under the taggie...<br />I can't find how to put it higher though... sowie...<br />So for now...<br />Enjoys!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116912652474599834?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1169125177021527142007-01-18T04:55:00.000-08:002007-01-18T05:19:04.643-08:00<strong>O-Town</strong><br /><strong>All Or Nothing</strong><br /><br /><br />I know when he's been on your mind<br />That distant look is in your eyes<br />I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over<br />It's not the way<br />I choose to live<br />And something somewhere's gotta give<br />A share in this relationship gets older, older<br /><br />You know I'd fight for you but how can I fight someone who isn't even there<br />I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair<br /><br />Cuz I want it all<br />Or nothing at all<br />There's nowhere left to fall<br />When you reach the bottom it's now or never<br />Is it all<br />Or are we just friends<br />Is this how it ends<br />With a simple telephone call<br />You leave me here with nothing at all<br /><br />There are time it seems to me<br />I'm sharing you with memories<br />I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it<br />Then there's times you look at me<br />As thought I'm all that you could see<br />Those times I don't believe it's right I know it , know it<br /><br />Don't make me promises baby you never did know how to keep them well<br />I had the rest of you now I want the best of you it's time to show and tell<br /><br />Cuz I want it all<br />Or nothing at all<br />There's nowhere left to fall<br />When you reach the bottom it's now or never<br />Is it all<br />Or are we just friends<br />Is this how it ends<br />With a simple telephone call<br />You leave me here with nothing at all<br /><br />Cuz you and I<br />Could lose it all if you've got no more room<br />Nowhere inside for me in your life<br /><br />Cuz I want it all<br />Or Nothing at all<br />There's nowhere left to fall<br />It's now or never<br /><br />Is it all<br />Or Nothing at all<br />When you reach the bottom it's now or never<br />Is it all<br />Or are we just friends<br />Is this how it ends<br />With a simple telephone call<br />You leave me here with nothing at all.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116912517702152714?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1168069717943399962007-01-16T22:09:00.000-08:002007-04-25T00:30:00.561-07:00<b>Bon Jovi-Always(live)</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/JFPcMlNml0s" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><br /><br />Stop the background music and listen to this one...<br />It's a bit different from the one i've put as my background song...<br />But i feel this vid's better...<br />The emotions...<br />The expressions...<br />Just watch it will ya...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116806971794339996?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1168958782011364552007-01-16T22:00:00.000-08:002007-01-16T06:47:10.630-08:00I've heared so much about how climbing has changed...<br />How it's so different when compared from the time....<br />Before i started climbing...<br />Till right now...<br /><br />Route style wise...<br />Climber style wise...<br />Climber ethics wise...<br /><br />Routes now are more powerful and dynamic...<br />Climbers now... focuses more on power and strength...<br />Can't blame them...<br />Since routes these days are of that style...<br />But that doesn't mean other areas should be neglected...<br /><br />Hearing it all...<br />Makes me wish that i had started climbing earlier...<br /><br />Faizal told me....<br />How once... when one of the legendary climbers...<br />Anuar....<br />Had won a competition...<br />The prizes he got...<br />Were thrown to the crowd...<br />Only the medal did he kept...<br /><br />I wanna be a climber...<br />Who's not only good,<br />but also humble...<br />When i do reach that stage,<br />i want to still respect my seniors and fellow climbers...<br />Those i owe,<br />all that i have right now to...<br /><br />I want to join a competition,<br />to see where i stand...<br />It's not purely to win...<br />nor is it for the prizes alone...<br />I want another reason to compete...<br /><br />Right now...<br />I just want to join to see where i stand...<br />From there...<br />I'll know what i should do...<br />From there...<br />I'll be able to take the steps to reach my goal...<br /><br />I don't want to join Rockmaster cuz of the cash prize...<br />Boulderactive...<br />I'm joining to see purely where i stand...<br />To see if i'm even near my short term goal...<br /><br />Rockmaster is next...<br />I'm still wondering if i'll join...<br />I don't want to join cuz of the cash prize...<br />I want to join cuz of other reasons...<br />I'll have to wait and see...<br /><br />Nyways...<br />I've always dreamt of becoming an international climber...<br />And during that time,<br />i won't be competing in local competitions anymore,<br />but i'll join only if there's overseas climbers...<br />or there's someone who can replace me...<br /><br />I would be happy if that day comes...<br />When i become one of the best in Singapore...<br />And when i get old...<br />Someone young...<br />Who's not only good in climbing...<br />But is also respectful and humble,<br />one who has the right ethics of a climber...<br />Beats me and represents Singapore in my place...<br />These are just dreams...<br /><br />Actually...<br />These dreams...<br />There's still a long ways to go...<br />before i can finally clinch them...<br /><br />Just my msn nick,<br />inspired my the anime, "Vandread":<br /><br /><em>"dreams can become reality... if u just reach out for them...<br />just a bit more... if only i have a bit more... i need just a bit more...power..."</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116895878201136455?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1168883809234619882007-01-16T01:58:00.000-08:002007-01-15T10:01:01.840-08:00Ok... I know i haven't blogged for a long time...<br />Just that... I dun realli have much time these days...<br />I still haven't finish my tutorials...<br />Still behind class...<br />Haiyos...<br /><br />Basically...<br />All i've been doin and concentrating on is my climbing...<br />But soon...<br />I'll be concentrating on my studies...<br />Exams next week...<br /><br />I've been following Faizal's training since last week...<br />That is since school starts...<br />Starting back from almost square one i guess...<br />Taking things slowly...<br />I don't really want him to burst one shot actually...<br />Body won't be able to take it...<br /><br />My right elbow still gives sharp pain when i do push-ups...<br />Geez...<br />Just heal would you...<br />Wish i had wolverine's healing powers...<br />That way...<br />I won't need to be afraid of injuries...<br />Heeeheee...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />Got to contact back with Ruth the other day...<br />Think last week??<br />Lolx...<br />Long time since we got to chat in msn together...<br />Think the last time was when i was in attachment?<br />Yesh...<br />Long time ago...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />Study wise...<br />Tried to go for Marketing lessons just now...<br />But i arrived at dover mrt at wat?? 11:30??<br />And the class started at 10:30!!<br />In the end... I didn't go..<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />The class after that was Bunker Practices...<br />But halfway thru...<br />Ended up daydreaming...<br />of her...<br />Resisted the temptation to msg or call her...<br />Dun want to disturb her...<br />So i ended up missing a few things...<br /><br />I was daydreaming of Ichigo 100%...<br />Daydreaming that it was me and one of the other char was her...<br />The stuff we would do...<br />Haiz..<br />Just dreams ok...<br />Nothing more...<br /><br />I was thinking the other night...<br />While i was on the bed trying to get to sleep for close to 45 mins??<br />Is there any girl like Nishino??<br />Though cute and wealthy...<br />He still chose Manaka...<br /><br />I mean...<br />Manaka's a nobody sia...<br />and yet...<br />haiz...<br />she chose him...<br /><br />And yes...<br />I know...<br />She chose him due to what's inside of him...<br />Haiz!!<br /><br />Nyway...<br />Can't talk more...<br />Till here...<br /><br />Still wondering when the heck the comics will be uploaded in the website sia...<br /><br />Okay... Nyty nytez peeps!!<br /><br />Oh ya...<br />A short poem i just came up with...<br /><br /><em>Starting to feel blue,</em><br /><em>Can't stop thinking of you...</em><br /><em>Wishing that we could meet,</em><br /><em>But such a thing isn't an easy feat...</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>Cuz we're busy with our own schedule,</em><br /><em>Hence i'll stop acting like a fool...</em><br /><em>I'll take a step back if you'll allow,</em><br /><em>And wait to hear from you for now...</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116888380923461988?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167842839157571212007-01-04T00:54:00.000-08:002007-01-03T08:55:57.576-08:00Still sick...<br />Fever and sore throat...<br /><br />Would like to blog...<br />But...<br />Too much emotions inside me now...<br /><br />Maybe i'll blog about it next time...<br />Need to clear my head...<br />Wonder if i should take a breather downstairs??<br /><br />Haiz...<br />2 tings happening...<br />In that 1 hour...<br />So...<br />I think... What i'll do is...<br /><br />I'll just blog my msn nick...<br /><br /><em>skin's burning,fingers bleeding, muscles aching,joints tingling... health points( hp ): 10%... mental power( mp ): 200% !!!</em><br /><em>a climber's experience when facing a hard route, drained &amp; injured... but totally psyched to complete a problem...</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116784283915757121?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167754636363889142007-01-02T00:19:00.000-08:002007-01-02T08:20:56.343-08:00Well... I woke up feeling feverish... It's 10:57 p.m now...<br />Before i update on today's stuff...<br />I'll update on the last few days stuff first...<br /><br />31/12/2006<br />Hari Raya Haji<br /><br />I slept late on the 30th of December 2006...<br />Actually... I finally slept in the early hours of the 31st...<br />after finished blogging and using the internet...<br />And that was like... 4+ in the morning??<br />Woke up like 7+?<br />Haha... 3 hours of sleep...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I had to get up early...<br />Got to go and pray...<br />Heehee...<br /><br />After prayers... came home...<br />Usually, the whole family would leave in the morning...<br />But that day... diaow...<br />Most of the girls in the family...<br />who didn't have to go for the prayers...<br />Woke up late...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Thought of going back to sleep...<br />But... i'll probably be more sleepy when i wake up right??<br />Since i'll be sleeping for only a few hours...<br />So i thought to myself...<br />Better play the X-Box... lolx...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />We visited only two houses that day...<br />My two grandma's houses...<br />Heehee...<br /><br />Actually...<br />you know what...<br />I was supposed to sleepover at my gramps place...<br />my grams of my mother's side actually...<br />And i said yes...<br />And totally forgot my plans!!<br /><br />Cuz she was staying alone...<br />Since my uncle and aunt went overseas...<br />And since nobody was there...<br />My mom asked me if i could stay over for the night...<br />And i totally forgot all about the fact that it was also New Year Eve...<br />Diaow...<br />But by the time i realized...<br />I had already said yes...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />Change of plans...<br />That's what i thought...<br />And that's what i said to my elder sis...<br />Diaow...<br />But!<br />I managed to get myself out of it...<br />Asked my younger sis to take my place instead...<br />Heehee...<br /><br />Told my parents that i was gona celebrate the New Year at town...<br />But...<br />In the end...<br />Me and my fwens celebrated at Boon Lay...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />The party there ain't that great as my fwens told me...<br />Diaow...<br />The best ting to me was...<br />I guess...<br />The fireworks...<br />Yesh...<br />Boon Lay had fireworks...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />But you know wat??<br />Halfway thru the night...<br />At around 9+...<br />My dad told me not to go home too late...<br />Cuz he hooked me up with this job...<br />And i was like WHAT??<br />I was screwed...<br /><br />Felt pissed off...<br />You know...<br />Another plan wrecker!!<br />Diaow...<br />Was supposed to go JB tomorrow!!<br />Watch the movie...<br />Night at the museum!<br /><br />Well...<br />Diaow...<br />Change of plans...<br />But... Now when i've 70 bucks in my wallet...<br />heehee..<br />I'm happy...<br /><br />Hey...<br />Won't you be happy to get money after being broke??<br />Diaow...<br />Well...<br />That's about it...<br /><br />01/01/2007<br />The New Year<br /><br />Hmm... Slept late once again...<br />Cuz i came home late after the celebration...<br />Slept at around.. hmm... 3 or 4 plus??<br />Woke up around 6 or 7 plus...<br />Nyway... i know i slept for 3 hours plus again...<br />Had to wake up early again...<br />For work...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Actually...<br />My dad said a few weeks ago that the work on this day was cancelled...<br />And i only got to know later in the afternoon how the work on this day came about...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I was half asleep while i pilloned my dad's bike...<br />Haha...<br />Luckily i'm the pillon...<br />Not the rider...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />The job was harder to me...<br />compared to the previous one...<br /><br />Had to clean two transformers...<br />This huge electrical thingy...<br />Diaow...<br />But before we can start cleaning...<br />The whole plant had to be shut down...<br />And a back-up generator has to be set in place...<br />So that there can still be electricity for use...<br /><br />And u know what??<br />Just a few minutes after my dad and i started...<br />The back-up generator went dead...<br />Lolx...<br />No electricity!!!<br /><br />So in the end...<br />My dad decided that we had to split the work...<br />I was to start cleaning...<br />While he had to manually open up the top part of the transformer...<br />It would have been faster if we could have used the electric drill...<br />Unscrew the nuts faster taht way...<br />Haiz...<br />Nyway... That's why it was more tedious...<br />3 workers and two huge transformers...<br />The 1st time i worked..<br />I saw these two other workers...<br />and they worked only on one transformer...<br />Haiyos...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Can't say nything...<br />Actually... the job could have been finished much faster...<br />If the back-up generator had work...<br />Haiyos...<br /><br />In the end...<br />we went home at 3 or 4 plus...<br />Pocketed like $70 dollars...<br />for working 7 or 8 hours of work??<br />Not bad i guess..<br /><br />Nyway...<br />i was fully awake as i pilloned my dad's bike for the trip home...<br />Guess cuz i was daydreaming...<br />Lolx...<br />But once the story of what i was daydreaming was finished...<br />Went really half asleep...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />We didn't go home straight...<br />Just went to clementi first...<br />Cuz my dad wanted to go to the pet store there...<br />Those that sold the arowanas and luohans??<br />Heehee...<br /><br />Well... after that...<br />Went home...<br />Watched TV till 9 plus??<br />I thought of goin out with my fwens...<br />But i couldn't reach them...<br />Hmm...<br />Well... I still wanted to go out...<br />But... really tired...<br />In the end... i ended up sleeping...<br /><br />2nd January 2007...<br /><br />Heehee...<br />Okay... Finally update on today's stuff...<br />I woke up feeling feverish...<br />But i still wanted to do what i said...<br />Messaged you...<br />but no replies...<br /><br />So ended up waiting for a reply...<br />while i used the com...<br />Thinking also...<br />How the heck i got this fever...<br />Maybe cuz i slept for too long...<br />16 hours of sleep...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />My sis told me to go out with her and her bf...<br />Watch Night at the museum...<br />Lolx..<br />Cuz they also didn't go JB on Monday...<br />Dunno why...<br /><br />Well...<br />I was kinda hesitant towards the idea...<br />Cuz i was feverish...<br />And Jurong Point??<br />Hmmm...<br /><br />But in the end...<br />I still ended up goin...<br />Cuz no replies mah...<br /><br />Supposed to catch the 4:20 show...<br />But ended up waiting for the 6:50 show...<br />Cuz the 4:20 show had only tickets for first row seats...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />We decided to head over to banquet...<br />Eat first since Faizal said he was hungry...<br />Since i was sick...<br />I didn't try any japan food tis time...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Ate tom yam...<br />My sis went out to buy me panadols...<br />Tanx!<br />hehe...<br />Ate three pills as usual...<br />I know supposed to eat two...<br />But i eat three...<br />Just don't follow me ok...<br />Who knows what side effects you'll get...<br /><br />I ain't responsible if u take three...<br />Cuz i'm only saying i take three...<br /><br />Swallowed it with bandong...<br />Yes i'm crazy...<br /><br />Faizal took one pill...<br /><br />And after that...<br />We went out for some "fresh air"<br />while my sis went to look at some other shops...<br /><br />Strangely...<br />I felt dizzy the moment we start walking out of banquet...<br />Geez...<br />Dunno why though...<br />Faizal also said he was dizzy...<br />Hmm...<br />Was it the panadol...<br />I dun know...<br /><br />Oh ya...<br />I tried msging again...<br />And this time i got an answer...<br />Got what i needed to know...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />We went off to look for my shoes...<br />Went shop after shop...<br />In the end...<br />I got this pair of Vans...<br />Diaow...<br />Haha...<br /><br />Now i'm wondering if my clothes suits the shoe or not...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />After that...<br />We looked for my younger sis's school shoe...<br />but those black ones that we found...<br />had no correct sizes...<br />Haiyos...<br /><br />Also...<br />My fever seemed to go down a bit by that time...<br />Heehee...<br />Think cuz i took three...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Nyways...<br />We went to watch the movie after that...<br />Kinda hilarious...<br />It ain't that bad actually...<br /><br />One of the lines...<br />If i remember correctly,<br />which was on the film was<br />"Some people are borned with greatness,<br />Others have greatness bestowed upon them"<br /><br />You'll understand when u watch the show...<br />The whole theatre was laughing...<br />Though an advice would be...<br />If u want to have good seats...<br />Get ur tickets at least 45 mins before the show...<br />Cuz the tickets are selling fast...<br />Think it's partly due to the fact that it's recently opened,<br />and that it's a holiday today...<br /><br />Anyway... we went home after that...<br />And here i am now...<br />Typing away...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Oh ya...<br />Sorry Carene...<br />For not being able to make it for trainings today...<br />I woke up with the fever...<br />So i didn't really think of goin to climb today...<br />What's more...<br />My left pinky finger still hasn't fully healed...<br />But it's better now...<br />Think cuz i rested for 16 hours??<br />Lolx...<br />Paiseh hor...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />2nd of January is over now... 12:13 a:m of 3rd of January now...<br />I've told mel i'm too lazy to try nymore...<br />When we were talking about that person...<br /><br />I wonder if that person remembers regardin what i said about 2nd of January...<br />Anyways...<br />Till here...<br />Sayonara!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116775463636388914?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167505319689715002006-12-31T03:05:00.000-08:002006-12-30T11:07:52.310-08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;"><strong>Always<br />Bon Jovi</strong><br /><br />This romeo is bleeding, but you can't see his blood<br />It's nothing but some feelings<br />That this old dog kicked up<br />It's been raining since you left me<br />Now I'm drowning in the flood<br />You see I've always been a fighter<br />But without you I give up<br /><br />Now I can't sing a love song<br />Like the way it's meant to be<br />Well,I guess I'm not that good anymore<br />But baby, that's just me<br /><br />1-Yeah I, will love you, baby<br />Always and i'll be there<br />Forever and a day, always<br /><br />2-I'll be there, till the stars don't shine<br />Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme<br />I know when i die you'll be on my mind and I'll love you, always<br /><br />Now your pictures that you left behind<br />Are just memories of a different life<br />Some that made us laugh<br />Some that made us cry<br />One that made you have to say goodbye<br /><br />What I'd give to run my fingers thru your hair<br />Touch your lips, to hold you near,<br />When you say your prayers, try to understand<br />I've made mistakes, I'm just a man<br /><br />When he holds you close, when he pulls you near<br />When he says the words<br />You've been needing to hear,<br />I'll wish I was him<br />'Cause these words are mine, to say to you<br />'Til the end of time (rpt 1)<br /><br />If you told me to cry for you, I could<br />If you told me to die for you, I would<br />Take a look at my face<br />There's no price i won't pay<br />To say these words to you<br /><br />Well, there ain't no luck in these loaded dice<br />But baby, if you give me just one more try<br />We can pack up our old dreams, and our old lives,<br />We'll find a place, where the sun still shines<br />(rpt 1,2)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116750531968971500?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167502409864315842006-12-31T02:23:00.000-08:002006-12-30T10:25:24.523-08:00Update on Saturday, 30/12/2006<br /><br />Basically...<br />This day... had a lot of plans...<br />Not my plans...<br />Juz some tings which i had to choose to do...<br /><br />Basically...<br />Meet up with my fwens as i usually do...<br />Cuz one of them books out on Friday...<br />So spend time with him...<br /><br />Next one was to meet up with arnab...<br />Catch up on times...<br />Yupz...<br />But... Couldn't...<br />Cuz the next ting pop up...<br />Which was...<br /><br />Going climbing with my sis and faizal they all...<br />Cuz my sis will be going on a course soon...<br />So she can't climb that often soon...<br />So she wanted me to climb also...<br />As company...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Hmm... Next would be to meet Burn( my fwen's nick who's actually Azmi)<br />He's my ying... or the darkside... I'm the yang... lolx...<br />Nyway... supposed to go to this open house...<br />I think it's the Tuas SCDF??<br />Cuz he's thinking of signing on with the SCDF...<br /><br />But that plan cancelled...<br />Cuz Wan not around...<br />So ya...<br /><br />So... in the end...<br />I had to go climb...<br /><br />But actually i thought of meeting arnab before goin...<br />But i end up woking up late...<br />Diaowz..<br />Paiseh...<br /><br />So i ended up goin climbing at climbasia...<br />Well... not climbing...<br />the correct term would be bouldering...<br /><br />Supposed to go out at 3...<br />But i was so engrossed with playing my xbox game...<br />Till i didn't realize the time... diaowz...<br />So ended up leaving later...<br /><br />Arriving at climbasia...<br />I realized i had $50+? in my membership card??<br />Hmm... tink cuz long time nvr go...<br />All the credit got from competitions...<br />Not mine alone...<br />Some ppl win... they dun want...<br />so they pass me...<br />=)<br />heehee...<br /><br />Nywayz...<br />Starting warm-up route was ok...<br />But the routes after that...<br />totally sick...<br />For some reason i feel real shack...<br />When i climb...<br />My whole body's shivering...<br /><br />The second route...<br />Aiyo...<br />I know i can finish the route...<br />but for some reason...<br />By the time i get the tile at one of the crux...<br />I seem to be real shack...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Because of that route...<br />My left pinky finger bled...<br />Must be because of the pincher lar...<br />Haiyos...<br />Yesterday my right index finger bled cuz of a crimper...<br />And now...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Then somemore... my shoulders felt like they had ice on them...<br />Got this tingling feeling...<br />Last time i had it on my elbows...<br />Then now my shoulders??<br /><br />I think climbing six days straight...<br />Is really taking its toll on me...<br /><br />But i still continued lar...<br />Dun want to waste my time and money u know...<br />heehee...<br /><br />The routes after that were no different...<br />For some reason...<br />My whole body shivers when i boulder...<br />Can't control my body much as they shiver...<br />Haiyos...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />In the end...<br />I had to keep taking "breaks" in between...<br />To let myself recover...<br />Lolx..<br />Take in some NOS!<br /><br />I finally managed to start finishing routes at 8+...<br />Imagine the torture...<br />Not finishing any routes except the warm-up route...<br />since arriving at 4 or 5+??<br /><br />Haiyos...<br />But i tink that...<br />I managed to finish the route...<br />only when... i dunno how or why...<br />only when i feel my body has recovered a bit...<br /><br />Hmm...<br />I mean..<br />When i arrive...<br />isn't that supposed to be when i'm fresh and all...<br />But for some reason...<br />I start finishing the routes only at 8+...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Well...<br />I dunno where that energy came from...<br />Although i've been fighting to finish the route since the start...<br />I've only managed to finish them at that time...<br />And what's more...<br />I'm supposed to feel worn-out at this time...<br />Diaowz...<br /><br />Guess it must be someting to do with mentality and all...<br />Haha...<br />Before finishing Thomas's route...<br />Which was the route i kept trying on after not being able to complete the second route...<br />I thought of my msn nick...<br />And felt that...<br />That was how i'm supposed to climb...<br /><br />And seriously...<br />My body was really shacked and weary...<br />Dun know why...<br />But somehow... I kept pushing myself with my mind...<br />I really wanted to finish Thomas's route...<br /><br />And i eventually did...<br />Faizal gave me a key word...<br />Lolx...<br />It was to stand up to get to the finishing tile...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Well...<br />After that...<br />It seemed to me that my body got a boost of morale...<br />And i started to finish up unfinished businesses!!<br /><br />The last route i finally went to try to finish....<br />Was the second route of the day...<br />Haha...<br />All the way...<br />I still haven't finish it...<br /><br />U know what??<br />Compared to trying in the afternoon earlier...<br />I felt more energized at 8+ when i tried to finish it...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />I managed to get thrugh the crux...<br />And went for the last tile..<br />On the roof...<br />And diaow...<br />I managed to grab the last tile..<br />Which was like a horn with my right hand...<br />But my left hand slipped from the previous tile...<br />And i was sent flying...<br />due to the "bandor" (dunno if it's spelt this way)<br />And i almost landed on melissa...<br />Luckily she managed to roll away in time...<br />She rolled all the way until she was under the mini roof...<br /><br />Phew... glad that she wasn't hurt...<br />But haiz...<br />I seriously wanted to finish the route...<br />Aiyo...<br /><br />Tried again after that...<br />But felt different...<br />So i got down...<br />Haiz...<br />One unfinished business...<br /><br />Damn!<br /><br />Haiz...<br />But before i climbed the second route...<br />The time when i got to touch the last tile...<br />I reminded myself of what Chris Sharma said...<br />Or i tink he said something like this..<br />I told myself that i can't want to finish the route too much...<br />And i can't want too little...<br />Cuz if i do either way...<br />Something is sure to cock-up...<br /><br />Cuz if i want it too much...<br />I'll get too obsessed...<br />And if i want too little...<br />Then i won't have the drive needed to finish it...<br /><br />So when i didn't manage to do it the second time after i fall...<br />I walked away...<br />Cuz i dun want to get too obsessed with it...<br />Anyway...<br />I've gained a few things today...<br /><br />Well...<br />My body was the one that managed to gain...<br />One thing good was that i managed to experince a different style of route...<br />Which was my intention before i came to climbasia...<br /><br />Anyway... think i managed to finish up to four routes today??<br />The first is the warm-up route...<br />Second is Thomas's route...<br />Third... is my own route...<br />Which not many mangaed to finish cuz of weariness...<br />I can only recall me and my sis finishing it...<br />Fourth is Burn's route...<br />Fifth is Faizal's route...<br /><br />Oops... it's five...<br />I thought only four...<br />Well each route was unique in their own ways...<br />I love them all!!<br />Today was really fun and great!<br />Enjoyed today's boulder...<br /><br />Unfinished business i want to complete: 1!<br /><br />But i love this route too...<br />Heehee...<br />It's uniqueness and how i kept on fighting to try to finish it...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Overall...<br />I think i did well today...<br />Not getting completely de-moralized when i couldn't finish the routes in the beginning...<br />And how i kept on fighting to finish the routes...<br /><br />Argh...<br />Problems count so far<br />So so far...<br />Shoulders now ache...<br />During climbing shoulders were tingling...<br />Left pinky finger bled...<br />Right index finger bled yesterday...<br />The gap between the nail and the skin...<br />Not fully closed...<br />My knees shivers when i climb...<br />Hard to control body when i climb due to weariness...<br />Ankles are potentially experiencing problems...<br />Right elbow problem when reaching a certain number of push-up...<br />Left shoulder experiencing problem due to incident from the past...<br />Now it's weaker...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />But overall...<br />Dun think they're that major when i truly look at it...<br />Especially compared to injuries from other climbers...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />Actually...<br />Kinda proud and happy with my performance today...<br />Especially since i've been climbing six days straight...<br /><br />Well till here then...<br />Got to wake up early later...<br />Pray cuz of Hari Raya Haji...<br />Oh ya...<br />Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims...<br />And a Happy New Year to everyone!!<br />Enjoys!!<br />Sayonara!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116750240986431584?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167414911621280022006-12-30T09:53:00.000-08:002006-12-29T10:01:08.863-08:00Hmm... Juz a brief update on what i did today...<br /><br />Met Hazli to get Faizal's new phone... at Queensway...<br />Really sleepy that time actually...<br />But since i was goin to dover... I might as well get it for Faizal...<br />Reached late... as usual...<br />Siti was already there...<br />Didn't know she finished work early today...<br />Heehee...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Bouldering started on a bad note...<br />Quite boring actually...<br />But things eventually picked up...<br />But that was what?? Around 2000hrs + ?<br />Haha...<br />Siti set some routes that were her style... Small little holds...<br /><br />Ok... "Holds" are actually those things that we hold and step on...<br />In general... those tings on the wall are called "tiles"<br />To be precise... "Handholds" are those "tiles" that are used for holding,<br />and "footholds" are those "tiles" that are used for stepping on...<br /><br />Anyway... Siti has great finger strength...<br />Which means she can hold small tiles...<br />We find it harder to hold these small tiles when compared to her...<br />So her style is doing routes that uses these small tiles which are spaced not too far from each other...<br /><br />So ya...<br />She set (create) some routes of her style...<br />And it was challenging...<br />Though... i couldn't finish the third one...<br />Cuz i spent quite a long time doing the first route...<br />which was the hardest...<br /><br />My index finger bleed because of the pressure i exert on it...<br />while holding on the small handhold...<br />So by the time i finished...<br />My fingers were desperately begging me to stop torturing them...<br />LMAO!!<br />They felt like they were being burnt...<br />My fingers were burning!!<br />Well... normal in climbing actually...<br />heehee<br /><br />But i went on to the second route...<br />And managed to complete it...<br /><br />But by the third route...<br />Jialat...<br />My index finger cannot take it liao...<br />My mind also cannot tahan...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Then i was stupid enough to wash the wound...<br />Cuz the water makes the skin softer!!<br />Stupid of me...<br />Well...<br />A lesson learnt nyways...<br />haha...<br /><br />But...<br />Overall... today was extremely fun...<br />It's been a long time since i bouldered like this...<br />Doing stuff that i'm not fully good at...<br />Doing someting not of my complete style...<br />heehee...<br /><br />No pain, no gain ryt?...<br /><br />Though i didn't do power training today...<br />I think i gained some other stuff...<br /><br />In the end...<br />It was so fun that we didn't realize the time...<br />It was already 2300hrs!<br />So we had to pack up quickly...<br />Lolx..<br /><br />What's more...<br />I should be climbing again tomorrow...<br />My sis keeps pestering me to come and join her and the rest...<br />Jialat...<br />Like this... 6 days straight...<br />Hope my body can take this...<br />More importantly...<br />I hope my mental can keep me going!<br /><br />So at the coffee shop...<br />Had to call arnab to talk to her regardin the 30th...<br />Haiz...<br />Think i have to re-arrange my schedule...<br />Geez...<br />Now u c why i can't promise u sayang??<br />Stuff keeps popping out...<br />I want to c u...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Hmm... Lolx...<br />U were sleeping when i called...<br />Sorry hor...<br />Didn't think that you were asleep liao...<br />Not sure if u still sick or not...<br />Hmm...<br />Call u in the morning then...<br />Need to re-schedule...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Hmm...<br />Think up to here...<br />Oh ya...<br />Chatting with mel right now...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Making me self-conscious...<br /><br />Think i need to realli talk to arnab liao...<br /><br />Well... Gtg...<br />Sayonara<br />Nyty Nytez!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116741491162128002?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167382028840731322006-12-29T16:46:00.000-08:002006-12-29T00:47:09.103-08:00Heehee... It's not raining... It's 4:40 p.m right now...<br />And i'm so late for climbing training at dover today...<br />Haiz... Feel so lazy today...<br />heehee...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I juz wanna wish arnab a get well soon!!<br />Take care of yourself ayite!<br />Take more food with Vitamin C!<br />The weather's been kinda bad these days...<br />Though the sky's clear today...<br />Such a beautiful day!!!<br /><br />Hmm...<br />My blog looks a little different...<br />Lolx...<br />Not used to this kind of skin...<br />Though... i have to admit that it does look good..<br />Lolx..<br /><br />Well...<br />Hmmm... Was thinking earlier...<br />Of climbing trainings...<br />Got to do more power trainings...<br />Pulling really suck...<br />My locking power is shaky...<br />Haiz...<br />Buck up Asri!!<br /><br />Ok...<br />Gona go ite dover now...<br />Sayonara!!<br /><br />When there's a will,<br />There's a way...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116738202884073132?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167333014866838502006-12-29T02:58:00.000-08:002006-12-29T10:35:09.496-08:00It's 29th december 2:58 am rite now... I've changed my skin... Hope it's good...<br />But... it's not reflecting anything i'm experiencing in life right now...<br />But i like the words...<br />"i am just a dreamer. you're the world"<br />Haha... Guess cuz i dream so much...<br />Lolx...<br />Nywyaz... Haven't put in the song i want into the blog...<br />Forgot the website to find the codes...<br />Oh well...<br />Guess i'll do it next time...<br />Really sleepy now...<br />Well... maybe not...<br />Lolx...<br />But it's late...<br />And i still am climbing tomorrow... I mean today... Later...<br />Lolx..<br />Well... That will make it 5 days straight of climbing...<br />Experiencing some side effects...<br />My elbow hurts when i do push-ups...<br />occurs when i reach a certain number...<br />Anyway...<br />No pain, No gain...<br />Like in the move,<br />"The Replacements",<br />A line said by Falco (played by Keanu Reeves) to his team:<br />"Pain heals. Chicks dig scars. Glory lasts forever."<br /><br />It's all true...<br />Pain does heal... Though in certain cases... It only heals a bit...<br />Chicks do dig scars...<br />And definitely! Glory lasts forever... If not forever...<br />It shall stay in the hearts of those who witness them...<br /><br />I use this line at times to motivate me at times...<br />Especially in climbing...<br />When i'm pumped while doing endurance or power endurance...<br /><br />Anyway... Till here...<br />Sayonara...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116733301486683850?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167287831216144992006-12-27T22:25:00.000-08:002006-12-27T22:37:11.480-08:00Haha... Still raining... Been trying to log into blogskins.com to change my skin... but i can't... Haiz... Guess it's cuz of the Taiwan earthquake...<br />Anyway... Think i'll try again after climbing today... When i get home... Haiz... Really wanted to change and update some stuff into this blog...<br />Guess i'll just have to wait...<br />Hmm...<br />I wonder...<br />If it keeps raining like this... How long more till Singapore gets flooded?? I know people will say Singapore has good drainage system and sorts... But hey... Sooner or later... Something has to give... Malaysia is already experiencing flooding...<br />Haiz...<br />And to add to that... Taiwan gets hit by earthquake... I didn't know that Taiwan has got something to do with the internet... Lolx...<br />I realize i'm beginning to rely quite a lot on the internet...<br />Well... If i look around... It's not only me...<br />Geez...<br />If the internet cocks up any more than this...<br />The economy is surely gona be affected... Well... lets just see if anything new other than rain and earthquake pops up ayite??<br />Guess mother nature is pouring all sorts of tings now...<br />And i heard that somewhere in the western side?? They're having problems due to the winter season huh...<br /><br />Well till here...<br />I gtg...<br />Sayonara!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116728783121614499?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167197436447711572006-12-26T21:29:00.000-08:002006-12-26T21:30:36.750-08:00Well...<br />Tanx for replying...<br />I understand now...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />Juz woke up a few minutes ago...<br />Tried the internet...<br />But for some reason it was laggy...<br />So restarted the whole damn thing...<br /><br />Listening to Bon Jovi now...<br />Guess i'm a slow poke??<br />Cuz i only realized not a few months ago...<br />That some of his songs were good...<br />Diaow...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Found the video of The Lake House...<br />in Youtube...<br />I'm not sure if it's fully uploaded...<br />But i'll just watch it nywayz...<br /><br />Really lazy to go climb today...<br />Think i'll tell Faizal to go ahead first...<br />I'll come a bit later...<br />Heehee...<br /><br />I did the power sets yesterday...<br />Not much aching...<br />Haiz...<br />I wonder why...<br />Did i not do them properly??<br />Dun tell me i'm improving cuz i know i'm not...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Juz thinking about stuff...<br />And i feel i should straighten up...<br />Clear all the feelings...<br />It's not good for me nyways...<br />I dun want to be all emo anymore...<br />I'm sorry for those who had to experience...<br />this sad sorry stupid side of me...<br /><br />So...<br />If things happen...<br />Then it does...<br />If not...<br />It doesn't...<br /><br />I don't want to take tings too seriously anymore...<br />I won't hold on to you as much as i did...<br />And...<br />I'll take things casually now...<br />Treat you no different from others...<br />Cuz if i treat u differently...<br />Things juz seems to get more confusing...<br />and complicated for me...<br /><br />So...<br />Like what Nishino said...<br />That's why, for real this time...<br />Sayonara!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116719743644771157?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167158445070552412006-12-26T10:19:00.000-08:002006-12-26T10:42:07.173-08:00Well...<br />Went to climb at SP earlier...<br />Managed to finish quite a few routes...<br /><br />And you know what??<br />The route which i made...<br />And tried so hard...<br /><br />Was on-sighted by Hans!!<br />OMG!!<br /><br />Lolx...<br />He's grown quite a lot since the last comp...<br />Which was?? Pumpfest??<br /><br />Lolx...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I realize my pulling power is still not yet strong...<br />Still need to rely quite a lot on my legs...<br />Lolx...<br />To me it's a lot..<br />Since it's more than usual...<br />Hehehe...<br /><br />I think my standard have dropped quite a bit...<br />Mostly cuz of the period of time when i slacked...<br />It's cuz of the FYP lor...<br />Lolx...<br />My fault for leaving it to the last minute...<br /><br />Climbed for like once a week for 5 weeks??<br />And during those times when i climbed...<br />Climbing was pretty slack...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />Now...<br />I've got to put more effort to bring myself back up...<br /><br />Focusing more on pull-ups for now...<br />5 sets of ten pull-ups...<br />Breaks in between ain't long...<br /><br />Thinking of doing pull-ups...<br />in-between boulder routes too...<br /><br />But at the end of the day...<br />Still gona do the 5 sets...<br /><br />But i'm wondering why...<br />My right elbow made weird sounds...<br />as i did my push-ups...<br />Weird...<br />I hope it's nothing bad...<br /><br />Nyway...<br />looking at carene's standard...<br />Think she's improved...<br />Endurance and power is better...<br />Though i doubt that she knows...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />She's improved quite a bit since then...<br />Well....<br />Since she started the training...<br />But don't get too happy...<br />You still need to put in more effort ayite!!<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Well...<br />She just have to keep gradually developing...<br />her power, strength, endurance and power endurance...<br /><br />But the most important thing...<br />That's seriously affecting her improvement...<br />Is her mentality...<br />Needs to be more focus...<br />And she needs to learn to mentally prepare herself...<br />every single time she trains...<br /><br />Be more confident ayite rene!!<br />Maybe cuz of ur lacking in confidence...<br />Ur performance is lowered??<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Certain things only you can discover...<br />Mental is a truly hard thing to train...<br />Different climbers have different mentality...<br />And hence prepares their mental differently...<br />With frequent training...<br />You should realize a thing or two...<br />That shall eventually help out in your mental...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />Overall...<br />You've gone quite a long way since i first took you in...<br /><br />Okay... that's about it...<br />Hmm...<br />Actually... before tis post...<br />I've made another one...<br /><br />But i've saved it into a draft...<br />Not really sure when i'm gona post it up...<br />Dun misunderstand me...<br />It's already completed...<br />It's about other things that happened today...<br /><br />Well... till i get a call from her or something...<br />And only if she does mention about the draft before this...<br />It shall remain a draft...<br />And i'll post it up only next year...<br />What month...<br />Not really sure though...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />It's 2:39 am now...<br />So till next time...<br />Sayonara!!<br /><br /><em>a draft before this</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116715844507055241?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167156827305620092006-12-26T09:13:00.000-08:002006-12-28T10:34:34.490-08:00I want to meet you...<br />Probably more than you know...<br />Maybe more than you wanting to meet me...<br />But yet...<br />I'm not allowed to...<br /><br />I wanted to meet you today...<br />Was thinking about it...<br />The whole day actually...<br />But the same thing...<br />happens again...<br /><br />At SP...<br />I called you...<br />Using my fwens fone...<br />And mine next...<br />I couldn't get through to you...<br />I wonder why...<br />And the least you could do...<br />was to return my call rite??<br /><br />After climbing...<br />When i got at the MRT station...<br />Using the public phone...<br />I finally managed to contact you...<br />I got my answer...<br />A no no...<br /><br />You were out with your fwens...<br />And i guess...<br />I'm disturbing you??<br /><br />I kept hoping that you'll say...<br />Maybe we could meet after you leave your fwens??<br />Even to meet you just to send you home...<br />For that few minutes...<br />I'm happy...<br /><br />But...<br />Those words didn't come out...<br /><br />So i went out with my fwens instead...<br />After hanging up the phone...<br />But throughout that time...<br />I just couldn't get you out of my head...<br />I wonder why...<br /><br />I'm now wondering...<br />If you've read my previous post...<br />And if you're mad about it...<br />About the stuff i've put down there...<br />But...<br />Till you say it...<br />I seriously won't know...<br /><br />I miss you so much...<br />I keep wishing that i'll bump into you...<br /><br />And as dumb as it may sound...<br />I hoped that somehow...<br />you and your fwens decided...<br />to eat at the same coffee shop we were in...<br /><br />And on the train home...<br />I hoped that you were taking the same train...<br />And i seriously don't know why...<br />I alighted at Lakeside...<br />Instead of Boon Lay...<br /><br />I actually thought of sitting there...<br />for a while...<br />To think things through...<br />And at the same time...<br />Hoping to bump into you...<br /><br />But somehow...<br />I walked down the escalator...<br />And out of the mrt station...<br /><br />I msged you...<br />Asking where you were...<br />But...<br />No answers...<br /><br />But before i msged you...<br />I wondered if i was disturbing you...<br />I even thought of you replying;<br />"Can you stop smsing me?? You're irritating you know??"<br />I wonder if that was truly how you feel...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I waited...<br />Under a block...<br />across the overhead bridge...<br />Waiting...<br /><br />Half an hour passed...<br />But yet...<br />Still no replies...<br />I finally decided to head home...<br /><br />And when i reached the mrt station...<br />It finally dawned on me...<br />You could have probably taken the 98 bus from Jurong East...<br />How dumb of me...<br /><br />But...<br />Why???<br />Until now...<br />As i type...<br />No replies have reached me...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />How can one be independent...<br />When all one wants...<br />Is to spend some time with another person?<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I would have walked home from Lakeside...<br />But...<br />Haha...<br />The rain prevented me from doing so...<br /><br />But...<br />I did finally walked from Boon Lay Mrt station...<br />Took me 20-30 mins??<br />Before i reached home??<br /><br />The trip was linger than expected...<br />Guess it's cuz of the rain...<br /><br />But i like the rain...<br />The coolness it brings...<br />How the rain droplets run down your face...<br /><br />I wore my sweater...<br />But halfway...<br />I took off the hood...<br />It was blocking the wind and rain...<br />from running through and down my face...<br /><br />But i guess...<br />That was the whole purpose of the hood...<br />Right??<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I felt better with the hood down...<br />It was cooling...<br /><br />With the rain and wind cooling me...<br />I continued thinking of you...<br />Thinking of how maybe...<br />What would happen...<br />If we were to bump into each other...<br />earlier just now...<br /><br />With nobody around...<br />Walking on certain streets...<br />I began to sing...<br />Letting go of my sadness...<br />I wanted the rain to sing with me...<br />I foolishly hoped that it would rain heavier...<br /><br />Luckily it didn't...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />It's confusing...<br />Just like Bert said to me earlier...<br />As i discussed with him of my dilemma...<br /><br />Girls are hard to understand...<br />If you did miss me...<br />Why couldn't we meet after you left your fwens??<br /><br />And at times i wonder...<br />Why do you not want me near...<br />When your friends are around??<br /><br />Am i a hindrance??<br />Do i make you look bad...<br />Tell me...<br />Cuz it's confusing me...<br /><br />Why did you not return my call??<br />Why did you pick up...<br />Only when i called you using a public phone??<br /><br />Are you just playing around with me??<br />It's starting to confuse me...<br /><br />It's getting worse...<br />Walking under the rain i mean...<br />has made it worse...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116715682730562009?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1167071763301996792006-12-25T10:33:00.000-08:002006-12-25T10:36:03.536-08:00<em>Cuz you're just too good for me...</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116707176330199679?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1166815102880736922006-12-22T10:17:00.000-08:002006-12-25T10:20:42.573-08:00The reason i asked you those questions...<br />Is because i wanted to know how important i am to you...<br />It's also because i planned to meet you...<br /><br />To see you on 25th of December 0000 hrs...<br />Juz the two of us...<br /><br />And before we part...<br />I want a hug...<br />Not too long and not too short...<br />Just to pay back those times that i couldn't see you...<br />And to see if we were close enough for that kind of simple hug...<br /><br />The reason i turned the "tool" off...<br />was because i didn't want you see the sadness on my face...<br />during and after i asked those questions...<br /><br />And when u said that u knew i would "do it" before we meet up...<br />Really saddened me...<br />Cuz you're one of the few important people in my life...<br />U fall in the category of those who i won't "do it" before<br />and during our meets...<br /><br /><br />And now... i'm apologizing...<br /><br />If ever i was a burden...<br />Cuz i feel i am one...<br /><br />If ever i was a nuisance...<br />Cuz i feel i've always been one...<br /><br />For those time i made u sad...<br />"those"if in case there were times i made u not sad...<br /><br />For those times i made tears well up in your eyes...<br /><br />For still not being able to trust in you fully...<br />Cuz i dun think anyone can be this sweet to me...<br />For i feel that there's a part of you that detests me...<br />Since i've always ran to you for help...<br />Always coming to you with sadness...<br />and never happiness...<br /><br />And never did i return the favor to you...<br />For never did you ran to me...<br /><br />Hence... my doubt in our so called best friends friendship...<br /><br />Even if i may not be able to answer your doubts...<br />I still want to hear them...<br /><br />But right now...<br />It just seems like i'm forcing you to...<br /><br />There's so much i wish to say...<br /><br />Like in the middle of our conversation...<br />The reason i stopped halfway...<br />and not type a single word...<br />wasn't because i was doing something else...<br />i was looking at my monitor screen...<br />but it's just that tears welled up in my eyes...<br />and my heart ached too much...<br />because of the pain i've caused you...<br /><br />And when you asked me how important you were to me...<br />The reason i paused...<br />Was because...<br />i couldn't find the right words to describe how extremely important you are...<br /><br />The poems i made for you...<br />Words in it were all true...<br /><br />And the promise i broke...<br />I made it in the first place because of you wasn't it??<br />I still bear the mark of that promise...<br /><br />And the only reason i broke it 4 months later...<br />Was because i felt that you were no longer there...<br /><br />You're...<br />Truly one of my Nakama...<br /><br />To tell you the truth...<br />I'm sorry for typing this down...<br /><br />It's just that it's in my heart for way too long...<br /><br />I'm a guy who can't trust someone fully...<br />But i'm not sure why i can't trust you too...<br />Especially those sweet words you say to me...<br />Cuz it's hard to believe someone can be this sweet to me...<br /><br />And she's only a best friend...<br /><br />Moreover...<br />She's the only one i can talk from my heart...<br /><br />Really sorry for this...<br />But... i hope that u could tell me the truth...<br />Were words from you true??<br /><br />I wonder if i drag you down...<br />And if i spoil you mood...<br /><br />I truly wonder...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116681510288073692?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1166806582936815462006-12-22T08:49:00.000-08:002006-12-24T08:34:12.056-08:00It's a long time since we went out properly...<br />To me anyway...<br /><br />If to meet you for a few minutes...<br />I will still be glad...<br />Really happy actually...<br />If that is the word for how i would feel...<br /><br />But those feelings...<br />I know won't show on my face...<br /><br />It's just that...<br />I'm too happy to see you...<br />After a long time...<br /><br />So many feelings...<br />Rushing out...<br />Just at that very moment...<br />You'll know when you see it...<br /><br />To tell you the truth...<br />If you get to read this...<br />Though i doubt it...<br />I planned to meet you...<br />On surprise...<br /><br />My plan was to meet you under your block...<br />On the 25th of december...<br />Exactly at 0000 hrs...<br /><br />With two pieces of log cakes...<br />Juz the two of us...<br /><br />But...<br /><br />Due to plans that you had...<br /><br />Which i didn't know of...<br /><br />I guess...<br /><br />It's not possible...<br /><br />But...<br />I hope...<br />You'll have fun with your fwens...<br /><br />And i'm happy if you're happy...<br /><br />So...<br />I guess i'll meet you another time then...<br /><br /><em>A smile on your face...<br />Is all i wish for...<br /></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116680658293681546?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1166211773095800322006-12-15T11:38:00.000-08:002006-12-15T11:42:53.526-08:00<div align="center">Though you're smiling...</div><div align="center">It still seemed to me as...</div><div align="center">deep down...</div><div align="center">you're still sad...</div><div align="center">Geez...</div><div align="center">I shouldn't have looked at her face...</div><div align="center">especially when i wanted to stop...</div><div align="center">reading the manga...</div><div align="center">lolx...</div><div align="center">Haha...</div><div align="center">I'm reading manga...</div><div align="center">And others may not feel the way i do...</div><div align="center">But reading it always gives me...</div><div align="center">a heavy heart...</div><div align="center">Though the girls are smiling...</div><div align="center">I still sense a sadness behind it...</div><div align="center">Haha...</div><div align="center">The creator must be real good...</div><div align="center">Anyway...</div><div align="center">I'll update about myself next time...</div><div align="center">Ciaoz...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116621177309580032?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1166154910347044572006-12-14T19:54:00.000-08:002006-12-14T19:55:10.650-08:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116615491034704457?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1165151834014923022006-12-03T05:17:00.000-08:002006-12-03T05:19:31.376-08:00Well... I'm sorry for neglecting my blog for so long...<br />And this is not an update on my life... hehe...<br />I've actually made a draft post which i haven't posted up...<br />It's a few weeks back...<br />But i dunno when i'll be posting it...<br />Or if i'll ever post it up...<br /><br />Anyway...<br />I've been wanting to post this quote for a long time...<br />I read it in a ghost story book...<br />"AKUMA" by ASURAS...<br />I realise what was written is true...<br />But...<br />Haha...<br />It ain't the kind of thing that you would actually expect<br />to see in a ghost story book...<br /><br />Anyway... This guy starts to like this girl...<br />They've been working together for a while...<br />He's able to work in that place cuz the girl is leaving soon...<br />And the work is to be passed to him...<br />So she sort of teaches him the ropes...<br />And he starts to like the girl...<br />And on the day she has to leave,<br />the guy asks for her number...<br />But the girl did not oblige the guy's request...<br />"She then obliged him with what she calls,<br />her philosphy of life"...<br /><br />Okay, the sentence above was sorta part of the book...<br />Here's the quote;<br /><br />"The joy and company that we have shared will remain in our hearts forever.<br />It is only when people get too close together, that friction results.<br />Let our memories of one another remain pure."<br /><br />The part "It is only when people get too close together, that friction results",<br />is what i feel very true...<br />Probably from past experience...<br /><br />Well... won't explain further...<br />Gtg...<br />Arivedarchi!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116515183401492302?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1164603199404491592006-11-26T20:46:00.000-08:002006-11-26T20:53:20.753-08:00<div align="center">Okay... Sorry for the lack of updates... </div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Life... is pretty chaotic for me now...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">FYP is long overdue...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">And it's not yet finished...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Been thinking of staying back...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">For another semester...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Just in case i fail my FYP...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Got my assignments to do...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">And i've made my mind up...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">I won't be climbing...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Till everything has been settled...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Can't blame anyone for the shit i'm in....</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">It's the same thing repeating again...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Only difference is...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Got no one taking care of my back now...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Well...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Every action causes a reaction right??</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Cause and effect...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Basic rule in living...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Haiz...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Got to do my FYP now...</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">Ciaoz...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116460319940449159?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162490631271886102006-11-02T10:03:00.000-08:002006-12-10T07:31:20.573-08:00Hey!! Gona post this up!!<br />Anybody manages to see this, tag me ayite!!<br /><br />Thought of blogging about what's happened so far... But gona keep it for later...<br /><br />Well... I've posted the song by Aslyn...<br />Not the official video clip...<br />But... It's the only ones i can find...<br />Love both of them...<br />Each with their own uniqueness...<br />Haiz...<br /><br />I've realized...<br />It's been over a year since i've been single...<br />And when i look back...<br />I feel strange...<br /><br />I mean...<br />People around me...<br />Well... mostly...<br />are attached...<br />And if they're not...<br />It's because they just broke up not too long ago...<br />Or they're just playboys...<br />and etc...<br /><br />But when i think it through...<br />I wonder why i feel this way...<br />I mean...<br />During Secondary School...<br />I finally took a girlfriend at Secondary Four...<br />When my other guy friends were already steadying...<br />at Sec 1...<br /><br />Diaowz...<br />But hey...<br />I guess i have only myself to blame right...<br />Cuz i'm not the type who can fully trust someone...<br />Like as though we'll be together for long...<br /><br />Well... I still can't understand why i'm typing this...<br />It's almost the same as the one i posted before about love...<br />I guess... Cuz... It keeps appearing in my head??<br />Or because...<br />I feel so lonely now??<br /><br />Well... being single has it's pros...<br />I'm having more time to myself...<br /><br />Well... I have to remind myself...<br />I have a tight schedule now...<br />With my training and everything...<br />What's more...<br />It's not like i have spare change to spend,<br />once i've used up my pocket money...<br /><br />Haiz...<br />Guess i'm typing this cuz...<br />I'm thinking of her...<br />Not really sure why...<br />But...<br />when my friend talks about you...<br />although i never even think about you for a long time...<br />and i thought that i've taken you out of my head...<br />And told myself that we're only fwens...<br />The mere conversation of you...<br />brings your face to appear in front of my eyes...<br />leading to a smile stretching from ear to ear...<br />which i can't stop...<br />no matter how hard i try...<br />i look like a dumb fool...<br /><br />But... even so...<br />No matter how i look at it...<br />I don't feel that we're cut out for each other...<br />So... just like the past...<br />I'll take the same road...<br /><br />After all... you said it so to me too last time...<br />Regarding the relationship between u and my friend...<br />You're afraid that when things won't work out...<br />And that you may break-up with him...<br />And you're afraid that you'll lose him even as a friend after that...<br />So why ruin things...<br />You believed that friendship shall last longer...<br />But i told you that it ain't true...<br />And i guess i was right...<br />For when you did not take the plunge...<br />He walked out...<br />Well... I told you so...<br /><br />Guess that's the similarity between us...<br />We're afraid that if things don't work out...<br />And things get ugly...<br />We'll lose the other party...<br />Even as friends...<br />But... I'm sorry...<br />This is the path i'll take...<br />Just like so many other times...<br />And so...<br />Gomennasai<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116249063127188610?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162487737774486272006-11-02T09:15:00.001-08:002006-11-02T09:17:35.766-08:00<b>That's When I Love You</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/0BaCaqojopg" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116248773777448627?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162487717840188342006-11-02T09:15:00.000-08:002006-11-02T09:16:48.556-08:00<b>That's When I Love You</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/TJRCzkFXS9U" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116248771784018834?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162487632198893622006-11-02T09:11:00.000-08:002006-11-02T09:23:08.260-08:00That's When I Love You<br />by Aslyn<br /><br />When you have to look away<br />When you don't have much to say<br />That's when I love you<br />I love you<br />Just that way<br /><br />To hear you stumble when you speak<br />or see you walk with two left feet<br />That's when I love you<br />I love you endlessly<br /><br />And when you're mad cause you lost a game<br />Forget im waiting in the rain<br />Baby I love you<br />I love you anyway<br /><br />Cause here's my promise made tonight<br />You can count on me for life<br />Cause that's when I love you<br />When nothing you do could change my mind<br />The more I learn the more I love<br />The more my heart can't get enough<br />That's when I love you<br />When I love you no matter what<br /><br />So when you turn to hide your eyes<br />Cause the movie, it made you cry<br />That's when I love you<br />I love you a little more each time<br /><br />And when you can't quite match your clothes<br />Or when you laugh at your own jokes<br />That's when I love you<br />I love you more than you know<br /><br />And when you forget that we had a date<br />Or that look that you give when you show up late<br />Baby I love you<br />I love you anyway<br /><br />Cause here's my promise made tonight<br />You can count on me for life<br />Cause that's when I love you<br />When nothing you do could change my mind<br />The more I learn the more I love<br />The more my heart can't get enough<br />That's when I love you<br />When I love you no matter what<br /><br />That's when I love you<br />When nothing baby<br />Nothing you do could change my mind<br />The more I learn the more i love<br />The more my heart can't get enough<br />Thats when I love you<br />When I love you<br />No matter what<br /><br />No matter what<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116248763219889362?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162315047151987622006-10-31T09:15:00.000-08:002007-04-25T00:27:09.126-07:00On Tuesday, 30/10/2006, yitno spoke ur name... during the 13:00 class at SCM... I don't really know why... but when because of him... ur picture came into mind... and somehow... it made me smile... it's strange... for i thought that my feelings for you had been resolved and settled... But... i just don't know why...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116231504715198762?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162314495561140612006-10-31T08:39:00.000-08:002006-10-31T09:08:16.056-08:00Finally able to post... So sorry for the delays... But i have been busy... And the previous post couldn't be posted after i created it... Don't know why...<br />Anyway... It's 12:34 a.m now...<br />I think i'll just update a bit on what i've done last week...<br /><br />Well... My days were mostly filled with training... as usual...<br />Monday, Wednesday, Friday at Ite Dover...<br />I can't remember whether it was Tuesday or Thursday that i trained at SP...<br />Nothing much happen...<br />During training...<br />Well...<br />We didn't exactly train...<br />Cuz we were doing more bouldering than anything else...<br /><br />But...<br />On Friday...<br />Me, Faizal and Darren went to Vivo City...<br />We were searching for Siti's present...<br />It's her b.dae on this coming Friday...<br />3rd of November...<br /><br />Anyway... Darren was late...<br />Supposed to meet at 13:00 at Buona Vista MRT Station...<br />I knew both were goin to be late...<br />So i left the SP rock gym at 13:00 instead of going off earlier...<br />Mind you... Before you say anything bad about me...<br />They were both late for previous occasions...<br />And i knew roughly when they were going to arrive...<br />Anyway... I arrived at Buona Vista at... 13:15...<br />Faizal arrived around 10-15 mins earlier...<br />And expected... Darren came later... a lot later...<br />13:45...<br />That's 45 mins late...<br />Luckily we didn't wait at the platform and went down instead...<br />Got some "fresh air"... Heehee...<br /><br />Anyway... when we arrived at Vivo City...<br />We saw the Suria actress... Nurul... If i ain't wrong...<br />Anyway... finding the right b.dae present took us longer than i expected...<br />Well... we went off empty-handed...<br /><br />And later in the night...<br />When we were chilling at the kopitiam near ITE Dover...<br />all our plans were almost ruined...<br />Siti found out bits of our plans of surprise...<br />I kept thinking of ways to keep our plans alive...<br />And found one...<br />Well... let's just say that she thinks that her surprise is going to be<br />somthing else...<br />Right now... everything is safe...<br />HEHEHE...<br />Lolx...<br /><br />Well... Anyway...<br />My bouldering mood is low...<br />Don't really look forward to bouldering at ITE Dover...<br />I don't know...<br />It's just that... since my standard shot up...<br />I feel like... different...<br /><br />At times... when i know that i can complete the route...<br />like on Monday... 29/10/2006...<br />I purposely didn't give all out to finish the route...<br />And let the rest finish first...<br />Unless when eveyone is stuck,<br />and i'm able to get thru...<br />I'll just go ahead...<br />Don't know why...<br />But i guess...<br />I'm afraid that people would get de-moralised after seeing me finish...<br />After all... some of them have been training real hard...<br />And all i've been doing recently is slacking off...<br />Since Rock On Singapore!<br />Get the irony??<br /><br />What i'm more afraid of is that...<br />should one day...<br />people were to look at me differently...<br />saying that i'm a show-off or something...<br />and people bad-mouthing me...<br />and push me away...<br />I've seen this before...<br />I just...<br />Don't want such things to happen...<br /><br />Thought of asking some people regarding how i feel...<br />But i guess...<br />The answer is within me...<br />Bits and bits...<br />I shall realize...<br /><br /><em>Stay humble always...</em><br /><em>Respect others,</em><br /><em>and they'll respect you...</em><br /><em>What strength you posess...</em><br /><em>Need not be shown off...</em><br /><em>Use it appropriately,</em><br /><em>Being conscious of that strength...</em><br /><em>is enough and all that should matters most to you...</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116231449556114061?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1162032122313643302006-10-28T02:58:00.000-07:002006-10-31T08:31:12.300-08:00Sumimase!!! Really sorry for the lack of updates... Quite a few things have happened since my last update...<br />I know i want to update this blog... But... i don't know...<br />Guess... it's partly due to the lack of spare time that i have right now...<br />Hmm... i think i'll update bit by bit... regarding what has happened so far...<br /><br /><br />Hmm... I think i'll start with the one event that i can't seem to forget... Hahax...<br /><br />19th October 2006, Thursday<br /><br />Struck by a cupid's arrow...<br /><br />Okay... Class starts at 8:00 a.m and ends finally at 5:00 p.m...<br />But i finally got out of bed at 11+??<br />Hahax... And you probably think that i would go for the next possible class that i can attend... Which was the class from 1:00 p.m to 3:00 p.m...<br />But...<br />I skipped that one too... Heehee...<br />Well... i guess my attendance is bad...<br /><br />Anyway... after i woke up... I started doing my FYP stuff...<br />Well.. actually... my group hasn't really started... And we've got less than 1 month more...<br />Till we have to submit it that is...<br />Anyway...<br />Blah blah blah...<br />Used the comp. to do the research...<br />And after all that... got ready to go to school... and left home...<br />around 2:30p.m??<br />Okay... In the train...<br />Ayu stepped in... at Lakeside...<br />Pure coincidence... I assure you...<br />She was heading to work... dropping off at dhobby ghaut i think??<br />Anyway... when the train reached Jurong East...<br />This girl stepped in...<br />And i was lyke... WOW...<br />She looked real sweet... haiz...<br />Big watery eyes...<br />I think she's either from Thailand/ Phillipines/ Indonesia...<br />Anyway... she was sitting at the row of seats opposite me...<br />Her seat was three/four seats to the left of the seat that was directly infront of me...<br />She was with her mom and younger brother...<br />Our eyes met at times...<br />And at times she would pull away...<br />While at other times, i would...<br />But after a while,<br />she laid her head down on her mom's shoulder...<br />And i was like... haiz...<br />cuz it's rare to see a daughter and mother to be so close like that you know...<br />Haiz...<br />Ayu and i still talked... Though my attention was mostly on her...<br />Sorry Ayu...<br />Anyway... the train finally reached dover mrt station...<br />It was around 3:00 p.m when it reached there...<br />But... i felt like staying... and not moving from my seat...<br />Even if we couldn't exchange words...<br />Looking at you was enough to make my heart go faster...<br />Haha... But looking back...<br />I wish that i had more courage to ask for her number...<br />I finally stopped at Tiong Bahru mrt station...<br />All the time...<br />My eyes on her...<br />Well... almost all the time...<br />If it were all the time...<br />People would think that i was crazy...<br />Haha...<br />Though i do think that i was acting like one...<br />Missing my stop...<br />Just to watch her...<br />Haiz...<br />Anyway...<br />I finally arrived at class later...<br />though i was late...<br />But...<br />it seems that Yitno wasn't coming...<br />He left the school in the afternoon i think...<br />And i was like NANI??!!!<br />Cuz the only reason i came to school was to meet our fyp supervisor...<br />And since Yitno wasn't there...<br />Hafiz said that maybe we shouldn't see him...<br />Haiz...<br />Such fate i have...<br />For if i were to know of this...<br />I would have stayed in that train...<br />Though how ridiculous it may seem...<br />WAAAAA....<br />Well...<br />I trained with carene that day...<br />More of like... Boulder...<br />Anyway...<br />Though... we did a little power training later...<br />1-10...<br />That is doing pull-ups...<br />from 1, then 2, then 3... right up to ten...<br />Haha... though... i think she was the one benefitting more from it...<br />I haven't done much power training...<br />Too lazy...<br />But i know i need and have to do it...<br />If i am to achieve my goals...<br />Anyway...<br />That night...<br />After watching Prison Break...<br />I called Ayu...<br />Well...<br />She said that...<br />She couldn't get the girl's number for me...<br />Since the girl was still in the train after Ayu dropped at Raffles Place to switch trains...<br />Well...<br />Anyway... i just hope that i wouldn't be as shy as this day when it comes to girls next time...<br />Maybe... one day...<br />i shall see her again...<br />I'll just leave it to fate...<br />Okay... that's all that has happened on Thursday... Heehee...<br />Till next time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116203212231364330?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1161419861417692192006-10-21T01:37:00.000-07:002006-10-31T08:38:35.963-08:00<b>PCA Tour Pusher open</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/nV7E64KGguY" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116141986141769219?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1161419771461633152006-10-21T01:36:00.000-07:002006-10-31T08:35:33.150-08:00<b>Psychedelia</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/4A0eIwzr4s0" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116141977146163315?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1160846458843001622006-10-14T10:20:00.000-07:002006-10-14T10:26:01.903-07:00<div align="center">At times... i wonder...<br />when i leave SP...<br />what am i gona do...<br /><br />What future...<br />would i create...<br />for my life...<br />And how do i go about doing it...<br /><br />What road should i take...<br />The one to try to reach my dreams??<br />Or the one...<br />Where most people take...<br />Get a job...<br />Provide for my parents...<br />Get married...<br />Start a family...<br />And just live to...<br />wither...<br />due to the passting of time...<br /><br />I mean...<br />I know i'm currently studying in DMTM...<br />And people probably expect me...<br />to work in that field...<br />And at a point of time...<br />I was a bit more sure... than now...<br />that i would be working in that field too...<br /><br />But now...<br />It seems...<br />I want more....<br />In life...<br /><br />I want to take a different road...<br />A road where things...<br />are not yet predictable...<br />A road...<br />Where i'm not sure i would see...<br />happy faces...<br />But yet a road...<br />I truly wish i could take...<br /><br />I've seen others...<br />Take that road...<br />It's truly one...<br />That you have to fight...<br />To live...<br /><br />And i'm unsure...<br />That when i do take that road...<br />Would i be able...<br />To provide for my family...<br />when i do start one...<br />Would i even be able...<br />to provide for myself...<br />and stand firm on my two feet...<br /><br />Basically...<br />I'm unsure...<br />What career should i take...<br />Professional climbing??<br />Or a desk job at a marine insdustry??<br /><br />I shall continue my studies...<br />due to this uncertainty...<br />I'll treat my diploma...<br />as a back-up...<br />Just in case i need somthing to lean on to...<br /><br />It's strange...<br />What started out as just another sport for me...<br />began to unfold...<br />a road...<br />a chance...<br />for a different kind of life...<br />a life for me...<br />that i thought had all been set and paved...<br /><br />But i guess...<br />What my friend said...<br />Was true...<br />When there's a will...<br />There's a way...<br /><br />For he too...<br />Is in that road...<br />Where uncertainty lies...<br /><br />I guess...<br />I'll decide...<br />after NS...<br />I just hope...<br />that an answer comes to me...<br />by then...</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">~In life... not everything goes as planned...</div><div align="left">all we can do...</div><div align="left">is try... and hope...~</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116084645884300162?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1160494898654766972006-10-10T08:41:00.000-07:002006-10-10T08:53:11.436-07:00It may seem strange... Believe me when i say that i think so too...<br />Cuz i've been fwens with these two guys for a few years...<br />Salfi and Hanafi...<br />But i can say that we hardly know about each other...<br /><br />When we meet...<br />We spend our time playing online computer games at the nearby lan/internet shop...<br />And after that...<br />We chill...<br />Chit chat...<br />And go home...<br /><br />What else is there to do??<br />Just another day out with my friends...<br />I mean... that's what you do right??<br /><br />Except that... in our history of being together...<br />we seldom talk about ourselves...<br />in detail...<br /><br />We do talk about our problems...<br />But that is extremely rare...<br />For me...<br />I don't really feel comfortable...<br />talking about my problems with them...<br /><br />Don't take this the wrong way...<br />We are close...<br />I even consider them as my bros...<br />But i guess...<br />We're close in a different way i guess...<br /><br />I guess...<br />Our group of three is for having fun...<br />Trying to get more out of it...<br />will be hard though...<br />haha...<br /><br />There was even one time...<br />When we sat down...<br />And one of them, Salfi...<br />brought out the topic...<br />of us not actually knowing each other that well...<br /><br />I mean...<br />if you were to ask me about them...<br />I myself am unsure...<br />of what to describe...<br /><br />I guess...<br />What brings us together...<br />Is our love for gaming...<br />but maybe more...<br /><br />Cuz when i think of it...<br />I think there's this bond between us...<br />That although we don't really know each other all that well...<br />as what best friends would/should...<br />I know that it doesn't make us anything less than best friends...<br /><br />When one isn't around...<br />It just feels different...<br /><br />I guess...<br />You may know all about a person...<br />but that doesn't make u best friends...<br /><br />While best friends...<br />may not know each other that well at all...<br />All that matters...<br />is the bond of friendship...<br /><br />I know...<br />that if i ever need help from them...<br />if it's within their will...<br />they'll help me out...<br />Like how i would for them...<br /><br />I just hope...<br />that our friendship...<br />can withstand...<br />the test of time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116049489865476697?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1160313199027708132006-10-08T06:13:00.000-07:002006-10-08T06:15:02.123-07:00<b>Cannon in D</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/W83fP45l3xE" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116031319902770813?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1160311639952574972006-10-08T05:45:00.000-07:002006-10-08T05:55:30.776-07:00Okay... by now... it's pretty obvious... i like Final Fantasy... ok... not only final fantasy... everything that has got to do with japanese anime...<br />Bleach... Inuyasha... Naruto... My favourite skins are mostly anime-based... haha...<br />I like the previous skins... they were both from Final Fantasy 7... About the main character... Cloud...<br />Well... he just has this cool aura that he emanates... think that's how it is spelt... diaowz...<br />Anyway... he is cool... but at the same time there's this aura of coldness around him...<br />I wish i had that... haha...<br />Cool... Cold... and Silent type... but at the same time... cute... heehee... LMAO!!<br />The second skin... i love totally... but the layout... haiz... wish the part where words were put into had a proper background... like a totally different colour from the picture...<br />So that it's easier to read!!!<br /><br />Anyway... okay... the tagbox is at the bottom... below the links... So... same thing... if u find it hard to read... tag me... and i'll change again... heehee... till next time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116031163995257497?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1160044468203050592006-10-05T03:34:00.000-07:002006-10-05T03:34:28.300-07:00Okay... i've changed the skin... finally...<br />Anyway... if any of you peeps find the post hard to read,<br />please tell me... <br />Leave a tag to inform me ayite...<br />Cuz if it's too hard to read, i'll change the skin to another one...<br />I've got quite a few waiting to be used...<br />Till next time...<br />Ciaoz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-116004446820305059?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1159930929261078912006-10-03T20:01:00.000-07:002006-10-03T20:02:09.396-07:00Okay... this was actually blogged yesterday... before i changed skin...<br /><br />I think i better blog about this... before i lose the chance... since the next time i'm able to blog is unpredictable...<br /><br />Okay... i'm sorry... i know this skin may bore u... it's been quite a while since i've used this skin...<br />I just like the layout and background you see...<br />Okay... i have found some skins... But not that appealing you see...<br />And i'm too lazy and can't find the right time to change the template...<br />Anyway... while searching for skins... i found one familiar face... Daphne!<br /><br />Yes... daphne from YCSS... I didn't know that she creates blogskins... haha... Well.. i'm not sure if she blogs though... Cuz i dun seem to be able to find her site...<br />Maybe she has it in a different name?? Hahaha...<br /><br />Well... if i do change my blogskin... and you happen to be inside my blog... but can't find the tagbox...<br />It may be because i have not put it up yet... Cuz i may be too lazy u see...<br />I have some links with me... but just too lazy to link them from my blog...<br /><br />Oh yeah... Hatta sent me the song he sang liao... Once i've change my skin... and find a way to upload the song into my blog... I guess i'll put it up...<br /><br />Oh yeah... if any of u have the time and wanna help... lolx... Try finding me a suitable blogskin!<br />The website is blogskins.com...<br /><br />So in the mean time... please bear with the skin ayite!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115993092926107891?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1159852958067554252006-10-02T21:32:00.000-07:002006-10-03T04:01:32.426-07:00For some reason... i can't post more than a certain amount or it wouldn't appear in my blog or others won't appear... So i'll post only this first...<br />Sorry for any inconvenience...<br /><br />Haiz... feeling really tired eventhough it's 12:26 in the afternoon right now... my eyes feels like they're tearing apart...<br />I'm i school right now... had the feeling to blog since the last couple of days... but i just don't seem to have the chance... So now, i'm sacrificing my lunch time to blog... when i can actually use the time to catch up on my sleep at the rock gym... lolx!!<br /><br />Okay... i just feel like talking about how my climbing is right now...<br /><br />Well... i'll begin with my climbing session at ite dover on last friday... I was on form!! believe it or not...<br />The routes that were set and which i saw or asked for were all finished... lolx... For some reason i was on form on that day...<br />But... the style of climbing i had on that day just was unexpected... It was like static... not dynamic...<br />I admit that i prefer to lock and move to the next tile rather that doing a dynamic move to next tile... But it was totally different on that day...<br />What's more... my feet were always stepping on the footholds... As though they had super glue on them...<br />On occasions when the rest of the climbers had their legs flying off the footholds when they attempt to go for the next handhold, mine would stick to the foothold... That's strange...<br /><br />Hazli, the climber who once became Asia's top youth climber, talked to me and said to keep on training... for Rockmaster... just like him... well... most of us are... including me... And then he said not to let him catch up on me...<br />Ikhsan, who was in front of the two of us said that to me too... Since he hadn't climbed for two weeks since Climb On! Singapore... and his standard had dropped...<br />I was like -.-""" lolx... Seriously... It's because... eventhough i'm on my top form... I always have this mindset that the climbers i'm climbing with are all of a higher standard than me... Though sometimes i don't want to believe that...<br />So when the other climbers finish the routes and i don't... I kinda tell myself that i'm of a lower standard than them... After all... Those competing in the Open Category and climbing at ite dover with the least amount of experience is me... haha...<br /><br />Okay...back to Hazli... i then told him that the only reason why i'm performing so well on that friday was because i was on form... I've never climbed like that before on previous training days unless if i was on form...<br />But then he said that this was all mental... It's in the mind... If i think that way, then i'll be that way...<br />He did get my hopes up... After all... If he says that it's possible for me to maintain my perfomance for future trainings and competitions... I will be at my peak!!<br />But... lolx... i wasn't that sure if it was possible... After all... My form never lasted after i took a days break...<br />The only time when i was on form more than a day was when i climbed 1 week straight... And that was like... when i've only climbed for a few months...<br />Anyway... i felt that i should test it out... on Monday... which was yesterday...<br /><br />On Sunday, i finally managed to get into maja vidmar's website... there ahs to be a \en\ at the end of the link that carene sent me... hehe...<br />So i finally managed to get in... And i was watching her videos, climbing in the World Cup... And i realized on thing...<br />She was really smooth... Her body was totally controlled... She's a really static climber... Even her legs were controlled to the point where it seems like she's not tired at all...<br />When placing her feet, she controlled it to the the very end where it was finally placed firmly on the foothold...<br />That's when i felt i want to try climbing like her... Even when she was pumped... her hands were "chicken-wing"... she still climbed with static style... controlling every muscle needed for the execution...<br />So i thought... i should try climbing like her on Monday...<br /><br /><br />So... Monday came... and i was actually looking forward to train on my endurance on that day... I thought i should try Maja's style while doing power endurance...<br />But gary had asked me for help to remove the volume on the SPRC rock climbing wall... And we arrived late at ite dover...<br />This was the second time he made me arrive late for training at ite dover!!!<br />But... i guess... i had to help him... if i didn't... i ain't too sure who would... eventhough there are a lot of people climbing at the rock gym...<br />Oh well... during my climb at ite dover... during the start... i felt like i still have some form in me... And i was able to finish the routes that were given in the beginning...<br />But suddenly... the problem came... or the realization of my loss came...<br /><br />Gary gave this route... it looked do-able... The moves... i was able to do... I was confident in finishing it...<br />But when i later tried... and got to the point of when i had to do the dynamic move... Trouble struck...<br />Okay... the first time i tried it out... i may have planned to the the move in static style... Eventhough the rest were doin the move dynamically...<br />But heck... i just wanted to try things out ayite...<br />Okay so anyway... i tried the static way... and realize that it was too far... So the only way for me is to do it dynamically...<br />Now... my dynamic was never a problem... I always had it tuned... I could always do dynamic moves...<br /><br />Until now...<br /><br />So i tried again... and with my mind set on doing the dynamic move... i executed it... But for some reason... my feet didn't want to let go of the foothold...<br />That's when i realize of the problem... I've lost the feeling... the movement... of how to do a dynamic move... When in the first place... dynamic moves was what i was best at... after locking/ static moves anyway...<br />So now... this is the problem that i have to solve before i get too stuck...<br />I still have not been able to solve it...<br />I think that it's because i did climbed too static on Friday and the beginning part of Monday that i lost it...<br />Haiz...<br />I guess... All i can do now is to wait for Wednesday... So that i can try to get back my dynamic power back...<br />Okay... it's 1:14 now... guess i better end this one here...<br />Till next time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115985295806755425?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1159379782043158232006-09-27T10:56:00.000-07:002006-09-27T10:56:22.803-07:00Haiz... Long time since my last update... Really tired... Since school just started... And now fasting... Have to wake up early to eat and then go back to sleep... Tomorrow's class is at eight... Haiz... dunno if can wake up...<br />Anyway... I've finally let the three kittens go... on 26/27 of september 2006... On the 26th night, at around 10+... i let them go under faizal's block, together with him as company... After that, went to his house adn watched 50 first date... After that, on the 27th, at around 1+... we checked them out... They were still there... But in a bicycle basket... Dunno how they got up there but faizal put them back down... It couldn't be that they climbed the bicycle or anything... Cuz if they did, they would know how to climb back down... Which they didn't... We walked away and chatted a while till 2+ and checked them out... And once again, they were in the basket... This time sleeping... Guess someone must have put them in there... for some reason... Anyway... after that... we left... Got class the next day at 10... Haiz... Early this morning before school, i left some food for them before going to school... although i was late... Haha... Anyway... when i was there in the morning, the box i left them were gone... so were the papers where i lay down the food... So i tore off the front page of one of my notes instead... haha... Couldn't stay long as i was already late... After giving them the food, i immediately left... Unknown to me that that would be the last time i see them... sadly... Cuz faizal told me that when he went down in the afternoon to feed them before going to ite dover to climb, they weren't there... He searched but couldn't find them... Haiz... It must be someone has taken them... I really hope that they're in good and safe hands... So... before me, my sis and faizal went home just now... we tried searching for them... Just to check if they were still around... but they weren't...<br />Anyway... training during the fasting period is kinda hard... On monday, we did some endurance training... Doing the training left me breathless and made me see stars... I guess i have to train on my breathing too...<br />Training just now was fun... Did fun campus... sort of training... with gary... lolx... funny... though it does have its effect...<br />When everyone was leaving... Gary told me to stay... He wanted me to roll him one stick and watch/listen Hatta sing... My sis, not knowing that, took Hatta's bicycle and left... LOLX!!! BUT IT WAS TOTALLY UNBELIEVABLE!!! Seriously, his singing seems to be more nicer than that of the original singer of the song as claimed by Gary, and after i checked the song by the singer in youtube, i found it true!!! It totally gave me goosebumps!!! He sang this song titled: I'd rather. I suggest you peeps check it out!!! Seriously... just listen to the lyrics... though it may not be as good as Hatta's version... hehe... I hope Gary can make a recording of Hatta's version and burn it... I want to upload it... It totally sounds as though he's a professional singer!! He should be in the idol thing man... Haha... But... he just doesn't like to sing in front of crowds... Dunno why though... Think shy... lolx... Well... i would type more... but it's 1:49 am now... need to wake up early tml... Till next time!! Good nytez/morning!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115937978204315823?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1158690350277764402006-09-19T11:24:00.000-07:002006-10-08T05:38:41.176-07:00<span style="color:#33ff33;"><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">After thinking about it through... and for quite a period of time already... I have finally decided to send the three kittens to the SPCA... Will be going there today... In the morning later... It's 1:43 a.m ryte now... Hmm... eventhough i have not sent them yet... the mere thought of sending them away saddens me...<br />I've taken a few pictures of them... a few days back... and i might be uploading them if i get the chance... since the camera i used wasn't mine but belongs to faizal's family... Haiz... they look so adorable and cute when they are let loose from their cage to play... That's the main reason why i'm sending them away... I have been trying to look for people to take them in... but to no avail... SPCA is my last choice... I hope that someone picks them up... or else... Allah forbid... they will be put to sleep... I hope that their new family would be able to give them what i can't... and more... I can't bear keeping them stuck in that cage all the time and only let loose to play for only a short period of time each day... And what's more... i wouldn't be able to do anything much if anything were to happen to them like the other day when Matahari was sick due to overfeeding... Now my siblings know that feeding them everytime they go about meowing can be dangerous to their health... It's because they make sounds not only when they want food but also when they want to go out and play... Though i did have a hunch on this one before Matahari was sick... that's why i feed them only in periods of 4 to 6 hours...<br />If i were to give them names... I would call them... Matahari, Bulan, Bintang... That's Sun, Moon, Star... One of them is white with brown spots... She's Bulan, a.k.a Moon... The other two are orange... One is brighter while the other is darker orange... I name the lighter one Bintang, a.k.a Star... and the darker one Matahari, a.k.a Sun...<br />Bulan is the naughtiest one... Always meowing whenever she wants to go out and play or wants her food... She's the one that plays the roughest amongst all the three of them... She would even knock the other kittens down when they're climbing a tall object such as a bag when she's already ahead or on top of the bag just for fun... lolx...<br />Bintang is the one that runs the fastest among the three... Bintang can suddenly sprint and the next moment... she's already far away...<br />Matahari is the smallest one... quite skinny... Seems to be a little sick... even vomitted the other day and didn't eat for a while... But seems like Matahari's health is improving...<br />All of them have their curious nature... I take extra care in Matahari now due to fear of her getting into any more harm...<br />During the first few days since i picked them up... Only Bulan can eat dry food... solid food i mean... Matahari and Bintang were not able to... and the two of them can hardly lick the milk out of the bowl... But a few hours ago... My sis bought this friskies food for kittens... It's in a purple packet... for kittens... I think it's like sardine or sumting... Anyways... All three of them loved it... Hehehe...<br />Eventhough there are times when i would feel lazy to take care of them... like when i have to feed them or watch over them when i let them out of the cage in my room to play... there are still the rewards... Seeing them play puts a smile on my face... I know i would miss the times when i have to wake up early to feed them... Though i am a little lazy about that... I know that in the beginning after sending them to SPCA... there will be this abnormal silence without the kittens... there will be this empty spot in my room where i used to go to early in the morning to check out my three kittens... Haiz... all i have after that... are memories... i just hope that their faces... and both the sweet and bitter memories of the times when they were around since they entered my life... or i entered theirs... shall remain with me till eternity...<br />Anyway... At the start... My sis told me to give them away before i get too attached to them... But... We've grown quite fond of them... There's this sense of attachment for me towards the kittens... Haiz... I hope... after letting them go... i won't look back too often to the times when they're around... just like i usually do for other cases... haiz...<br />Hmm... though... on a lighter note... I'm not really sure if the SPCA will take them in... If only i had Esther's hp no... Haiz... NVM... i don't want to trouble her...<br />Anyway... it's 2:47 a.m now...Think it's my first time blogging for so long... I think it's because this post is extra special... I'm editting... and re-editting... Trying not to miss anything... Cuz i may use this as a means to look back into my past and see... what my life's so far like... Recalling what it's like have the three kittens... So... Until here then... Till my next post!! Ciaoz!!!... </span></em><br /><em></em><br /></span><span style="color:#33ff33;"><span style="font-family:arial;"><em><span style="font-size:85%;">losing things we love is a part of life... </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">all we can do...</span> </em></span><br /></span><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#33ff33;"><span style="font-family:arial;"><em>is to learn from them...</em></span><br /></span></span></span><span style="font-family:arial;"><em><span style="color:#33ff33;"><span style="font-size:85%;">take it in our strides...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">cherish their memories...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">and appreciate what we have now...</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">before we lose them too...</span></span></em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115869035027776440?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1158430781625308802006-09-16T11:17:00.000-07:002006-09-16T11:19:41.900-07:00Okay... it's 2:13 a.m now... My internet connection is really faulty... I couldn't blog what i wrote earlier... But i've managed to get back on... somehow... and now the link's a little faulty... So... anyway... before i lose my connection again... here's what i wrote earlier...<br /><br />Okay... It's Sunday morning 00:56... hehe... actually midninght... lolx... Anyway... Been thinking of blogging for the past few days... but just dun have the chance... But i got one now... heehee...<br />Okay... Last Wednesday was my b.dae... Tanx for all the wishes!!! I got a new pair of rock climbing shoes... Though... i actually didn't want it... Cuz i actually planned to buy one using my own money... Well... i just don't like some people to give me gifts... I dunno... Maybe cuz i want to be independent??? Anyway... the shoes were from my sis, dad, mom and faizal... Tanx ayite!! But i think i bought the wrong size... Should have down-sized it some more... Cuz my gal is like UK 6.5... And the Anasazi is only UK5.5... I forgot that gal was a broad-feet model, and Anasazi is not... Well... i'll just wait a few months more and see how things turn out... heehee...<br />Oh yeah... something's wrong with my tag box it seems... Need to find out what's wrong though... For the time being, please bear with me... So sorry... I just hope i don't need to re-do my whole template... But if i do... I guess that it's just about time to change my blogskin... Heehee... Well... We'll have to wait and see if anything comes up ayite... cuz i don't really have an idea of what type of blogskin i want...Hmm...<br />Anyway... the three kittens are asleep rite now... Think i'll have to wake up early... just like the rest of the days to feed them... I've decided that i'll be giving them away... Cuz i feel bad about keeping them... It's because of the fact that i can't let them out of the cage and let them run around in the house... I don't want anything to happen to them because of me not being able to take care of them properly... And what's more... School will be opening back soon... And when i have to go back... How the heck am i to take care of them... Haiz... I just hope i can find someone to take care of them before that happens...<br />I'll just wait and see what happens... But putting the kittens aside... My friend have gone to NS... On Tuesday... Haha... And i totally forgot about it... So... i couldn't really see him on the day before... So sorry... I totally forgot... Well... It's strange you know... It's like... We've been together since after the "O" levels... And since i started rock climbing... we don't meet each other as frequently as before... though we still are close... but since he left for NS... i somehow miss him... lolx... But during the time before, although we never met... i somehow never thoguht about him that much... Haha... I guess... it's because that i know he'll be there whenever i call upon him... But... haha... i guess it's different now... Things wouldn't be the same as before without him in our little gang of three... Haiz... Guess what i say about loved ones in the previous post was true... heehee... Anyway... i won't go further... it's 1:18 a.m now... I gtg off now... Till next time!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115843078162530880?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1158086015847186312006-09-12T11:33:00.000-07:002006-10-08T05:44:57.083-07:00<span style="color:#cccccc;">Okay... it's 2 o'clock in the morning now... Can't go to sleep just yet... Need to feed 3 kittens later... Haha... Kittens?? Well... i'll tell u about it now...<br />It happened this afternoon... well... maybe almost evening... it's like 5 plus in the evening that time??? Anyway... i was about to meet faizal at his place... just to chill i guess... but we actually were supposed to do some power training today but azhar couldn't show up... and i'm feeling too lazy...<br />So... as i walked out of my house, and through the corridor to get to the lifts... i saw 2 kittens near the lift doors at the 6th floor (i'm staying at the 7th floor)... So i rushed there to see what's going on... But as i neared the staircase to get to the floor below... i saw one kitten at the front of the lift door...<br />so there's one kitten at the front of the lift doors on the 7th floor... and two kittens at the front of the lift doors on the 6th floor... So i picked up the one on the 7th and went down to the 6th floor... Okay.. so now there's three... Get me so far??<br />Okay... So... I'm not really sure if they're strays... belong to someone... or were dumped... but i felt it was more likely to be either the 1st or 3rd... But... i had to be sure...<br />So i played with them a little... and soon enuf... a lady... in her late 20s or early 30s came by... i asked her if the kitted was hers and she said no... She was goin to call the town council to take the kittens away... It seemed that a malay child had dumped the kittens there... This was reported by the lady's daughter who claimed saw the incident...<br />So i asked the lady what the town council would do... And she said that they would probably kill it...<br />And that was why i took them... to faizal's place... But... faizal already had a cat... and it seemed that she doesn't like caompany... So... throughout the whole time the kittens were at faizal's place... faizal's cat would only stare at the kittens and refuse to eat... and when the kittens came too near... it would suddenly become fierce... as if ready to attack...<br />And that's why faizal can't keep the kittens... And now... i'm staying up to feed the kittens... They're awake not... and playing inside the box... They seem to wake up too early for my liking... Well... It's natural i guess... When youngsters are hungry, they cry... Guess it's like the same for kittens... When they're hungry... they wake up... and try to grab our attention i guess...<br />I don't want to throw the kittens away cuz i fear that they can't take care of themselves and search for their own food... Moreover... there's the case where there's a maniac on the loose who's killing cats... for some stupid reason... And the police have yet to capture him... Hope he's caught soon...<br />Well... putting the cats at my place would be easy if my mum would stop nagging at me not to take the cats in... Well... i just hope some sense can be knocked into her... Hope ALLAH helps me out here... Even though i'm unworthy of HIS attention... But i just hope that HE helps me put here and also the kittens... If i have to get rid of them... I just wish that i can raise them up and let them grow bigger before i have to do such a request... Hope ALLAH hears my plea... and to decide whether or not to help me is up to HIM... But i really hope HE does help me...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115808601584718631?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157914403729233572006-09-10T11:53:00.000-07:002006-10-03T03:49:42.723-07:00<b>The Fast and The Furious Tokyo Drift Music Video</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/p07GQhBdIPQ" width="400" height="325" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#cc0000;">dance to the beat ayite!!!</span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115791440372923357?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157914310035067852006-09-10T11:51:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:53:00.336-07:00<span style="color:#663366;"><em><u>The Fast And The Furious Tokyo Drift</u></em><br /><em><u>Teriyaki Boyz</u></em><br /><br />I wonder if you know<br />How they live in Tokyo<br />If you seen it then you mean it<br />Then you know you have to go<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br />(Repeat)<br /><br />(Japanese verse)<br />Rasha ii, omachido sama<br />kenso mamiro konomachi no enso dama<br />tamama ichido tsuite oide<br />sekaiju miryu suruhodoni goukana<br />Japan, Ichiban<br />Jump around sa uchirano deban<br />Teriyaki Boyz in the place to be<br />he said intyaro kai in VIP<br /><br />many many diamonds danglin<br />Bag full of money we stranglin<br />Hate me, fry me, bake me, try me<br />All the above cuz you can't get in<br />I don't want no problem<br />Because muy professional<br />Make you, shake you, ketsu (Thank you!)<br />Haters take it personal<br /><br />(Japanese verse)<br />like kakanada tai tets o now<br />drop it on lets go now<br />na nachima mai nimits o<br />lets not chiki chima over<br />wets go nets go<br />tsuhilohilo over every color<br />esgo esgol<br />ju waktu chunai niikro<br />new waksu itsukunai pingpoi<br /><br />(Chorus)<br />I wonder if you know<br />How they live in Tokyo<br />If you seen it then you mean it<br />Then you know you have to go<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br /><br />(Japanese verse)<br />HI. watashi Teriyaki<br />Boyz. attoyuuma hukitobasu<br />noise. manshij kitemas indaghe<br />tow banow gazmo windemas<br />beyshiku wa supplies<br />de. majmanchika abunai<br />te. ninjehu kenjahu<br />dakido geisha<br />all on the rocks say<br />karanosha<br /><br />Should see me in the parking lot<br />7-11 is the spot<br />Fights with wings and shiny things<br />And lions, tigers, bears, Oh my ride<br />We're furious and fast<br />Super sonic like JJ Phat<br />An' we rock cuz the wheels are fly<br />Can't be doubt with a baseball bat<br /><br />(Japanese verse)<br />like kakaru a<br />kiyo koto sa<br />matata in dey soki sayk yo<br />ingosipta sh*to fokusai<br />tekimatzailo kwanzai<br />fola kwanza<br />fara daka bumotosto<br />dojidas score four points<br />from far east coast to<br />dosi sai<br />watashi no kansito<br /><br />(Chorus)<br />I wonder if you know<br />How they live in Tokyo<br />If you seen it then you mean it<br />Then you know you have to go<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br /><br />(Japanese verse)<br />ya, ichiban maeni chito kitong kitas<br />hito aylam tobi tobida<br />mueruyo sh*to bochi bochi na<br />kuma nigi dasusu kochi kochi eh<br />heat up de tobisou<br />machiwo subette rekong<br />mechakari mundantesha<br />fu guchaw chan<br />fast an furious<br /><br />It's gotta be the shoes<br />Gotta be the furs<br />That's why ladies choose me<br />All up in the news<br />Cuz we so cute<br />That's why we so huge<br />Harajuku girls know how i feel<br />They respect i keeps it real<br />Not a Chinaman cuz I ain't from China man<br />I am Japan man<br /><br />(Girls Talking)<br />You see him come and go out of the black Benz SLR.<br />I wonder where he get that kind of money?<br />Don't worry about it.<br />Lets Go<br /><br />(Chorus)<br />I wonder if you know<br />How they live in Tokyo<br />If you seen it then you mean it<br />Then you know you have to go<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)<br />Fast and furious (Drift, Drift, Drift)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115791431003506785?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157912965370446942006-09-10T11:29:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:56:23.976-07:00<b>LOSE MY BREATH - DESTINY CHILD</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/7Hz4OP3y5Gc" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><br /><br />Just posting this song... I just like the drum beats and the dance moves...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115791296537044694?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157908974852565962006-09-10T10:13:00.000-07:002006-09-10T10:24:22.523-07:00<span style="font-family:arial;color:#000099;">So Climb On! Singapore 2006 is finally over... my right leg is moaning... the right ankle is sprained... but not too serious... cuz i landed in between the crash pads when i fell... Couldn't really perform up to my best as i had hoped for... for some strange reason which i do not know...<br />Need to seriously start serious power and stength training... Even the small thailand kid who was like at the most in primary school age... seemed to be stronger than me...<br />He showed me that height truly is not a big factor in climbing... Heck... He finished routes that i couldn't finish... WTF???!!!<br />So i guess i've learnt that my power and strength is still too weak...<br />But from this competition... i'm glad... cuz i could finally compare myself and the rest of the climbers...<br />But... i can see there's some improvements in me... Hehe...<br />I still have quite a long way to go before my short term target can be achieved!<br />It's roughly six more months before Rockmaster... I have to train hard...<br />I just hope that i can train hard...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115790897485256596?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157908379643810462006-09-10T09:51:00.000-07:002006-09-10T10:25:43.440-07:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#990000;">I've sometimes wondered...<br />quite a few times...<br />regarding couples...<br />how can one truly belief that they'll stay together... and act like as though they're truly one...<br />even when they've only just started going out together...<br />they seem to show tremendous trust in each other...<br />and act like as though they will stay together and get married and so on...<br />when there's always a chance for a break-up...<br />they're willing to spend for the other party and truly become selfless...<br />and it just seem so natural to them...<br />it's like... they do things... for the other party... or for their togetherness...<br />and not ever doubting the other party...<br />and never ever have the slightest thought that they'll one day break-up...<br /><br />for in every of my so-called relationships...<br />i have never been able to trust the other party completely...<br />i've always thought of the time when we'll break-up...<br />which eventually...<br />which i might add...<br />not long after the start of our so-called relationship...<br />truly do happen...<br /><br />for those couples...<br />is it that they wish to just enjoy the moment...<br />and not bother about these doubts...<br />for it will just affect the moment...<br /><br />or is it that they truly believe...<br />and trust...<br />the other party...<br />and their love for each other...<br />so much...<br />and that the realtionship...<br />shall prolong...<br />till death...<br />or furthermore???<br /><br />or is it just plain natural...<br />works or mother nature...<br />or god...<br />which comes together with love...<br /><br />i hope one day...<br />i'll be able to truly experience this...<br />and when i do...<br />only then...<br />can i get the answer...</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115790837964381046?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1157647582562376732006-09-07T09:45:00.000-07:002006-09-07T09:46:23.773-07:00Dammit... okay... you may not believe me... but heck... I did try to blog a few days back... But for some reason... the connection was faulty... I'm using a modem... The post i was trying to do was like 2 days since the previous one... So... all that i've typed went gone... I tried to save the data... and for some reason... it's gone... guess the connection was totally cut before it could be saved as a draft... and thanks to that... i've forgotten what i wrote... But luckily... i did copy the stuff into microsoft word... phew... and i will just paste it here... So this is what i wrote on that day... which was done halfway... and... okay... jsut read if u wanna know...<br /><br />"Lolx... Okay... i basically had a conversation with one of my fwens the other day... and as i type this, i'm actually smiling from ear to ear as i think about what we were talking about... Okay... she knows who she is... i won't say it out here... lolx... So okay... i guess i have to blog more often... as she says... and i agree lar... anyway... i'm forcing myself to blog right now... it's 03:25 am right now... and hell... i'm still awake... heehee... Anway... there are some things... strangely!!... that is in my head that wants be blogged out... But... dunno where to start... Okay... think i'll start with how was my day...<br />Basically, i went climbing... again!!... But before that... haha... went out with faizal to service his handphone... cuz it's been sending out MMS in the middle of the night for some stupid reason... maybe got virus... should be lar... anyway... after that we went to ite dover to boulder... it's boulder day today... for some stupid reason... i can't climb properly... it's because of my galileo being busted and all... but heck... i only failed to complete two routes... so overall it's okay... anyway... my power and strength is weakening... can see by how tired i get after doing light power training after the whole boulder training...<br />Okay... so... i should be pouring out my thoughts into this blog huh?? haiz... okay... i'll try... if that makes u happy gurl!! But!! before that!!! anything i say... stays between the readers here and this blog... ayite!!!<br />Haiz... i still can't believe i'm doing this... okay... basically... eveyone has a lot of thoughts right... i can't go into specific details of my thoughts... but brief should be okay right??"<br /><br />Okay... so it's up till here... so sorry.. i can't remember what's in my mind back then... When i do... i'll just randomly put up a post in my blog... ayite?? Okay... till here... Ciaoz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115764758256237673?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1156961958884610252006-08-30T02:14:00.000-07:002006-08-30T11:19:58.943-07:00Okay... just added another video clip... Well... it's 1:47 am now... can't sleep... well holidays... i dun sleep early this days nyway...<br />I wanna say a lot... But just can't find the right words...<br />And can't remember some of them... lolx...<br />So... i think i'll just type randomly what i can remember...<br />And want to remember/recall back when i look back into this blog in the future...<br /><br />First thing...<br />Have been thinking what mabel said last week... i think... blogging not private... lolx... So thought maybe should create another blogsite?? Where i can type freely... I'm thinking of using it as a personal diary... Lolx...<br />Anwyay... there are some stuff... i haven't blogged... It's still in draft... Don't think should blog them though... Some things left better unsaid... So i just saved them into drafts for memories sake... In the future... Heehee...<br />Sorry peeps... if you disagree...<br /><br />Next thing...<br />maybe now should type out briefly what has happened in my life??<br />Well... first thing probably... is most of my fwens probably know already... been training...<br />But somehow... During the power training... I don't really think that it's working... for me anyway... Not the kind of power training i want... Not hard enough... To me anyway... Guess it's probably everyone, including me is kinda shack... Since we've been training rigorously... And not enough time for the body to recover...<br />Training today was kinda wasted... Powerful route not really the kind that i want... But heck... Can't go for more... Since i have to also think of my other teammates... Anyway... after that... Couldn't boulder... Just couldn't get the usual feeling...<br />What's more is... my galileo's BUSTED!!! got one big hole on each side of the shoe...<br />Can't climb properly u know!!!<br />Still figuring out how the heck am i going to climb in climb on Singapore!<br />Oh yeah...<br />The Climb On Singapore competition is coming up... Everybody is welcome to watch... lolx... It's gona be at expo... hall... dunno... lolx... Not like anyone is gona suddenly turn up or anything... So not gona bother typing in the details... hehe...<br />Oh yeah... Met Hisham from my secondary school... at Clementi bus interchange after training today... Went home together with him... Talked about the past... blah blah... Seems like he still contact with most of the girls from the secondary school days... Talked mostly about silat and the teachers from sec school... and the last time he met up with the chinese gurls... and so on...<br /><br />Oh yeah... i watched the movie "Click" on youtube a few days back... hehe... Good show... wish i have that remote... lolx... then i can replay my life... fix things up... heehee...<br />After watching that... i looked back into on of my books where i write stuffs... lolx... I realize that the poems all kinda messy... So i'm thinking of getting a new book and transfer the poems from the old one into the new one... But haiz... Most of my other poems were inside the computer that crashed... But well... can't do anything about it no more...<br /><br />Anyway... i realize that i like keeping things from my past stay in my past... rather than to face them in the present again... It's already hard enough when i think back about them...<br /><br />Hmm... the weather's been nice... rainy... and windy... since it's the holidays, i like it this way... lolx... very cooling... But hard to train... since body is cold and easy to get injuries...<br /><br />That's about it... Waiting for the semestral exam results to come out... Mine should be on the 13th of September... 12:00 pm... Haha... let's see if luck is with me this time...<br />Anyway... gtg now... enjoy the new song!!! ciaoz!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115696195888461025?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1156921072278011612006-08-29T23:57:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:33:43.126-07:00<b>Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered Clip</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/aubT3QRubXg" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115692107227801161?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1156921034406675912006-08-29T23:56:00.000-07:002006-08-30T10:50:08.016-07:00Take it back, take it all back now<br />The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,<br />I miss that now<br />I can't try any harder than i do<br />All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you<br />I'm broken in two<br /><br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me empty and left to wonder<br />I need you<br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me waiting and left to wonder<br />I need you<br />Yeah I need you<br /><br />Don't walk away<br /><br />Touch me now how i wanna feel<br />Something so real, please remind me<br />My love, and take me back<br />Cuz im so in love with what we were<br />Im not breathing im suffocating without you<br />Do u feel it too<br /><br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me waiting and left to wonder<br />I need you<br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me empty and left to wonder<br />I need you<br />Yeah I need you<br /><br />When im in the dark and all alone<br />Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,<br />Its then i know my heart is whole<br />Theres a million reasons why i cry<br />Hold my covers tight and close my eyes<br />Cuz i dont wana be alone<br /><br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me waiting and left to wonder<br />I need you<br />All the things left undiscovered<br />Leave me empty and left to wonder<br />I need you, I need you<br /><br />Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate<br />But it's my heart<br />Thats about to break<br />You're all i need<br />I'm on my knees<br />Watch me bleed<br />Would you listen please<br /><br />I give in<br />I breathe out<br />I want you, theres no doubt<br />I freak out, I'm left out<br />Without you, im without<br />I'm crossed out<br />I can't doubtI cry out<br />I reach out<br />Don't walk away<br />Don't walk away<br />Don't walk away<br />Don't walk away<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115692103440667591?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1156439374327739132006-08-24T10:09:00.000-07:002006-12-10T07:38:16.070-08:00Okay... Gona post this one up... I doubt anyone can find this...<br />If anyone found this, tag me ayite!!<br /><br />Just watched tokyo drift a few days back... Faizal kept repeating what Hans said... "Life is simple... You make choices and you don't look back..." Haha... how i wish it was that easy... I really do... The part where you make choices i get it... But how do one truly stop looking back and keep moving forward??? The past always comes back to haunt you... I truly wish that i could keep moving on and not look back... Get over the things i did, or failed to do... forget the loved ones who have hurt me or gotten hurt by me... and forget the people who makes me feel different when i think about them... for i always shy away from them...<br />I just visited her blog minutes earlier... and somehow... i got this strange yet familiar feeling once more... I thought that i had gotten over her... I thought it was just a simple crush... But why do i still feel this way... wishing that i could be by her side and hold her near... I really hope that i can get over her... We're friends... and thats that... no more... i want it to stay this way... Besides, i don't even know her that well...<br />And the other day... when waiting for burn at jurong east... think it was 23rd august 2006, a Wednesday... i saw this girl... who looked a bit like my ex... and wth... why am i trying to take a closer look at her and kept wishing that it was her?? I thought taht i had gotten over her too?? Are my feelings for them truly gone?? or are they actually pushed harshly aside... and forced to be left forgotten... just what i have tried to do to all my other ex-gfs... My rule stays firm... Once we break up, it's over... we don't even stay as friends... that's me i guess... But why do i sometimes wish that i could talk to them... as friends in the very least... I dunno... i can't think no more...<br />This post shall be kept as a draft... for memories sake...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115643937432773913?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1155015614601245152006-08-07T22:09:00.000-07:002006-08-07T22:40:16.003-07:00Okay... So today's tuesday... The UIAA sport climbing world cup at singapore expo hall 5b has finally ended at sunday, august 6 2006... having started on saturday, august 5 2006... Experiencing the world cup despite not being able to participate has been an unbelievable experience... Being able to watch some of the greatest climbers beat it out in the world cup... has given me a lot of motivation and inspiration to start training harder... I have realized the huge gap between climbers from the East and the West...<br />Being in this sport for only 2 years is not an excuse... despite the fact that most of these climbers have been in this sport a lot longer than me... I will probably have 1 year left for me to fully commit into this sport before i have to leave school and enter ns and after that, the working world... Climbing in other countries may be a profession... but not in singapore... due to lack of sponsors and support from our own singapore mountaineering federation...<br />That's why... in this 1 year... i have to let go of other commitments... and fully commit into this sport... Experiencing the world cup has truly motivated me beyond my imgination... I couldn't believe how strong and good the climbers were... Including the women... If i were to climb the women's route... haha... i don't think i can get past the second roof... Watching the ladies from the East climb... made me think... if they could get this strong... why can't i?...<br />Haha... and oh yeah... there were some pretty cute ladies there... Well... in particular, Slovenia... Such as Maja Vidmar and Natalia Gros...<br />After watching them climb... my goals have changed... I'm going to do my best to make my previous long term goal into a short term goal... Once i have achieved this, with proper training, i shall proceed to another... But of course... to achieve the first goal... i shall have to surpass some people... I have to... become stronger... better... sicker... and crazier... Slovenia!!! i will one day go there and climb with the climbers there!!!<br />Being motivated... i could push myself when i trained on monday, that's yesterday... One of the climbers gave a pretty sick route... a seriously sick micro crimper... The first time i held it... and came down... my fingers ached... I guess it was too sick... I couldn't get pass the move... Haiz... Shows that i still have a long way to go... But being motivated... i kept trying until my pinky finger bled... only a bit.. no big deal... but it was my first time my fingers bled... haha... guess it really was too sick... We tried again... and again... but we finally made another route... All in all... i guess that... monday was the first time i felt full of energy... but couldn't do my best... but still kept on pushing... haiz... in the end... what kept me going was the thought of one day being able to climb in the world cup and in slovenia... one day i will... definitely... i shall not forget... my resolve...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115501561460124515?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1153644648775196922006-07-23T01:25:00.000-07:002006-07-23T01:50:49.016-07:00Hi all... Haha... I know... i know... i haven't been updating... sorry ok... So i've realized i haven't blogged on what i have been doing... So thought that i should do so today... Hmm... Well... I did it again... skipped another class on thursday... it was only one okay... well... it was the one and only for that day... lol. from 2p.m to 5p.m... Haiz... Reached the bus stop... Then turned back... and bamm... that was it... i'm skipping... Called my friends to meet me... and out we go... But i kept thinking whether i should go or not... But when i look up at the sky, haiz... my answer was found... It was such a nice day... Sunny, yet windy... Blue sky with puffy clouds... Haiz... So why waste such a nice day in a boring classroom??? Everybody dies... not everybody really lives... lolx... I'm gona try as hard as i can to enjoy my life to the fullest... Okay.. that's the main thing on thursday... On friday, i didn't go to SMA day... Totally forgot about it while i was doing my project... But i went out on a chalet... Ya... It was ok... Some of us went to the white house... (OCH)... it wasn't that spooky after a while... maybe cuz there were so many of us... I almost stayed overnight... Told my mum already... But... felt like going home at 2+... Didn't know what to do actually... One of the guy was wasted... almost anyway... i was trying to get him more wasted by giving him more drinks... lolx... meanie me... haha... Okay... i actually thought of not going home and just walking around the neighbourhood after my friend dropped me off in front of my house... Haiz... But... i have nobody to hang out with... So went home... On Saturday... haha... nothing much... went out with my fwen and play silkroad again... Another 10% and i would level up to level 27... Anyway... nothing much happen yesterday... Okay... so that's about it... For today... haha... doing a bit of the gems project now... just helped my group mate finish the missing parts in the scrap book... and another of my mate in helping her find the salary stuff... I guess i'll be going out with my fwens again tonight... Hmm... i haven't been training that much this week... Still a little sick... my sore throat still haven't fully recovered... and i'm beginning to get a cough and all blowing wind feel chilly to me... Haiz... Hope i recover soon... i can't begin to train properly if i dun recover fully... Yar... i haven't been training on my rock climbing actually... But... i should start preparing soon... hehe... And stop slacking everytime i go to ite dover... I feel that i have to improve myself a lot more if i want to achiev my target in Rockmaster... Anyway... that's all... till next time... Ciaoz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115364464877519692?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1152681437965749032006-07-11T22:07:00.000-07:002006-07-11T22:20:02.536-07:00People say that love cannot be described... And to me... even if it's possible... it's really damn hard to put the feelings into words... Different people describe love differently... Some say that it's like being on cloud 9... others say that it's a hassle... To me... it's a bit of both... And also... a blessing... Since it comes only once so often... When you don't have it, you search for it... But it will fail if you try to force love... Such a complicated thing... don't you think??? Though, some say that it's complicated only cuz you make it so... Well... I found a poem... Not made by me... First time i saw it was in a movie called Mr Deeds... Though... some of you may have seen it... But here it is...<br /><br /><span style="color:#cc0000;"><em>Hard to breathe, </em><br /><em>feels like floating...</em><br /><em>So full of love, </em><br /><em>my heart's exploding.</em><br /><em>Mouth is dry, </em><br /><em>hands are shaking...</em><br /><em>My heart is yours, </em><br /><em>for the taking.</em><br /><em>Acting weird, </em><br /><em>not myself...</em><br /><em>Dancing around, </em><br /><em>like the Keebler elf.</em><br /><em>Finally time, </em><br /><em>for this poor shlub... </em><br /><em>to know how it feels, </em><br /><em>to fall in lub...</em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115268143796574903?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1151914044812176602006-07-03T00:52:00.000-07:002006-07-11T22:07:03.890-07:00This is just something i realized... through an experience...<br />It's strange how you treat a loved one... When you're with him/her... at times, you don't know what to say... it's strange huh... and when you have to meet them, you make up all kinds of excuses... especially if it's someone you are related with by blood... you would say that you don't have the time to meet them... you're busy with your school stuff... But... on the other hand... u have plenty of time to go out and enjoy with your friends... strange huh??... And when they leave... you wished that they never did... you would wish that you had spent more time with them... get to know more about them... but... haiz... i guess... that's the way life goes??<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115191404481217660?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150487010191986142006-06-16T12:43:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:34:16.416-07:00<b>When You Say Nothing At All-Ronan Keating</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/wHogUpxUY-k" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115048701019198614?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150486830121472882006-06-16T12:40:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:34:47.253-07:00<b>eYes on Me ( FinaL faNtasY 8)</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/VOsmuENh-0o" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115048683012147288?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150485899598488812006-06-16T12:24:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:35:26.046-07:00<b>A WALK TO REMEMBER</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/h9amb-OCU0s" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115048589959848881?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150484619229678532006-06-16T12:03:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:35:54.636-07:00<b>Cry (A Walk To Remember OST)</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/Pq0yaws9A10" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"><br /></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115048461922967853?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150484279009540782006-06-16T11:57:00.000-07:002006-09-10T11:36:46.383-07:00<b>A walk to remember fanvideo</b><br /><embed src="http://youtube.com/v/Xnk0fAComPw" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115048427900954078?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1150309505867771022006-06-14T11:21:00.000-07:002006-06-14T23:15:51.906-07:00<span style="color:#000099;">Okay... finally found out how to blog video... lolx... Anyway... first video, thought i should blog a video ablout me and my girlfriend... I sang the song for her you know... Lolx!!! Anywyay... to see the video... </span><span style="color:#990000;">just click on the white spot on the top and press play!!! But!!! if u wana see the video without delays... Let it load fully!!! Press pause first and you will see a grey bar loading underneath the sliding bar... Let it load to the end then it will play without "STUCKS" </span><span style="color:#000099;">And oh yeah... deleted my background sound... I dun really know if i deleted correctly... But anyway... saved the encryption in a word doc file... just in case i need it again... So... Enjoy the video of me and my GF!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-115030950586777102?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1149178368307193662006-06-01T09:05:00.000-07:002006-06-01T09:15:24.473-07:00<em><span style="color:#993399;">The most important person of all...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">She is the gal i can't forget,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">The one whom i wouldn't want to lose...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">One of the few who can comfort me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">When i'm feeling the blues...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">Though she and i have grown very close thru all these years,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">There are still many things i could never tell her...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">One of which is the feelings i've kept deep inside my heart,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">The bittersweet feelings of love and dreaded fear...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">So everytime i pray,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">I pray with all my dear...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">Praying that she will not leave me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">and to be consumed by all my fears...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">She would be there not only when i'm happy,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">but also when i'm feeling sad...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">She's there not only during the good times,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">but also during the bad...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">She's the angel watching over me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">Always there to catch me when i fall...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">So it shouldn't be surprising when i say,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#993399;">That in my life, she's the most important person of all...</span></em><br /><br /><span style="color:#993399;">(Completed on 04/09/2004 on 08:54 p.m)</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114917836830719366?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1149177733773064402006-06-01T08:57:00.000-07:002006-06-01T09:03:58.776-07:00<span style="font-family:arial;"><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">My Angel...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">In this cool calm night,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">when everything is at peace...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I wish upon a star,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">wishing that an angel may appear in front of me...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">As the night wears on,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">i realize my wish shall never come true...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">For wishing upon stars,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">is what fools like me would do...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Just when i was about to sleep,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">the phone starts to ring...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">I start praying deeply,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">that it is whom i think it is...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">When i finally pick up the phone,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">reality seems to be a dream...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">A dream full of bliss,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">A bliss that camp be accomplished only by my angel,</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">Mabeline...</span></em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114917773377306440?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1149176725562174872006-06-01T07:50:00.000-07:002006-06-01T08:52:43.620-07:00Hmmz... long time no blog... lolx... sowie... anyway... tink i start with what i did today... and just highlight some stuff that happen over the past few days... Basically... well... i just finished doing my practical exam paper for my business statistics... and haha... i guess doing it this time round was much easier than last semester... because i came for my practical class!!! although i did skip one of them... heehee... after that... went to the rock gym and met the rest of the peeps... oh yeah... it's hanif's b.day!!! Happy birthday!!! haha... he got the b.day "vibrator" present from us... lolx... anyway... after that... i went swimming... with zaki, burn, and syadik... lolx... kinda last minute... i didn't even bring my stuff!!! borrowed burn's shorts and went right in... but!!! i got runny nose after that... my cold haven't fully healed and i forgot about it... daymn... anyway... i bought the panadol medicine... the sachet one... i usually eat that during the early stage of my cold and hope that it goes away b4 getting worse... anyway... yeah... rented vcd cursed... the one about werewolves... hehe... my species... lolx... finally get to watch... actually i bought the vcd last time... but i lend it to my fwen... but he dun 1 2 return bcak to me leh... wth... more that 6 months with him liao... haiz... well... my vcd all everywhere... and i dun really remember what vcds i had lend out... actually... when i went to the vcd shop... i just realized that i had some of the vcds they renting out... but i dunnot who i've lended it out to... diaowz... and i lost my final fantasy 7 vcd... which i bought quite recently!!! diaowz... ok... that's basically what i've done today...<br />wednesday 31/05/06<br />i finally completed my boulder project at ite dover!!! i name it dave carrion problem 1well... thinking about it now... it's kinda easy if u have a lot of power and strength... what makes it hard is trying to figure out how to do it... haha... i got real motivated when i saw the rest of the peeps almost being able to get thru the crux... first was faizal... since he was the first one who got extremely noear to getting thru the crux... next was ikhsan... since he seemed to be able to get trhu the crux... and next was my sis... since she was actually able to get thru the crux if she started halfway from the route... but of cuz... i completed it!!! lolx... but... wouldn't have been able to complete it without their help... heehee... the route was actually set by me... as a project on monday 29/05/06... and since it was a project... it couldn't be completed on that same day... heehee... actually... i didn't plan on climbing that day since i got the practical paper on thursday... but since it's gona be at 3 in the afternoon... heehee... u know... ok... but b4 climbing... i actually went for a job interview... hehe... should be working on sunday from 12-6... my job??... lolx... walking around town from one point to another in a group while carrying this promotion pack about DBS and POSB... it's in conjuction with the singapore sale... didn't know the singapore sale was coming... lolx.. anyway... i also took an exam paper that day... financial management... haiz... eventhough i practiced the multiple choice question and true/false questions by doin the questions posted up at e-learning as advised by my lecturer... wth... the questions that came out were shitty man... they were daymn hard lor... and you expect the section A-C with the true/false and multiple choice questions were easy... wth... they were the hardest lor... lolx... the section D with the calculations were much easier... hehe...<br />okay... i've talked a lot... i'll just put brief details now... hmmx... well on last saturday... competed in the pumpfest bouldering competitions... did real badly... i was bouldering like a climber who just started climbing man... geez... i got last!!! my scores were like 0 0 0 0... lolx.. anyway... when i saw it... i was kinda shocked... sad... ashamed... i also wondered how hte other competitors actually thought of me after seeing what my rank was... but heck... after all that emo stuff... i actually got the motivation to push myself harder and prove to every single climber that i'm still here... i will be one of the best... so for now... i will be doin some secret training... i think... lolx...The feeling of being last and looked down at... one day i will be one of the best... for the moment... everyone who beat me... enjoy the moment of beating me... cuz the next time u c me... my standing will be above u... i will be looking down at u next time!!!And oh yeah... to all those competitors who weren't able to reach their targets... well... i just wana say sumthing which nate gold taught me... this is only for peeps who truly want to achieve sumthing with all ur heart... so decipher this... if u want sumthing... will for it... dun wish for it... will for it, and it will happen... but if u wish for it... it may not happen... get it!!! basically my short term target in climbing is to beat myself... the long term target... i wouldn't say it here... but it wouldn't stay a long term target... i will make it a short term one!!! <em>i won't stay here for long... this is my resolve... if i train, i will push myself for i have no limit... if i face a difficulty, i will overcome it... i won't tremble in fear no more, for it is they who should tremble before me... and finally... if i compete, i will win!!!</em><br /><br />And yeah... think i will publish the two poems that i owed arnab... hehe...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114917672556217487?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1147942456756885712006-05-18T01:54:00.000-07:002006-05-18T01:54:16.943-07:00Ok... i just thought maybe i should blog on how i'm doing at school... Lolx... Quite terrible actually... Since the start of the term... i haven't gone to a single Statistics for Business Shipping II lecture... That means 5 lectures all together... Anyway... i'm right now in the practical lesson... The tutorial just finished... Haiz... 2 more sian hours to go... BUT... i'm quite surprised actually... my new classmates are really friendly... Everytime i go into a tutorial class... The lecturer would of course ask us to practice what had been thought in the last lecture... And of course... i wouldn't know a damn thing... But my classmates would actually just ask me if i knew how to do the tutorial... and actually teach me step-by-step... lolx... Thank god... I didn't expect such friendly people still existed in this earth!!! Haiz... if it weren't for them... i guess... i wouldn't have a damn clue of how to do the tutorial... and i guess... my chances of staying back another semester would be higher... if not for them... haiz... i really owe them... anyway... have real trouble getting up to go to school... even if it is in the afternoon!!! One of my lecturers has been asking if i've been goin to my other classes... I wonder... Does he know that i skip a lot of classes??? Haiz... Anyway... totally touched by how friendly and caring my new classmates really are... They willingly helped me... evnthough i never even say a word or give a hint that i need help in this tutorial class...lolx... But... such friendliness... i dun think can ever come from me... Guess it's because i dun trust others too much... Anyway... gtg now... arivedarchi!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114794245675688571?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1147525659910278652006-05-13T05:30:00.000-07:002006-05-13T06:07:40.490-07:00Okay... haven't been blogging... and thought that maybe i should do so now... since i'm doing some stuff with the computer anyway... Well... maybe i should start with the rock climbing freshie camp... Which was... i think... from last friday until last sunday... and that is... 5th of May till 7th of May... That's like 1 week ago... lolx... Anyway... the camp... in overall was ok... But... damn... this year's freshie not really as lively as the past few batches... But i guess it's just that they were totally drained from the past few activities... All the seniors were totally drained... Most were stoning during the games period... I definitely was... Had to wake up early in the morning to make breakfast... and then also have to clean up... Haiz... Luckily i had a good assistant... Well... more like the vice-president... Lolx... Thanks for helping me prepare the meals for the peeps Carene!!! Well... the whole camp was okay... except for some minor setbacks here and there... It's a lesson to be learnt... for all of us... Anyway... i just hope that this batch of committee members this time round can work well together... And i just hope that they can slowly build a stronger bond between them to overcome difficulties in the upcoming future... One person cannot handle everything... That's why there's a committee... Together, you are stronger... <span style="color:#ffcc33;">I hope any disagreement or feuds between the committee members have been settled!!!... Anyway... i just wish you all good luck... And if there are challenges or difficulties that your committee face and need help in... DO NOT HESITATE TO ASK HELP FROM US!!!</span><span style="color:#000000;"> Okay... aside from the camp... i trained a bit with carene 2 days back on Thursday... Finally did a little body conditioning after god knows how long... My body didn't really ache... But the next day... haha... it ached a bit... But i still went to dover ite with my sis and her bf to boulder... I'm a bit better now... Thanks Carene!!!... think i also benefitted from the training that day...lolx... My mental is better... But not fully psyched... But hey... I'm happy with the way it is... It's better than being de-moralized... Well... next Monday... will be bouldering at Dover ITE... Tuesday... bouldering at SP... and pushing Carene... don't really have plans for the days after that... Haha... Think i'm gona be a little sick... Just when my climbing is getting better... Having a cold... Hope a sore throat and cough doesn't develope from it... and this is usually followed by a fever... This is what usually happens... if i fail to stop the process... lolx... Anyway... i've been trying to create a poem... but unsuccessful... My mind is blocked... Well... see how lar... Anyway... found this blog with only three posts... but they're great posts... gona put the link soon... wait ok... Now... have to go out... Late liao... have to return vcd... Later the shop close i have to return tml... then pay extra... diaowz... lolx... Okay... arivedarchi!!!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114752565991027865?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1146674480061858112006-05-03T09:29:00.000-07:002006-05-03T09:41:20.506-07:00Got home quite early today from climbing... 11+... haha... that's early for me okay... anyway... just finished watching anime so thought of using the internet to check my e-mail and blog... today bouldered at ite dover also very slack... haha... been really slacking for a long time liao... and i dun think i'm going to start training!!!... so... joining pumpfest is still not yet confirmed... anyway... really sian of training liao... if this goes on... think might as well stop climbing right??? find another substitute for climbing... diaowz... but dun think i can find 1 as good as climbing... geez... anyway... was browsing through my student intranet... my student e-mail lar... anyway... i found this e-mail showing who can take the rock gym keys to open the rock gym... haha... the pics of the committee members when they were in their freshie years is totally different!!! lolx... want to laugh liao lar... anyway... carene!!! ur face like so studious the kind 1 lor... lolx... wear those kind of specs... lucky u change ur look a bit... LOLX!!! now wear contact lens... or those thin framed specs... better now...lolx... yar... anyway my sis just came home and asked me how come i've been climbing less these days... very true... anyway... bla bla bla... important thing is... i have to get my interest in climbing back!!! so many things in my life not yet settled... nani!!! -.-! have to buck up liaox...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114667448006185811?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1146418624557684942006-04-30T10:19:00.000-07:002006-04-30T10:37:04.783-07:00Well 1:18 am in s'pore right now... dunno which timing this blog follows... cuz they keep showing different time when i post up a blog... lolx... anyway... cannot sleep... so thought of blogging... anyway... hmm... didn't really do nything much today... except going out with my fwens... and playing a total of 8 hours of online game at the new lan shop at pioneer mall... lolx... costs me quite a sum of money... well... nothing much comes free you know...lolx... that's basically what i have been doing for the last few days last week since my friend introduced me to this new online game called silkroad... it's very good... highly recommended... but may be a little laggy since there are a lot of people playing the game... anyway... after the trip to camp 5 rock gym in KL... my first climbing training was on monday... 7 days ago... which totally sucked... cuz i couldn't climb... probably because i expected too much and too little of me... here and there... and i also got de-moralised... which is one of the worst things that can happen to any climber... anyway that happens alot to me since rockmaster... which is what?? on januray or february... so... i thought of trying to get some motivation... by climbing at singapore polytechnic on tuesday, the following day... i didn't really think that there was any much effect... but there was... i saw the improvement when i came late at ite dover on friday... and well... i was performing better... what can i say... i was even wearing a rock shoe that didn't really fit me properly... but i managed to finish...2-3 boulder problems... and even on-sighting one of them... which no one managed to flash or on-sight... lolx... anyway... i was really happy with my performance that day... i guess... you cannot have too much expectation of yourself when you climb... cuz if you fail to fulfill that expectation, you'll just make yourself de-moralized... Anyway... i've missed quite a few training sessions... but i guess it was worth it... since i got my motivation and mental back... although i am a little distracted by the online game... lolx...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114641862455768494?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1146030589805950642006-04-25T22:41:00.000-07:002006-04-25T22:49:49.863-07:00sumthing's are better left unsaid... i know that... trust me... and sorry ili... i can't tell u who the gurl is... may complicate things... u know... lolx... anyway... i dun think kittygurl is coming online... almost 2... i'll be logging off soon... so...yupz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114603058980595064?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1146025905486562632006-04-25T21:26:00.000-07:002006-04-25T21:31:45.540-07:00well... i just need to know how to input song inside this blog... pics... friend's url... and some other stuff... hope kittygurl can help me... hehe... u dun mind rite??? so sorry if i'm trouling u... then summore i can access msn only at school now... since the msn at home is blocked... including webmessenger!!! diaowz... anyway... i'll try to wait till 1+... hope kittygurl comes online by then... if not... hmm... c how lar... hehe...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114602590548656263?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1145869025025907712006-04-24T01:56:00.000-07:002006-04-24T01:57:05.410-07:00Hmm... Back in Singapore already... feeling pretty shack... but still gona have to go to ite dover later to train myself up... But... today may be a different day compared to the previous few days... I finally got my mental and motivation back... It happened at KL when i was trying to do some pretty hard routes... But deep in me, i knew i could finish them... Just couldn't get myself psyched up to finish any of them... I finally got the long lost feeling that i had last time... The one where i would keep trying to finish the route because i felt i could really do it... I haven't felt like that for months since Rockmaster this year... Anyway... by the time i really got psyched up to finish this particular route that Gary had set, my palms were already red and screaming for mercy... None of them really wanted to hold any of the tiles anymore... It's because the Camp 5 gym is only recently open... So the holds are quite rough... Well... it's really rough... Anyway i finally got really psyched up at 7+... (almost closing time)... and really fed-up and angry... the route got me into some minor injury... and it was turning into some personal battle... But... i finally finished it!!! Mission accomplished!!! I ws really happy... Dave is back!!! Haha... I should be able to perform almost as well when i was at Rockmaster... Almost as well cuz my standard has dropped... Anyway, eventhough i was able to finish only one hard route the whole day, it was worth it... It's a memorable experince since it helped me get my mental and motivation back... Which i've tried for so long... Anyway... the wall at camp 5 is great!!! It's beyond words!!! The walls are boulderwall is fiberglass with countour... the difficulty routes are extremely technical... But i didn't try them... And the crag climbing wall... WOAH!!! Extremely like the real thing... It seemed like somebody took a chunk of rock from somewhere and put it in that gym!!! But of cuz... it felt different... Hehe... All in all... the trip to KL was magnificent... eventhough the group wasn't as united as i felt it should have been... But that's what happens when you're in one big group of twenty people!!! Haha... okie... I'll be getting ready to go to ite dover now... Dave is back!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114586902502590771?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1145864013830200202006-04-24T00:28:00.000-07:002006-04-24T00:40:48.666-07:00Ok... for the second poem...<br /><em></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">Deep in my thoughts,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">while walking in the rain...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">Thoughts of how far apart we are,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">and how things have changed...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">Two years have passed,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">since we last seen each other...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">Deep inside me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">i wish that we were still together...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">No matter how hard i try,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">your face keeps appearing before my eyes...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">You may not believe me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">but the words i've said are not lies...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">Not having you by my side,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">makes my heart ache...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">I wish time would turn back,</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">to the good old days...</span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114586401383020020?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1145560985020160632006-04-20T12:19:00.000-07:002006-04-24T00:44:10.663-07:00Okie... Here's the first poem i made...<br />This one's for you arnab!!!<br /><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>She's the gurl,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>that shall forever stay in my mind...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Out of a milliion,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>she's one of a kind...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Knowing her,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>was a blessing...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Never to part,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>i shall alwayz keep praying...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>But deep inside me,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>i know nothing lasts forever...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>But even if we break our bonds,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>i'll never forget her...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Being friends with her,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>was heavenly...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Memories of which,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>i shall keep till eternity...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>Who she is, i cannot say...</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>But in my heart she'll be,</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;"><em>alwayz...</em></span><br /><br />To all... hope you do not take the above poem for your own use...<br />If you truly need to give someone one... writing down what your heart<br />truly feels is better than stealing the words from other people's heart<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114556098502016063?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1145554089093567852006-04-20T10:27:00.000-07:002006-04-20T10:28:20.586-07:00Hahaha... okie... long time since i last blogged... okie... i'll start with... my studies... regarding me repeating... haiz... looks like i'm gona have to stay in the school for another six months to repeat two modules and complete the whole daymn course... Haiz... But...good news is that the class i'm having the two repeated modules with ain't that bad... Very friendly... lolx... Having a good time there... which is totally great... I just hope i can get to know them a little better... Anyway... I'm going to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow!!! Going there to go to a new rock gym which has been recently built... It's the largest... if i ain't wrong.. in KL!!! Hope to be able to get something out of this trip... Haiz... still haven't started training properly for pumpfest... My climbing mood is going way down... It ain't as fun as it used to be... Haiz... Anyway... Ikhsan, my climbing bro... is back... I hope things will start looking up... lolx... Anyway... away from my climbing life... I miss my old friend!!! I call her arnab... Don't really expect her to read this... so i don't really mind saying her nickname... which i gave... arnab!!!... means rabbit... We haven't seen each other for two long years!!! Haiz... really miss her... Hope i can see her soon... But i'm not sure what to say if we meet... lolx... Haha... made a poem... actually two poems... about her... well... maybe about us... okie... abit of me, her, us... lolx... just read it if you wanna know ayite!!!... Okie... so that's all... Not gona say too much... I'll type the two poems in the next posting... Ciaoz...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114555408909356785?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25047213.post-1143787847261600072006-03-30T22:28:00.000-08:002006-03-30T22:55:28.780-08:00Well... my first posting... hahaha... not really sure of what to write... okie hmm... well... sorry... the blog is not yet fully updated... still haven't completed the looks yet...hehe... but... looks like i have to go to school today... eventhough it is still the holidays... just have to talk to the higher ups regarding how the heck i'm goin to repeat my modules... just hope i dun have to stay in the school for another 6 months just to repeat 2 damn modules... anyway... after that... i gotta go to ite dover... my climbing haven spot... need to train hard for pumpfest... cannot lose this time!!!... it's the last boulder competition this year... and the last chance i have to prove to myself how good i really am!!!... haiz... anyway, away from climbing... that day... cannnot say which day lar... later she suspect... anyway... we were sitting on this bench and we were like... just talking to each other... you know... nothing speacial... i was playing with her handphone... but when she came closer to me to check what i was doing... i dunno... it's like... haiz... my heart beat faster... i could feel her warmth... i just hope that she was my gf sia... haiz... daymn... if only i could hold her in my arms... and stop the time... that would be heaven!!!... i just hope she doesn't find out if she reads this... lolx... it's complicated...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/25047213-114378784726160007?l=randycrash.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>randy crashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03512937158602552444noreply@blogger.com0